somewhere over the rainbow: May 2008

a little better

quite happy today. not because i have finished my thesis though hahaha....i am still on it. pathetic me

decided to take a short break today

watched a movie, eventhough i had no plans for it initially..Narnia 2. save your money seriously. no point

finally bought the cd that i wanted to buy for so long :) hahaa.. 伍家辉－虽然我愿意. this is his first album, and yet it is quite a good one. 9 out of the 10 songs are nice. i hope he can last long in the music industry

had a little pleasant surprise today..sometimes it is quite hard not to believe in fate haha

nice day

adjusting

messed up. need to rest for a while.

struggling with the thesis. still have quite a lot to do. trying very hard to stay calm.

feel really sad that i cant join the trip tomorrow. i really want to go...

dont really feel like chatting. but when i want to chat badly, the connection doesnt allow me to do so. please, for goodness's sake, just give me a few minutes.

i think the best for me is just to keep quiet. i am feeling very bad. i dont want to hurt anyone. i start conversations, hoping that i will some how feel more relaxed. unfortunately, the conversations cannot sustain.

grumpy. worried. nervous. sad. i can hardly breathe. i wish i can cry. but i cant.

i will be fine

useless

i am very angry with myself. i am just SO USELESS AND PATHETIC!!!

everyone is going to pass up the thesis soon. me?!?!?!??????

and still want to think about the turtle trip?!?!?!? just stay here and do your work!

do not deserve anything. deserve nothing!!

i am just useless

temporary joy

finally finished my project on tuesday! and also survived the presentation on thursday! :D

whats left now..thesis, coursework examination and viva (the FINAL final presentation)

i was SO HAPPY after my presentation was over on thursday...has been such a long time since the last time i felt so happy and relieved hahah...i was supposed to feel very happy too when i finished my project on tuesday, but i had to rush out the data list to prepare for the presentation..so not in the mood yet. really have to thank everyone out there who had given me help/support one way or another, especially my supervisor..she has done SO MUCH for me until i feel so guilty. THANK YOU!

my happy mood carried over on friday. wanted to give myself a little break by watching a movie and getting the cd that i want. my first and second choices were Speed Racer and Ironman, but the timing for neither of them were suitable for me..so ended up watching What Happens in Vegas, starring Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz. nice comedy :) very relaxing. but i still havent bought the cd that i want...a little incident happened. when i was comfortably sitting in the cinema waiting for the movie, my supervisor gave me a call, telling me there was a thesis which was quite suitable for me....so after the movie, i made my way back to the uni to find her. she is making so much effort to help me, i cant possibly call myself human if i dont appreciate her help. i wonder when i will be able to get the cd and also to watch these 2 movies..

next week will be the field trip to watch the turtles...i am not allowed to go, unless i can finish my thesis by then. haih......

nice pic (looks a bit like me haha..same long hair, with my favourite colour on..)

by the way, congratulations to those who has just graduated unofficially!!! enjoy yourself to the fullest!!!! :)

barely alive

i dont even have one now which is big enough for me to have a good hug..

the good things about staying back late in the lab are, i will end up feeling happy because we will somehow have some fun, and the connection is very stable. i can have proper chats if i want to. so if you dont reply means....?!?!?!?!?!?!?????? is ok. WHATEVER.

havent had any proper sleep for 2 nights. i feel like a zombie.

i seriously do not know how i can survive for these few weeks.

"everything will be fine in the end". and i seriously hope so.

unpredictable

sometimes i hate myself for being such an emotional person. i hate that.

really appreciate that i have nice labmates who can tolerate me. well we are trying to be understanding for each other now, since all of us are stressed. but still, they are really nice ppl.

yesterday my supervisor gave me a call, just to see how i was doing. asked me not to panick, offered to drop by the lab and help me if i really want..touched

tried to have some break last week. met up with yan min for dinner last friday