somewhere over the rainbow

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

fate

I have a feeling that i m going to lose something..yet again

maybe is just me..thinking too much

but seems that i can see the signs already

well..just hope that history doesnt repeat itself. like wat happened last semester during my final exam period

is ok. does it really matter anyway? it doesnt.

i dont care.

dont want to care anymore

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

trying to stay cool

1st paper on coming monday. 2nd paper on coming wednesday, 2 days after my 1st one. 1 day in between 2 papers. both requires much studying, esp the 2nd one. sadly speaking, i havent really started on any of the subjects. still got classes in uni, still got that stupid work which i m trying to finish fast. trying to stay cool, stay calm. no point stressing up becos it wont help. cant study if i m stressed. but no doubt, i m worried.

Can i really make it this time? sigh....lost of words

I dont know




Monday, May 29, 2006

hope u like the song

Ella - zhi shi dang shi (只是当时)

Sunday, May 28, 2006

sentimental

Jacky Cheung - wo zhen de shou shang le (我真的受伤了)


concentrate

Finally handed in my last report on friday. no more reports :) currently still have one online task in hand, after clearing up this i will have nothing much to worry about anymore except my finals. will start preparing for the finals soon..so much to catch up..sigh

Had some fun..went to watch The Da Vinci Code after i settled my last report n finished a test yesterday. quite a nice movie..not much disappointments hehe. but i paid rm12 for the ticket...heart so pain..at 1st i thought the movie ticket price went up, but today only i know they charge rm12 becos is a new movie. just released last week i think...sigh..i can wait longer then only go for it. is ok. now i know haha..will bear this in mind n wont go for the latest releases. then did some shopping yesterday n today. not too bad. got some good bargains :p currently planning to go for another movie next week. really feel like watching it. hope can make it

Hmm..guess now i should think about nothing else but finals. guess my mind has sort of automatically settled down after i handed in my report yesterday, giving me the signal that i shall start concentrating. concentrate, get all of them done n hopefully no regrets when the results r out. dont really want to care much about anything else now. get the last work done n START. START. START.

And ya..finally recovered from sickness :) so glad. if not how to study for finals? thank god

Human mind is such a complex thing. eventhough sometimes we know dat for certain things in life, thinking much about them wont help. but we still think about them. always on our mind. even if we dont want to think about them anymore, those things will still be there on our mind. how ironic.

人真矛盾

MV below: Ken Hirai - 瞳をとじて (Hitomiwotojite 轻闭双眼)


Meaning of the song:

轻闭双眼 平井坚(ken hirai)

每當早晨醒來 你脫下的衣服總在身邊

過去總能感受到你背後的溫暖 今天卻是一陣寒冷

停止苦笑 拉開沉重的窗簾 炫目的朝陽 每天追趕著我

那天 讓你見到我哭泣的臉 眼淚映照著夕陽
每當我祈禱著能夠卸下肩膀上的溫暖
我的心 與身體 卻都牢記著你

Your love forever
輕閉雙眼 在心中描繪你的樣子
這樣就好 不管季節將我的心置於不顧

有一天對於你的事 我將會失去所有的感覺吧
所以現在我仍然懷抱著這痛苦入眠 也無所謂

那天我看到的星空 許下了願
兩人一起探尋那光芒 雖然瞬間就消失了
我的心 與身體 都因為你而閃耀

I wish forever 
輕閉雙眼 在心中描繪你的樣子
我只能如此 即使世界把我留下置於不顧

Your love forever 
輕閉雙眼 在心中描繪你的樣子
這樣就好 儘管季節將我置於不顧 自顧自的改變顏色

我搜尋記憶中的你 這樣就好
超越了失落而獲得的堅強 是你給我的 是你給我的

Thursday, May 25, 2006

wake up

Didnt really want to blog today. but wanted to link another 2 friends on blog. so will just post something then..

Sick. this morning flu returned..guess my health level now is really low. have not been feeling too good since last weekend. these few days had been better but today there goes my nose again. think have slight fever too. just dont feel good. n flu is tiring. feel weak n sleepy. this is not the time to sleep n relax. 1 test 1 report due on fri, not to mentioned about the finals which will start so soon. sigh. was kind of worried but after a short nap on my way back about 2 hours ago, somehow i m not worried anymore. just a small sickness. no big deal. will make it on friday :)

Rushed my report until 6.30pm today. was supposed to hand in to my lab demostrator at 6pm but i couldnt make it. was so glad that he was still in the lab doing his honours project when i finally went to the lab with my report in hand. n he didnt scold me for handing in late. still asked me whether i had anything else to add in for the content of the report. asked me to take care after i told him that i was sick since the exam period is drawing close. asked me wat i planned to do when i told him my cousin whom i depend on for transport to go uni is graduating. cared to explain to me about his project when i was asking casually about the things he was doing at that moment. asked me to take care again when i was leaving the lab. guess maybe i was just glad that i finally made it to hand in the report to him n glad to have someone to show a little care for me at the end of a day on which i was just kept rushing my report while feeling sick n had to keep wiping my nose haha..all these made the short little chat which only lasted for about a few minutes seemed so nice n significant

The result for one of my tests was out. felt quite sad when i saw the marks i got. quite low. this really woke me up somehow. motivation. only have 2 choices for the subject now:
(1) work hard for the finals, make up for the marks i have lost so far n hopefully get a nice grade for this subject;
(2) just tell myself dont worry no need to panic, dont work harder n finally end up FAILING the subject n have to REPEAT it next semester.

will tell u which choice i finally carry out after my results for this finals is out. now my choice is 1.

BETTER WAKE UP N DO IT

Monday, May 22, 2006

how's today?

Basically today has been quite a nice day. the day started off quite nicely :) although i should have got up about 10min earlier than the time i woke up today. cousin was rushing me to leave the house already (but actually he wasnt really ready yet too haha so couldnt really blame me la for leaving the house late :p ) had a nice morning hehe..mood was really good. if u were ard me u could definitely see that today i had a beautiful mood. smiling most of the time. one of my friends was asking me, 'why today mood so good?' hahaha...my reply: 'do i need a reason to have a good mood?' n she said 'for u, yes..' hahaha hmmmm..50% true la :p sometimes mood can be good for no reason also

U know..when u were still a small kid..maybe when u were still the only child, or when u still didnt have any younger siblings yet..u did get all the attention n love from ur family right? u did enjoy all the love, all the toys right? how did u feel when one day u found out that u were going to have a new bro or sis who would come n have a share of ur love n everything? the amount of attention n love had to be divided n shared with another person already..not as much anymore..how did u feel? willing to share? did u somehow feel sad that the attention u get have to be shared? for me..i will feel sad. i realised this today...not dat i just got a new bro or new sis..i feel sad becos i know i have lost some attention n care that i have once owned...guess i m not dat generous after all hehe..i dont like to lose things that i have once owned. n sometimes i can feel jealous over certain things..humans r not perfect. so, it is reasonable that i have some negative sides right? i m a human too. i m not perfect..hehe


Sunday, May 21, 2006

new stuff

show u my new mouse n my new story book :)
cool? :p the so called special feature of this mouse is that, u can wind the mouse cord neatly into the base. "no tangled mess" hahaha..


bought this in MPH. is a story about this man n this woman who are good friends n know each other very well. just friends?
"can a man and a woman ever be just friends?" this line catches my eye.. i want to know the ending hehe

Haha...seems i m getting sick. sore throat for sure. yesterday had a terrible headache after i woke up from my afternoon nap. turned so bad after dinner until i couldnt finish up the movie i was watching on tv. head spinning n felt like vomitting. panadol didnt really work very well n went to bed at 11.30pm..so sad..wanted to do my lab report one....today woke up ard 8.20am. after breakfast feel kind of ok :D hopefully nothing get worse. finals r around the corner. 2 more weeks n how can i get sick? this is the most 'exciting' part of the semester! haha how can i miss out those late nights n cramping-brain-with-facts sessions? wont be able to do dat if i m sick. fever go away..dont mess up my mind. i want to be a good girl, do my work n study. so far feel quite ok. better start my work fast hehe

Saturday, May 20, 2006

nice friend

Some friends r really nice. I have this friend who always lend me the lecture notes that he copy during the lecture whenever i skip the class..yesterday he was using my printing credit to print some notes. then he insisted to pay me extra money...well i m not money-minded but dont really think a lot of ppl will pay u more than the amount of money that they have to pay u back right? then while i was borrowing his notes again yesterday, he told me he photocopied an extra piece of info that the lecturer showed us during lec..then such a coincidence that he got another extra copy of that piece of info n he gave it to me..haha..then sometimes i do tumpang his car to the lrt station to go home when he has to drop another friend there. today i was asking him whether i could tumpang again n in the end he still dropped me at the lrt station eventhough he didnt have to send the friend that he usually sent. nice right?

Skipping sleep n messing up my sleeping time always bring me much harm. didnt really sleep well these days n think i m getting sick. dry throat n nose is feeling a bit weird already. sigh..yesterday again didnt sleep n today feel depressed. always feel bad when i m tired..bed time. today have to replenish my sleep..good nite

Friday, May 19, 2006

meaningful

眼泪成诗 孙燕姿
作词: 林夕 作曲:刘宝龙

我已经 已经把我伤口化作玫瑰
我的泪水已经变成雨水早已轮回
我已经 已经把对白留成了永远
忘了天色究竟是黑是灰

分手伤了谁 谁把他变美
我的眼泪写成了诗 已无所谓
让你再回味 字不醉人人自醉
因为回忆总是美

我已经 已经把绝情变成了恭维
因为不配
你就忽然自卑说声失陪
我已经 已经把沉默变成了忏悔
无路可退 只能无言以对

分手伤了谁 谁把他变美
我的眼泪写成了诗 已无所谓
让你再回味 字不醉人人自醉
因为回忆总是美

分手伤了谁 谁把他变美
我的眼泪写成了诗 已无所谓
让你再回味 字不醉人人自醉
你的品位总是美

The lyrics of this song is quite nice. really like the lyrics written by this famous writer called lin xi (林夕). the lyrics he wrote is special, creative, meaningful in a way. like to see the way he plays around with the chinese words n arrange them to become something special. a man with a special mind

Thursday, May 18, 2006

for myself

feel kind of bad now. post this mv to make myself feel better. in future can play it anytime too when i want to hear the song. the 1st guy dat appear inside, who was the girl's bf when she was still blind, is one of the actors i like. he is from this boy band called 2moro, which consists of a pair of twins. the mv is a bit blur so i m not sure whether he is the elder bro or the younger bro. i only like the elder bro. his name is guo1 yan4 jun1. dont know whether this guy is him or his bro. nice song.nice mv.




Sometimes feel that god really likes me n my luck is really good. my mood was kind of bad but felt much better after watching a mv with a nice song on the blog of my friend's friend. then one of my secondary sch friends whom i have not been chatting with for sometime started to chat with me when i was looking for someone for a short chat. nice chat at a right time when i need to do something to cool down. nice things happened when i needed some to take place. grateful for all the luck i have so far. life indeed can be beautiful

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

tired

Had 2 tests today so kind of tired..didnt really want to blog but yesterday got some interesting things to talk about. so maybe will just write a short post

Met up with my friends Gerald, Eugene Tan who came back to kl for hols..went out with them n their uni friends. n was surprised to see my junior Huei Chyi was there too haha..so nice.. we went for a movie, Mission Impossible 3. quite a nice movie. better than the 1st one i watched. then after the movie we went to arcade to play. to tell u the truth this was the first time i played in an arcade. went in b4 but didnt play. quite fun! hehe..then finally bought a mouse. n a story book..was quite happy esp after i paid for the book becos i realised there was a discount :) heart not so pain haha...

Then while we were walking around n passing this cd shop, i saw the Malaysian Idol guy Daniel in the cd shop..i went into the shop n asked for his autograph after looking clearly that ya he was that guy, becos i knew one of my friends is his fans ma..so wanted to ask for his autograph then can give her. he actually agreed n even asked me, "wat do u want me to write for u?" but before i could manage to find a pen to give him, a lady suddenly appeared n said "sorry we only sign cds..if u want his autograph then u go buy a cd first la.." think that lady should be his manager or something la..sigh..he said could sign for me wat.. y didnt she just let him do it for me? felt kind of paiseh after she said that becos obviously i didnt have a copy of his cd. so no autograph..just shook his hand then i left that shop..wished i had a camera with me then i could take his photo from outside that shop

Hmmm..semester ending soon. still got some work in hand that have to clear up. finals in 2 or 3 weeks time. dont really know wat to say about all these. currently i just want to go home fast, have dinner then watch tv for a while n start my work which due on friday.

Got some news about my friend which was kind of a surprise haha...life is so unpredictable

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

weird thought

Haha...i start to have this weird thinking nowadays. what happens if my close friends around me who always talk to me online very often n who r still single get attached one day? haha..then maybe they wont have so much time for me anymore. maybe they wont chat with me online so often anymore..becos busy dating ma n obviously their attention will be on their beloved one already..then wat will happen to me? lonely n sian becos less one friend to chat with very often? maybe hahaha..sigh who knows wat will happen in future right? maybe i get attached before them hahahahaha :p but if ever that happens, i will still spend time with my friends la :) that i m sure hehe n i will really do it :)

Got to run. lunch then tutorial n hopefully a movie in the afternoon :p

Monday, May 15, 2006

memory

有些回忆是美丽的
有些记忆是难过的

有些过去是快乐的
有些经历是痛苦的

美丽的回忆 回味无穷
难过的记忆 难以忘怀

快乐的过去 值得缅怀
痛苦的经历 值得学习

不管过去怎样 应该展望未来
珍惜眼前的一切 不要等到失去了 才后悔

Sunday, May 14, 2006

cute

Saw this video on my friend's friendster. so cute! hehehe...esp the dog. i like it :) u like it?

This hippo reminds me of the hippo that i once saw in Memory Lane when i went there to buy birthday present for my cousin. i still remember telling my friend that i didnt like the hair on the hippo's head haha. then this hippo singing here also got some hair on the head! maybe hippo does have some hair on the head hehe..

Saturday, May 13, 2006

i hate myself

First of all, new blog skin. hmm does it look better? was thinking dat the black one was kind of too dark..needed a change. so picked this out of the choices given. not dark at all n more colourful than the old one. looks more cheerful..

Today i did a very smart thing. i didnt bring my hp to uni..n i was waiting for a reply from a friend. forgot to bring when i needed it. so went through the trouble to borrow my friends' hp, called my cousin who was still at home (fortunately)n got the number i needed, then managed to arrange with my younger cousin who was supposed to pick me up about the time n place to meet (if not he wont be able to reach me..) so inconvenient. wats wrong with me? getting more n more forgetful n blurer each day..angry with myself. n i didnt manage to buy a new mouse today, becos i was worried that my cousin would be waiting for me at the place we were supposed to meet. so i just grabbed a lunch n just stood there looking out for him. didnt have the heart to make him wait for long becos he didnt sleep last night, n i understand how tired he is. i always skip sleep too. so again, i got to wait for another chance to go get one. really hate myself. everything would have been fine if i remember to bring my hp out. so smart la

I still couldnt get over 100% about wat had happened..nowadays i see myself troubling ppl ard me, arranging transport. ask them to send me, pick me up. i know i m troubling them n yet i got to depend on them..feel bad about that. i didnt want it this way too..i dont really want to depend on ppl so much..but i have no choice..i still cant make myself travelling alone. even just now while i was waiting for my cousin in the shopping mall, somehow i was a bit worried too becos i was alone. no friends ard. just me. sigh..how long more do i need to overcome the fear totally? i have done it once n now i need to do it yet again. sigh..

I feel like going home. i need to go home n let my mind rest for a while. think about nothing at all n just enjoy the comfort at my own house. enjoy my mum's care n cooking. enjoy s'porean tv channels..before i start studying hard for my finals..but how can i get the time? no long weekends. no holidays. i cant go home..

Sigh...

thursday

Thursday was quite a nice day, although i was rushing my work again haha..While i was rushing my work in com lab, saw my friend who was looking for a com to kill time. she is not my coursemate, she is from business. Got to know her when i took my LAN subjects. Although we dont see each other everyday, but somehow there is a sense of closeness in our friendship. While we were chatting before she left for her class, suddenly out of no where she asked me, 'do u eat spicy food?'..haha we werent even talking about food, she was just asking me about the work i was rushing, thus felt kind of weird. After that she left. Then after a few mins, she came back to me with a box of spicy popiah as a treat for me :) felt so touched haha..it was still warm somemore..now i can still remember the warm of the popiah and the slightly spicy taste. so nice..

After finish rushing my work, went for a movie with my friends together with 2 of their friends. watched Poseidon. not too bad. to me it was as if watching Titanic without the love story part haha. after the movie we went for supper. quite an enjoyable outing although most of the time i just listened rather than talked becos of language barrier haha..a group of Penang ppl talking in Hokkien with me as a listener, a Johorian who cant really speak hokkien but can understand a bit. not too bad la still could laugh along. another language that i should improve on hehe..

Really kind of late already. tmr i have class..sigh saturday n yet i have class. so cant sleep too late. the song below is Moon River by Sarah Brightman. her voice is like an angel's. hope u like it.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

still think that u r the best

a cantonese song..

还是觉得你最好
歌手: 古巨基 (Leo Ku)

so sad

I will be going for a movie tmr. The outing indeed comes at the right time..need to have some fun and enjoyment. Hope the movie will be good..

But still..i have 2 movies in mind now that i want to watch. i cant really go for them although i have time from them during the weekend..becos usually after movie i have to make my own way back home taking public transport n currently i dont want to take public transport. who on earth now will be willing to go watch movie with me AND send me back home? dont think anyone around me now is willing to do that for me. sigh....

Hmm..anyway one movie will cost me rm10 n 2 will cost me rm20. i can use that rm20 to buy 5 plates of economical rice for lunch since on average 1 plate of economic rice is about rm4 (one of my friends likes to convert prices which he thinks is expensive to the number of plates of rice that he can buy using the amount of money shown by the price..the convertion will show that to spend the money on meals which are necessity rather than on other unnecessary things would be more worthwhile) sigh....sour grape. when u cant taste the sweet grape, u tell ppl that the grapes r actually sour anyway, just as a way to make urself feel better. cant watch movie so just cheat myself by saying movie tickets r expensive. sigh......

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

all i want now is to sleep

Have not been sleeping well for 2 days becos of my report. it is taking me forever to finish off all the graphs...not hard but quite a lot n need to process the raw data before i can use them. thank god today got the confirmation from my lecturer dat i can just hand in on thursday :) she said she doesnt want us to rush through the report and doesnt want us to die becos of stress. so nice....how nice if we can have more of this type of understanding lecturers in our life. she is just so nice hehe

Sigh...can i have a break today n have a good sleep? nah..is ok la. i should continue the work n try to finish it off. will have a good sleep on thursday night. friday is a holiday! yay!..but not really very good la becos i have to go back to uni on sat to have my lab session becos we r going to miss the session on friday. hmm..maybe after my lab session i can go n get a new mouse. my mouse is sick..cannot use already..cannot click properly. need to spend money again..cant wait for the day when i start making my own money. then dont have to keep asking for money n answer y i need more money haha..

Long time never watch movie. when will be the next time for me to catch one? i dont know...how i wish i have a car. then i dont have to take public transport when i go out. sigh....

Time to take bath. finally one of the bathrooms is empty. dats all for today..boring post right? include a song for u..guo min (过敏) by Rainie Yang Chen Lin. u know how to play it smoothly?
(1) click the arrow at the middle to let it start downloading.
(2) click the volume icon at the bottom to silent it so that u wont hear segments of the song while it is downloading.
(3) after it finish downloading n the replay icon is out, click on the volume icon again to allow u to hear the sound. then play it. Through this way, u will be able to view the music video continuously n smoothly. (one of my friends once taught me)

Monday, May 08, 2006

lucky

Today i survived in a way because of my good luck. During my physio lab, i was chosen to be one of the subjects. All i needed to do was to collect my urine samples every 20 minutes and i didnt have to carry out other parts of the experiment, others who were not the subjects had to do it. Thus while waiting for the time to pass, i could just sit there n revise for my micro test. haha..Then the test..was glad that i could answer some of the questions although out of the 19 topics, i only managed to finish 8 of them. Wasnt as hard as i thought. Just hope that the result would not be too bad. Then i was supposed to hand in my report today and i was still far from finishing. Once again, luck was on my side. My wonderful lecturer said that it would be fine for her if i pass up tmr. n she just agreed to it without even asking me y i needed more time. She is just so nice. Thus, i was quite happy actually today eventhough i was very tired. didnt sleep much last night. Glad that luck was once again with me when i needed it most :)

Below is the soundtrack from the movie Tempting Heart (心动). i like the song, esp the lyrics. i like the movie.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

cool n calm

Tmr will be a horrible day for me. one test and one report due. and as usual..last min. i guess too much work makes me work slower instead of faster. too rush will only stress me up n nothing can be done well. so..just do loh. i know somehow i will survive tmr. i hope i can.

The 2 songs here r quite nice. the 1st one: relaxing n sweet. the 2nd one: romantic.

1st song : 不夜城 2001 版
歌手: Z Chen 张智成
曲:郑可望 词:彭学斌

你留了纸条 在我住的地方
我猜想你和他 一定又吵了架
你习惯了依赖 从一见你就这样
我凌乱的睡房 就像你的避风港

你对他的细腻 已经成了信仰
你心中只有他 即使我多么奢望
你在我的面前 已经不用装扮
把你当作珍藏 却无法向你亮相

当爱靠近你之后 我成了你的不夜城
你倾诉你和他之间 我看着看着也湿了眼睛
爱离开你之后 我成了你的不夜城
好几次差点鼓起勇气
说真的真的我也爱着你


2nd song: 睡美人
歌手: 古巨基 (Leo Ku)
作曲:陈台证 填詞:林夕 

电话的两边 充满蜜语甜言
我的声音会为你充电
你说看看窗边 有颗流星出现
你说睁开双眼 才能保持不眠
明天星期天我们总会相见 别浪费时间
你要早点睡 保住最美容颜
要和你做对快乐神仙

在挂断话前say goodbye
每一声都有我对你的爱
不要作个赖皮的小无赖 看天亮就快来
say one and two and three and four and five
一直数呀数数到满一百
我会送你甜蜜的goodnight
明天拥抱入怀

*the music video below is for the 2nd song. hope u like it.



Haha i really like my new blog. now i can even include the song i like, let u listen n show u the music video if i can find it. so fun :p

weird?

Today one of my closer friends in uni told me that lately i seemed to be kind of weird. weird? which part of me is weird? talk less? easily agitated? grumble more? get angry over small matters? haha i dont know. should go n ask her to elaborate. maybe she is not used to the true me? or do i really turn more weird lately?

Among all the songs that i have listened to, still find jay chou's songs to be some of the best. because the feel of his songs most of the time can just fit in to my mood at that moment, esp the sad ones. sometimes when i play my songlist, when most of the songs just seem not to be able fit in to what i want at that moment, his songs will usually be able to give me the feel i want. the song below is a song he wrote for a singing group n he sang it during one of his concerts. quite nice. as sad as ever. just like it.

瓦解

作词: 弹头 作曲: 周杰伦

说着笑着的午后 钟声一直在停留
风声静静躺着在诱惑
我一个人在角落 没有你陪伴的我
连寂寞都笑我太堕落
广场旁边的烟囱 烟雾弥漫你面容
我悄悄背诵你的温柔
喝着加温后的啤酒
这样唯美的镜头 是否只存在故事之中

在你的身后 时间把过去都带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索 回忆不放手
好想再跟你牵着手 牵着你给我的温柔
哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流

我一个人在角落 没有你陪伴的我
连寂寞都笑我太堕落
在广场前的午后 烟雾弥漫你面容
我悄悄背诵你的温柔
喝着加温后的啤酒
这样唯美的镜头 是否只存在故事之中

在你的身后 时间把画面都带走
时间把镜头带走不假思索 回忆不放手
好想再跟你牵着手 牵着你给我的温柔
哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流

雨下过之后 街角出现彩虹
泪流干之后 有彩虹


(泪流干之后有彩虹? 在哪里? 为什么我看不到?)

Saturday, May 06, 2006

another somewhere over the rainbow

Yes..this is my new blog site. from now on i will blog here. no more friendster blog. then i can blog as often as i want n dont have to worry that ppl will get annoyed by the email alerts.

Do visit here often ok, if not everyday :) i know u will..if u care about me n want to know how i m now

Thats all for now. Take care