hanging out

a graduate now, unofficially and also...hopefully. nothing can be 100% sure, not until 13/7, when i will be getting my final set of results. just hope that nothing will go wrong

had been hanging out with my uni friends since i finished my last paper. no one can be sure when we will be meeting each other again, so everyone tried his/her best to grab hold of the final chance to spend some time together. initially, me and my dearie planned to spend time together on the day we finished our paper..just the two of us, before we went separate ways. but then another friend of mine asked me to join them for a last outing, so i joined them, only met up with my dearie after i was done with the first outing. spent the whole afternoon in Sunway Pyramid. went for lunch in Mahattan Fish Market after the paper, together with Marcella, Elmy, Audrey, Vivi and the 2 sisters. Audrey was really happy that day, smiling broadly since we finished the paper and during the lunch. i guess the fun part for me only came after the lunch, when i spent time walking around in Pyramid together with Marcella and Elmy after the rest left. had a great time chatting and laughing while we walked around...was really happy. it was really fun to be with people that i am very comfortable with. glad that we did manage to spent some time together before we part


Elmy, Marcella and me, taken while waiting for the buggy car to bring us to the entrance of Pyramid

after that, my dearie came to Pyramid to meet me up. had a great great time together with her too. met up with some other friends who were also in Pyramid, Su Yi, Fang Theng and Jian Jun. i wanted to watch movie but there wasnt any nice ones and the timing was wrong too. so we went shopping, the thing that my dearie enjoys most during outing. i was carrying some notes that a friend returned to me after the paper..and my dearie started to worry that it would be too heavy for me to carry around to shop..so she came out with ideas as to where to leave the notes while we went shopping. we wanted to leave it in the locker in Giant but the person-in-charge didnt allow us to do so, it was too obvious that we were leaving the notes there but wasnt going to shop in Giant. that was the only logical idea. after that we had funny but unworkable ideas, eg leave it at the space behind the ATM machine, leave the notes with a little girl we saw in one of the shops we went (she was standing at the corner of the shop playing by herself while her mother/someone she knows was shopping, just nice to take care of my notes hahaha)..but actually it was fine for me to carry them around la..i dont mind. was glad to see her having fun shopping around, like to see her excited look when she saw something nice that she liked. it was really sad when the time to say goodbye came..felt so reluctant to part with her. gave her a hug before i went off, but i just felt like hugging her tight and never let go....really going to miss her

anatomy field trip 2005

monash ball 2006

while we were shopping on the day we finished our finals last sem

Kuala Gandah elephant sanctuary trip

during her birthday celebration

some wonderful times that we spent together all these while..when will we meet again? graduation maybe...haih

cant upload the pics taken during the Malacca trip, thanks to the darn connection. will only talk about it next time then

shall sleep...zzZZ

coming close

everything is going to end very soon..tuesday i will have my last paper. whats next? beats me..

dont know what to say these days. have been asking myself to study hard. but a leopard never changes its spots, does it? when i press myself too hard, i get too stressed up and cant read at all. when i dont pressure myself, i read really slow and cant concentrate..haih

had a chat with my dearie just now. she really knows me so well..asks me to study hard, do work early, dont drink too much coffee...i m really going to miss her. one of my closest friends in uni (and by the way, i address her as 'dearie' becos she is my close female friend. we are perfectly straight)

i like it when people accept me just the way i am. i hope after many more years down the road, i can still keep that simplicity and that little bit of innocence in me

i should get back to my notes

sunflower

....for my lecturer :)

have been taking her subjects for these 3 years in Monash. she has always been such a nice lecturer, enjoyed her classes and also the field trips. so drew her something, since i am ending my course. just in time to decorate her new office, if she puts it there..hope she likes it :)

happier

went out for some fun yesterday..trimmed my hair, bought new earphones, watched Ocean 13. finally dont feel down anymore :)

before the trim..

after the trim..

actually the length doesnt change much, just that it is more layered so it looks shorter from the front.

a RM45 cut is definitely so much different from a RM12 cut..and ya it is quite expensive but i guess once in a while is ok. i have never spent more than RM12 for my hair, yesterday was the first time. my hair really needs a good trim

Sony earphones :) RM39 and the sound quality is indeed good. good price, good quality. really true. the left side of the RM5 pair that i bought recently spoilt after a few days i bought them, even worse than the old pair that i bought few years ago, which still functions well but the wire for one side is loose so needs to adjust sometimes before i can hear anything from that side. really going to take good care of this new pair

bought a new cd last saturday too hahaa...

front look

back look
one day when i was killing time in MPH they were playing this cd and it was quite nice. so i went back for the cd. got it from another cd shop. Emi Fujita is a japanese singer, used to be in the group called Le Couple, together with her husband. i dont really know her too, not until i heard them playing the cd that day. all english songs, classic ones like Over the Rainbow, Lovin' You. smooth and relaxing. quite nice :)

Ocean 13..good movie :) if you like Ocean 11 and Ocean 12, you will enjoy Ocean 13 too. worth a watch.

one more paper to go. should really start on it. make it a good one. for a good ending

best wishes

To my friends who got married lately..

may you and your other half live happily ever after :)


best wishes to the lovely brides, Stella and Yoke Choo

never fail to make me laugh

takuya kimura - Gatsby moving rubber

..just feel so funny to see him dancing around like that hahaaa

came across this too when i was searching for the previous one..quite girlish but still, never loses his charm


just an eye candy who has never failed to make me happy..nothing more than that

a little down

feeling a little down since i woke up until now...dont know whats wrong. should feel happy since the next paper is on 26/6, which is still quite far away. still not enough rest? stressed too much the night before? i dont know..hope tomorrow will be a better day :)

a music video with quite a nice song and hot girls (i mean the one with straighter hair). just for entertainment

Neyo - Because of You

i want this

have you ever watched this movie called The Never Ending Story? is about this boy entered a storybook which didnt have an ending..quite an old movie, and they had sequels for it. it is a fantasy style movie

in the movie they have this machine, which can extract people's memory out from their mind. the memories will leave your mind in little balls which would enter a container, and you can know what the memory is about by looking at the memory balls..

i would love to use such a machine if there is really any, especially when i am turning old. i will extract all my wonderful memories out, so that i wont lose them because of aging. and i can still review them, and feel the happiness within those memories..

these days when i am stressed, i tend to think about those nice things that i have been through before. and i can actually still trace back those that i have put down on my blog. they are definitely still nice to think about. for now i can still remember most of the details, but what if one day i cant remember them anymore? that will be sad i guess..

i would like to have the machine which can extract memories. do you know where i can get it?

GIVE ME A BREAK

STOP CALLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CANT SOLVE THE PROBLEM!!!!!

i have been trying so hard to get myself back on track to study. i have a paper tomorrow you know!!why disturb me at such a time????? WHY? want to ruin me??

i dont want anymore calls. NO MORE! dont make me cancel them! dont force me to do things that i dont want to do!

angry I AM JUST SO ANGRY!! ARGH!!!

enough. this is enough. better settle down fast and read those notes. CONCENTRATE!!

miss you

disturbed..by a long term problem which cant be solved. i should study like mad, but i cant. i dont know what i am doing now

really miss my movie kaki who is in UK now. she is like an angel who is sent by god to bring happiness for me. we got to know each other one day when we were our way to school. she was in sunway college, i m in monash. n we took the same bus. just got to know her that day when both of us got down the bus at the same time and walked together to school. just like dat

after that, got to know that she likes to watch movies too. so we started to go for movies together, and after movies we always go shopping hahaha..so nice.

i like to go out with her. when i was stressed or busy and needed a break, or just feel like watching a movie, i would find her. then i would put all my stress and problems aside and go out with her, enjoy myself to the fullest. i remember once she told me, after she came across my blog, that she didnt know that actually i wasnt quite happy, becos i would always appear happy during our outings. the reason is that, thats the purpose of our outing, which is to relax and have fun. so problems are set aside, and i seldom talk about them, i just want to be happy and have fun. which i really did. i remembered how we felt scared and nervous when we went to watch Final Destination 3, and yet laughed when some sudden horror scenes appeared and scared us, or ppl in the cinema screamed for scary scenes. and i think she wont forget that how i cried my heart out when we went to watch the Korean movie (which i cant really remember the exact name) in KLCC. i was really tired that day, and the movie was a really sad one. and i just kept crying when there were any sad scenes hahaaa..i was just too tired, so couldnt stop my tears. we had a great time when we went to have a walk in the park in KLCC. took pictures and relaxing..and it was a spontaneous thing, we didnt really plan to go there and take pictures, but we could always take pics during our outings when we feel like it, becos she had a camera phone hahahaa..it was just fun

after she went UK for master, i have been going for movies myself. movie kakis are not easy to get..and if i really need to get one before i can go out and have fun, i guess i wont be able to watch movies anymore hahaa. but watching movies and shopping myself arent that bad actually, i can have some private time for myself, just go out, enjoy myself, be myself, and there wont be anything much to worry about. i control my own timing, i decide where i want to go, what i want to do etc. thats the good thing about going out myself. but i do think about her, how nice it would be if she can be there too. to have a companion whom you are comfortable with is always nice and more fun, isnt it?

hope we can catch a movie together again someday, will definitely do so when you are back, if possible hahaaa..

i miss you. come back fast when i am still here..haih

(and thanks to those who spent a little time for me today. the short chats are helpful)

new T. new place.

got my free T from Ma'Daerah turtle sanctuary on friday after my aquatic paper. they have different colours for different sizes. white for L and S, red for M. i took L instead of my usual size M, just becos the white one looked nicer hahaa..it didnt turn out as big as i thought though. good :)


front (the 4 species of sea turtles which can be seen in Malaysia)


back (picture not in scale..the logo is smaller, not this big)


left sleeve (the current sponsor for the sanctuary)


right sleeve (the sanctuary's logo)

friday after the paper me and my friend went to the new campus. she is going to have one of her papers there, so we went to check the venue. new place for our uni. explored around..looks quite nice. my target was the sky bridge, which is the bridge that connects the 2 buildings near the entrance..

u see the bridge? the walkway connecting the 2 buildings

the view from inside of the campus. there is the light blue sky bridge
(both pictures are taken from the monash website)

the bridge is 5 storeys high, supposed to be air-conditioned. but on the day we went the air con was off. so was quite hot inside...i have been wondering why they need air con in a corridor, i understand now after i went there hehee. the corridor is all closed up, no air ventilation at all. thats why they need the air con. we have one open corridor in the current old campus, and when it rains heavily there will be problems crossing there dry. i guess thats why they build it closed up this time.

anyway i like the bridge. can see quite a lot of things from up there, since you will be 5 storeys high. from one side you can see the sewage ponds and the shops (you might be wondering whats so nice about it anyway, sewage ponds?!..but thats not what i mean la, i am talking about the overview of what you can see, how far you can see), the other side can see the inner campus. and on the day we went the clouds were quite nice..i like the bridge.

still, old campus has all my memories for these 3 years. new campus..other than the familiar faces there, i cant really relate myself to it, no feelings when i am there. but i am glad that the uni finally has its own campus. then only looks like a uni ma :)

wasted enough time..should really start studying now. S T U D Y

naughty girl

never study as hard as she should...look at the pile of uncleared notes..haih

started to eat ice cream, chocolate, cookies yesterday when diarrhoea has not fully cured yet(thought is ok already ma...) and see what happens today: start visiting the washroom so often again..

haih...no one can save her anymore. hope lady luck will be with her tomorrow..

friday

feeling much better...THANK GOD. not 100% well yet i guess, but quite ok already..

yesterday spent most of my time sleeping, couldnt do anything else..today finally back to normal. what a relief..

friday i will have my 1st paper, which is for my elective, Tropical Aquatic Biology. the truth is, i havent started on anything yet, just started a while ago..but somehow, i feel a bit excited hahaa..becos i am going to read about things that interest me, things that i like to read about. weird? maybe. i dont know..but i know i am going to enjoy the revision somehow, eventhough stress is inevitable as friday draws near

time to move on. buhbye :)

not again..

turning sick...last night had terrible stomache. today diarrhoea.. :'(

paper on friday...haih..but since last night, all i had been doing was sleeping..last night was too pain to study, today is too weak to study..no good :(

last semester was also sick during finals, this semester diarrhoea? oh no....dont want..

better get started while everything seems to be ok now....haih...

let me focus

i wish i can ensure her that everything is going to be fine, in one way or another. i know she worries so much because she really cares..but...i do know what i should do, and i am going to do it. i am doing it..there is no need to worry so much. i will do what i should, and i am sure fate will show me what lies ahead

all i want now is to focus on my finals. not any other things. my last finals in life, most probably. you know i dont give up on things easily, even until the very last minute. n the finals do matter much for me still, eventhough it might not seem to be important, from certain point of view. i just want to focus on this now

my own life, over all these years..how much freedom do i own? i am officially an adult, and yet, i am not as free as i should be able to, in terms of making choices, deciding on things, how i live my life. my freedom is still limited in some ways. can i have it my own way now this time? can i afford to have everything done according to what i want?

this morning i was still happily thinking that, actually exam period is quite a good thing, because my mood will always be good..since there is no more coursework, and the way to deal with finals is just studying. no other ways. i can only study if i feel good. and i hate it when my mood is ruined..i wont be able to study, not until i make myself feel better again

after 3 hours of CSI on tv, guess the last thing for myself will be the music video for the song i feel like having it...since apparently no one has it, and i never know how to get english songs. if you happen to have it, can you send me?

Jet - Bring it On Back


Hope you will have a wonderful day

beautiful beginning

wedding weekend for one of my cousins in KL..oh he is not one of the cousins that i have been staying with all these while. another one who is living nearby and i dont really know him very well

the newly weds

my elder cousin Wilfred, and his girl Angeline

my second cousin Jin Liang

yammmm shenggggg!

sincerely hope that they will live happily ever after..like a beautiful fairy tale

pleasant

quite a pleasant day. nothing too special happened, but just little things which managed to brightened up my day..

was back to uni to meet one of the lecturers to ask about the honours projects that she would be offering. decided to give honours a try..well i really need a miracle for me to get honours, looking at my current results and also..the financial part. but still, didnt want to let go of the chance, so applied first and see how then

was really glad when my lecturer didnt deduct my marks for one of the reports which was actually submitted late for 2 hours..to me, he is one of the lecturers that are actually quite nice in person. really appreciate their kindness

by chance met up with some friends who never fail to brighten me up with their big smile and cheerful short chats.. nice

very sleepy. good nite