just so happy

these 2 days had been good, especially today :)

had my presentation for my elective yesterday, on horseshoe crab, which was the topic i picked for my essay. well as usual, i only got my slides really just right on time..just spent a few hours on them and only practised on them while others were presenting theirs. but things went quite ok. my slides looked quite ok, and the presentation went quite ok too. brought my horseshoe crab shells along to show my friends, and they did appear interested on them. and after the real presentation, i actually showed the shells to some other classmates too during the next class, did another minor presentation hahaa..i am not showing off what i have, i just want to share interesting things that i have. i am really glad that i took this aquatic biology as my elective. it really did bring me so much fun. cant imagine if i have taken lab management, life will be so boring hehe..my 3 cores are already quite bored actually, they dont really interest me very much, but they are balanced up with my elective, which really brightens up my days. didnt make the wrong choice

today..finally i can have a short break, nothing due today. had quite a good sleep on tuesday night, n woke up feeling quite good. went back to uni becos i missed one of the tutorials yesterday. i have no transport problem on wednesdays, my cousin can send me n pick me up too, so i dont mind just going back to uni becos of 1 class. after the class, i went to help out during the career fair, just sat at the booth near the door, gave out feedback forms and collected them back when people were leaving. simple work. got quite a lot of freebies too during the fair hehe..the happiest thing for today is i finally got myself a new pair of earphones! and also a 2GB Kingston pendrive. today i reached uni quite early, and there is this mini pc fair at the foyer selling pendrives, mouses, mp3 players etc. so i just walked through them, asked about pendrives and then came across earphones..i do need new earphones. finally bought the pendrive and the earphones at the same stall, the person gave me some discounts after some bargaining, and it turned out that my earphones which were orginally RM10, became RM5. hahaha..RM5 for a new pair of earphones, isnt that great? just hope that they can last long. the pendrive is quite cheap too. 2GB Kingston one, RM67. acceptable for me. just really happy that i have new earphones now, and a new pendrive :)

yesterday my happy mood was dampen a bit by some ugly news. there are people who are unhappy about the good things i have. jealousy? maybe. i dont know. well...let me tell you something: for the good things i have, i dont get them for free ok. i work my way towards them; sometimes i pay a price one way or another for them, i have to suffer and then finally take up my courage to get them; i find ways to solve my problems; sometimes i get things ready early just to prevent potential problems, and i am glad that there are people who are wiling to help me one way or another. good things wont just drop from the sky. if you want the things i have, go ahead and work your way towards them, instead of feeling bad about me having them. go get them too, if you really want. if you think i might be able to give what you want, then ask me. no harm trying. well you know, i dont really have time to care about all these. go ahead and think what you want. i dont expect people to understand me at times. and i dont really care. shouldnt let these things to make me unhappy. i have other more important things to think about

so many things to look forward to:
coming saturday: elecphant sanctuary trip to Pahang

next week: holiday from Sunday to Wednesday (eventhough i have 2 reports due on thursday, 1 killer fieldtrip report and 1 assignment due on friday)

next week 1/5: Spiderman 3 the movie will be released! hehehe blockbuster must catch :p but dont know when though...

11/5 to 13/5: turtle sanctuary trip to Terengganu :D

26/5 (if i am not wrong): FRIM trip (just another trip to the forest and nature)

and i am thinking of finding a day to go and see the eye of Malaysia, which is the ferris wheel in KL. it will be the best to go during weekends at night, becos they will have fireworks then. see how :)

really late already. should end here
saw this picture in one of the forwarded mails i got. just looks great to me, especially the vibrant red colour, just suit my mood :) hope you like it too

not ready yet

after one week of rushing and sleep deprivation, just wanted to stay at home today and have a good rest, before dealing with the next round of work. but a friend of mine wanted to come over to my place for the weekend. didnt have the heart to say no, because she has been nice to me, offering me help whenever she can. so i went back to uni, and brought her back home, since she doesnt know the way to my house

is always nice to have a company. usually i will be alone at home on saturdays, the house will be really quiet, which i dont really mind actually. but to have another person at home, is quite nice too. the house will be more lively. more colours for the day. quite fun

another nice thing about today..my friend managed to download the song i wanted. during the first attempt, both of us thought we got the song, but after i started to play it, realised it was not the song i wanted. the song title, the band name were correct, but turned out to be another song by another group. after that he still helped me to search and download, and i got the song today. it may just seem to be a small matter, downloading songs..but i do appreciate the effort. i appreciate things that people do for me, no matter how small. small things can brighten up my day too

really feel like going for a movie. the last movie i watched was during the one week break. about 2 weeks ago. the last time i watched a movie with someone i know was in February. i miss having another person to watch movie with me. just want to watch movie. i want to watch movie

not ready for next week's work yet. but do i have a choice not to start on them soon? i guess not...

off balance

yesterday tiredness, peer pressure and the workload next week drove me mad. worried for the whole day about some work which actually should not be as hard as i thought. still have about one week for it. yet just couldnt keep it off my mind and concentrate on the reports which due much sooner, which is tomorrow. see how irrational i was..worried unnecessarily

did calm down eventually after taking some time off in front of the tv. just some time to focus and watch something which i really like, stop thinking about any work for a while

guess sometimes tiredness and stress will overtake my confidence for a while. forgot about the magic sentence that i was told few years ago: no matter what, everything will be fine at the end. it is not just some mere magic sentence, it is truth.

after some sleep last night, everything seems to be back to normal again. feel quite good today. lost concentration for a while during my lab session..which actually made me wide awake and focus even better. i guess accidents can be good sometimes hahaa

should get back to work. dont worry i am fine. everything is going to be fine

7/4/07

some photos taken on the1st day of my one-week break last week, which was last last saturday, 7-4-2007. went out with the group of friends i knew during the orientation bash party in Genting about 2 months ago. i was quite tired actually but i didnt want to disappoint them..they had been planning for an outing since we last met in Genting. so went to meet them eventhough i was still in a blurry tired state

was supposed wait for one of my friends in Plaza Rakyat lrt station. i reached early, so decided to hang around in Pudu Raya station. busy morning in Pudu Raya..

waiting

(quite a horrible shot la..people kept walking pass in front of me and i couldnt stand there too long with my camera facing those people. they might not want me to take their picture)

this boy was standing right in front of me while i was trying to take the previous shot. he was really excited to see me with a camera and he started to pose with a large smile on his face. so there you go..a shot for you. kids are always so innocent..never hide their feelings, never hide what they want

Kl Tower and Petronas twin Towers from Plaza Rakyat lrt station. the building on the left with the blue top is Pudu Raya bus station

the twin jagungs in KL

KL Tower

that corner in Plaza Rakyat lrt station

perfect weather for a walk in Petaling Street. my vibrant friend Audrey

nice 'ji cheong fan' in Petaling Street


i really like the wall papers on this building, especially the fireworks part


another shot from another direction. couldnt fit the whole building in..my friends were waiting for me to take the shot, so didnt have the heart to make them wait too long under the hot sun.

that evening after i finished the outing with my friends, i decided to walk back home from the bus stop at the main road into the taman where i stayed. the bus stop was actually quite far away from my house, everyone has to take a bus to enter to the taman. but i decided to take a walk instead of continue waiting for the bus. just some walk to relax..no rush, not fast. just strolling. the weather was quite cooling, it rained earlier on i guess. enjoyed the cooling breeze all the way home

that evening on my way home

the way home.

quite busy these days. mid semster now, which means the amount of work now has reached the peak, with small tests here and there. how fast..my final semester is going to end so soon. future? not sure at all...where will i be after June? really dont know

shall survive these few weeks first. everyone jia you! :)

not too lucky

very tired now. didnt sleep much last night. was preparing for pharmacology group presentation. tonight will catch back some sleep

wasnt too lucky today. went to uni for the group presentation discussion and then dropped by Mid Valley as usual before i went home. on my way back, the ktm was late for about 1 hour because of some technical problems in KL sentral, which affected all the trains. when the train finally came, couldnt make it to squeeze in, too many people. got to catch the next one then, which was still very very crowded. barely made it into the train but thank god, made it

rained all the way home. started while i was at the mid valley ktm station. quite heavy. thank god i didnt go for the public buses, if not i would have been drenched. but still, wasnt completely dry by the time i got home. about 40% wet..i m ok, but my bag was not too ok haha..well. just another rainy day

one week has passed by...just like that. one week already...haih

shall sleep

nice song. nice video.

takuya

last night had a chat with one of my friends in Singapore. was talking about the japanese movie that she watched recently, which is not showing here, dont even know whether it will be shown here or not. then she recommended a website where i could get the movie, and also anime and other dramas if i want to. the site is called crunchyroll, something like youtube, whereby you can just find the video or the show you want, and watch it on the spot. couldnt find the movie she watched, but i managed to find the japanese dramas starring Takuya Kimura. GREAT :)

this japanese actor is my all-time favourite idol. really like him, for years..since secondary school.

cool. beautiful eyes. mesmerizing smile. thats what i like about him

how he looks like

the million dollar smile

need some sleep...

some fun for myself

had quite a fun day yesterday..

in the morning, i went back to the uni to return some books. went to collect my Aquatic Biology essay which has been marked. the marks were ok, but i really like the comments my lecturer gave:
"outline arguments, findings etc: very thorough"
"overall comment: very interesting"

:)

but well actually the subject i choose to write on, which is horseshoe crab, is interesting itself. so maybe my contents are just so so..some detailed facts which most people may not know. so maybe not as interesting as the comments sound like haha..and i still have things which i didnt manage to fit in. for this essay, everyone has to make a presentation on one's own essay. i have never liked presentations. but for this one, somehow i am looking forward to it. i have 2 horseshoe crab shells which i got from the mangrove forest that i can bring along to show everyone. see how things go then

after settling minor stuff in uni, i went to the bookshop in Univerisiti Malaya to get the pathology textbooks which i have long wanted to buy, but i have no time to travel to the bookshop, and i have no money too haha..i have only been there for once, went with my coursemates in a car, didnt really know the exact location. but is ok. shouldnt be too hard to get there myself. so i found my way there, and it was actually quite easy and convenient to get there using public transport. bought 3 books, and they cost me a bomb hahaha..well, textbooks are essentials for me. i wont know how to revise without the books i need during exam period. and after buying the books, i can save the nuisance to fight with the others for those few copies in the library. thus, the money has to be spent. cant save money on books

the bookshop ladies were quite friendly and nice. i realised i needed somemore money to get all the 3 books, so i had to find an atm macchine. one of them actually chased after me and wanted to tell me that i went to the wrong direction to get to the nearest lift, right after i left the shop. i guess i walked too fast hahaha..she didnt manage to catch up with me. so i took the long long way to get to somewhere which was really near hehe..after i went back to the shop, then she told me she wanted to stop me but couldnt catch up with me. such a nice person..

becos of the wrong way i took, i came across this aquarium right in front of the lift that i was supposed to take. the aquarium was a simple one, the decoration wont give you the 'wow' effect..but the things inside were quite interesting

overview of the aquarium (slanted..too bad. the not slanted shot had a big reflection of the direction board on the glass of the aquarium. i would rather have it slanted than to have annoying unwanted images)


i have no idea what this is. but its bright colours were really nice


i met Dori! :D


this green fish was really active. wont stop for a moment for me to take a photo of it. nice green colour


a smaller fish. it looked nicer in the aquarium..but didnt look good in my photo. it was just not photogenetic! (just dont want to admit that it is becos of my lousy camera and lousy photo taking skills :p )

after the bookshop, i decided to spend the rest of my afternoon in Mid Valley. it has been quite some time since the last time i spent some relaxing cafefree afternoon in Mid Valley. of course, movie is a must. decided to watch Mr Bean..felt like watching one of the horror movies too. but not really in a mood for a horror movie, i need some laughs. the movie was quite ok..it is always nice to watch classical characters that you are familiar with, enjoy their typical moves. Mr Bean is still so Mr Bean. one of the most impressive things in the movie is that...he could run in those sexy black high heels! the heel is so high and thin..and yet HE could wear them as if he was wearing leather shoes. it will be impressive enough already if is a she wearing such high heels and run about. bravo

not going to tell you every single excitement in the movie..wont be fun anymore if you decide to watch the movie later :)

my favourite stall in Mid Valley. it is situated along the way towards the cinema. i dont buy things from there, i just like its cute look. a car full of teddys...i dont want the car, i want the teddys hahaha..


out of all of them on the car, this one caught my attention. these days feel like having something to hug when i am in bed. this one should be big enough for hugs. well..not going to spend money on teddys..eventhough i love them

should carry on with life. hope you have a nice day.

*about the new song:
the singer was singing about how he finds warmth in his house, in his daughter's presence. a place where he can relax, and forget all his worries, a place which is his paradise. heartwarming song

tell me how

over the past 6 weeks...many things happened. one incident after another. interconnected somehow. one led to the occurence of the other. non-stop. eventhough my one week break has started officially since yesterday, i can still feel the aftermath of all those incidents. horrible

really cant take it anymore. seriously. tell me how to deal with it. tell me how to face the aftermath of what i have done, what others have done. i dont know how

procrastination. stubbornness. stupidity. wrong choices. wrong moves. never learn. never change.

ya i deserve the misery.

i hope the cycle of events will end today. no more please. NO MORE.

people have been telling me that i lose weight. since the start of the semester. until right before the end of the semester, i still get the same remarks from some of my girl friends. ya, sliming is good in terms of beauty. who wouldnt agree with that? but sliming is worrying for me. i only lose weight when i am not happy. stress plus some minor exercise, thats how i lose weight.

so this time round for the break, i have decided to stay put in where i am now. i am not heading back home. i am not going anywhere. i guess this should be a good way to cut down any potential problems. i just want to have a good rest, and get my life back on track again.

you are welcome to bring a smile on me. if not.....i prefer to be alone. thanks

mess

couldnt make it for another report again for this week. extension until tomorrow..

nearly spilled the DNA plasmid which i managed to obtain for my experiment...thanks to my friend who gave me extra pressure when i was already so stressed up. DONT EVER PRESSURIZE ME DURING EXPERIMENTs, esp when i am already stressed

wanted to photocopy the pathology textbook but at the very last minute couldnt photocopy..due to some miscommunication. and i have returned the library copy back, the copy which i managed to borrow after being in the borrowing queue for some time. n now i dont even have a photocopy version....

made some really mean reply to a friend today. ya is her fault la but still...i know mean replies hurt. i didnt want to do that. i was just too angry

another friend didnt appear in the lecture to collect what she supposed to get from me. sorry dont blame me if i pass it to the wrong person to return to u..is not my fault

i lost my scissors today...which means i need a new one. why am i so blur?????

i overslept just now. slept at 7.20pm, wanted to wake up at 8.30pm but ended up waking at 10.30pm. missed my korean drama, and i HAVENT STARTED ON MY OVERDUE REPORT!!!!!!!!

and i have just made a whole bunch of sms-es and phone calls just to borrow the book i cant photocopy.....

thats how messed up things are now. i really hate myself at times...guilty, stressed and sad now. please let me have a better tomorrow

darwin's natural selection

today started off in a havoc..i was supposed to wake up at 1am to finish up my essay. but i was too tired to wake up..the night before that i didnt sleep. ended up waking at 7am...which was supposed to be the time for me to leave the house. so ya...didnt finish my essay and i was late. luckily there wasnt any heavy jams..i still managed to reach the uni before the lecture started at 8am, eventhough my cousin had to turn back to the house a few minutes after we left the house, becos i forgot to take something important..

another great thing for today...my cousin couldnt pick me up after my class today, but my junior was willing to send me back home. he actually had a lecture at 5pm, until 7pm..but he was too tired to go and planned to skip and go home at 5pm. but after i told him that i had a lecture from 5 to 6pm, he changed his mind and said that he should go for the lecture at 5pm then...so that i could have a transport to go home. that was really so nice. but he was lucky too....my lecture ended at 4.30pm, so we went home before 5pm, as his wish. and it was pouring heavily by the time my lecture ended...imagine if i will have to take bus and go back by my own..not to mention how long it takes for me to go home, and whether i will reach home safe or not, i will be all wet already by the time i reach the bus stop. but i reached home in less than 1 hour, dry, safe and sound. thanks to my junior. what more can i ask for from such a friend?

and...if you know me well enough, you should know that i have a very clear line between things that i like and things that i dont. yes means yes, no means no. no matter how hard you try, you wont get it from me, unless i m willing to give. i have my reasons, i have my own principles. angels can become devils too, if you force them. so ya. stop asking when i already say no. you cant make me do things that i dont want to do. you cant get what you want is becos of what you did, not becos of me

feel so guilty that i pass up my work late. got a wake up slap from my lecturer today. nice advice never sounds good, and i dont blame her for that. instead i should thank her..i will get my work done today

will survive this week :)

*just read this somewhere:

A Friend is:
a tissue when you cant stop crying
a shoulder when you feel like dying
always listen when you have something to say
a week when you just need a day
a crutch when you have a broken heart
some glue when everything fall apart
a sun when the rain just wont stop
your mom when you run into a cop
phone call when you cant leave your home
hand when you feel all alone
wing if you want to fly
understand without knowing why
an ear for a secret to tell
as asprin when you fell unwell
a love that can never let go.....

how true..

otters holding hands

well i really wont know what to say if you think they are not cute..they managed to bring a smile on me. how about you?

we have otters in malaysia, in case you dont know. i have seen one so far in my life..in Taman Negara. not like those in video. i think the one i saw should be bigger in size, and the body length is definitely longer. should be different species. at least i have seen once already in my life time..of course it will be great if i can ever see them again. but once is enough too. it wont be easy for me to forget those few seconds of seeing the otter. memories can stay in my brain for quite long

back to work