the event yesterday. wondering.

yesterday had a movie outing with some friends. 4 of us, 2 of them are my friends, the other one is their common friend. quite a nice girl. becos of her, we only paid RM3.50 for our movie ticket. her father is the manager of the cinema, so she bought 2 tickets and had another 2 which were free. so she was really nice, splitted the cost of the 2 tickets among 4 of us, each paid RM3.50. really cheap. we went to Cathay Cinema in Cineleisure, near The Curve

before the movie, we had lunch first. we went to the Italiannies at The Curve. i am not a food lover, and i dont really go after good food. but to me the food there was really nice, suited my taste. we had angel's hair with meat ball, pasta with salmon and caesar salad. then each of them had a drink and i ordered dessert, which was the Cappuccino Pie. the serving of the pie was really big. usually you will expect the thing you order to turn out smaller or doesnt match the picture in the menu, but this time the opposite occured. the serving was way bigger than i thought, and it looked about the same or maybe even better that the picture. ok all my fault. no photos to show because i didnt bring my camera. and another nice thing about that restaurant is the surrounding. really good atmosphere: yellow lights, nice italian style decoration and nice romantic jazz songs. we would have fallen asleep if we had waited any longer for the food to come. it was just too comfortable. good food, good atmosphere, and also..good price nonetheless hahaha..but seriously, i like that place

we watched Spiderman 3. the seats were really comfortable! in Cathay Cinema they have these couple seats, which were sofa-like and they are just nice for 2 people. the part which supports your back is separated, like those normal cinema seats, but the sitting part is linked, just like the sofa at home. so it was really comfortable. and they play nice slow songs before the showing time. to think about it, we only paid RM3.50 for such a nice movie theatre. really worth the price. GSC should have such seats too. the movie...quite nice i should say. well the story line is a bit too normal, but the effects were quite good. and the little surprises during the movie, i mean those sudden appearance of a character or the occurence of certain incidents, were good. after the movie, i even have a feel that Spiderman 3 is better than Pirates of The Carribbean 3, which i have watched on Monday. but i guess Pirates is still better, in terms of the storyline and the development of the characters. and yes, i definitely prefer to watch Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom, to Toby Maguire. his eyes are just too big..sorry..eyes are really important to me

today..didnt go anywhere. stay-home day, to finish the clearing up. my room is all nice and clean now, but the mess in the computer room is still not really done yet. will really get it done by today.
mood is kind of messy..and had a little wondering about my future, since i am finishing the semester really soon..

honours? scholarship? work?

JB? KL? Singapore?

responsibility? selfishness? freedom?

what do i want? what is expected of me?

what do i want to do? what should i really do?

future? destiny? fate?

unknowns.

what is known: the coming finals. thats what i should focus on now

readjustment

i am still awake eventhough it is 3.29am now. guess my biological clock still hasnt get back to normal, or rather, it is more or less fixed like this hahaa..i have always been quite nocturnal, now is even worse. i feel wide awake after midnight, can concentrate much better after midnight. i think this is not very good, but how can i really revert back? is there really a need to change?

past few weeks had been really busy. thanks to my own terrible habit of procrastination. really glad that everything is over now. and those few weeks of crazy, stressful life had left some effects on me..

i lose contact with people. i dont know whats happening on my friends, near and far..past few weeks i couldnt afford to talk to them. if they do start to chat with me, most of the time i would have to end the conversation very soon...becos i was busy rushing my work, couldnt afford to chat long..one of the conversations that i was really reluntant to end but had to, was the one with my ex roomie Hui En. hope i can catch her online again soon

i cant chat properly on msn. i dont really start conversations with people..if i do, i cant sustain them well. i am losing the ability to chat. becos i had been restraining myself from chatting much on msn for the past few weeks. sorry if i have started some conversations but didnt continue well, making things turning boring. forgive me if i dont end conversations properly

i hope everything is fine with everyone out there. wishing the best for everyone. smile :)

some wonderful time

dearie's birthday celebration..


birthday girl


hooi yee, nina, me

Vietnam Kitchen, One Utama. where we went for dinner

one of the events in which i really enjoyed. was happy to see that the people that i care enjoyed their day. dont you feel happy when people that you care are happy? i am sure you do

i guess i should really get started with my clearing up..books and notes are everywhere, mess created over last few weeks when i was still stressed and busy rushing work. one more day of enjoyment tomorrow, then i will have to settle down for my revision. should really be a good girl this time..and maybe for the very last time, since it should be my last finals. coursework is not strong enough, so must work hard for finals. have to ensure nothing goes wrong. nothing can go wrong. i cant afford to let anything goes wrong

WORK HARD

new love

bought something yesterday...



closer look..


nice?

:)

one last test and one last short report tomorrow. then it will be the end of my coursework for my final semester. the next big thing will be the finals in June. before settling down for the preparation, it is time to have some fun after all these few weeks of mad rushing. next week you will find me in the cinema, instead of the computer lab hehe..

survive tomorrow first..get down to work

still so nice to think about

field trip to Ma' Daerah turtle sanctuary, Kemaman, Terengganu (11/5/07 - 13/5/07)

still think about that nice quiet beach at times..of course it is not as beautiful as the one in Pulau Redang, especially the sand. but i really like its quietness, and you can own the whole beach all by yourself at times, or most of the time if you really want, since it is not a beach for recreation. and i dont recall seeing any bioluminescent cladoceran (a type of zooplankton) being washed on the beach at night in Pulau Redang. they are quite tiny, but visible with naked eye, can catch them if you want. they can be clearly seen on the beach at night with the blue light they give out..imagine, a beach with little blue lights being washed up on the shore...just great

another unforgettable great thing: the beautiful starry sky at night. just so beautiful..on the second night while we were waiting for the turtle on the beach, i did a rough count for the stars, which should be about 89, and definitely much much more than that. it is just so great to lie on the beach at night, with a starry sky right above you and the cooling breeze blowing on you. sometimes you can even see shooting stars, if you keep your look on the sky long enough..

i spent the first night on the beach with some of my friends, the whole night. it was great. during the second night, i didnt spend the night there, decided to have a good sleep in the room. and this made me missed the turtle which came on shore to lay eggs...haih. no fate with it. just too bad. i had a few hours of good sleep, and woke up around 4.30am and went back to the beach around 5am for the sunrise for the second time. i asked one of my friends to come and wake me up if i didnt appear on the beach by 5am, so i didnt delay much to go to the beach at 5am, worrying that she might wonder why i still didnt wake up. but by the time i reached the beach, it was actually empty hahaha..everyone had gone back to the dorm to sleep because there was a drizzle around 3am after the turtle came on shore. anyway i stayed on, sitting there looking at the beautiful moon on the sky..after a few minutes, i wasnt alone anymore. one of the rangers came to patrol on the beach to see whether there was any turtles appearing to lay eggs. so i joined him for a walk on the beach. he was quite friendly, an elderly man i should say. i was just amazed by how well he could walk on the beach, as if the beach is a smooth floor..for me, becos of the rough sand and the sea shells, it is not really very easy to walk bare footed or with slippers on either..which made me missing the white smooth sand on Pulau Redang hahahaa..after a walk, we went back to sit on the sand since there wasnt any trace of turtles coming. through the walkie-talkie of the ranger, he found out that the other ranger on the other end of the beach must be sleeping becos he made no replies haha..so we didnt walk to the other end. i lay on the log on the beach, admiring at the beautiful starry sky once more. all you could hear was the sound of the waves crushing on the beach..it was just SO GREAT. me and the ranger had short chats once in a while, and i think he was quite happy that he had a company that morning on the beach..i was glad too. saw a shooting star again. i saw one or 2 also during the 1st night on the beach. you have to be really patient to look at the sky for long to spot the shooting stars, if not you will miss them, unless you are really one lucky person. finally the sunrise came, which was around 6.30am. wasnt as nice as the 1st sunrise becos it was quite cloudy..but the hours i spent on the beach were just great. how i wish i can do that again


it was quite a sunny friday afternoon when we finally left for Terengganu

it was already late evening after i woke up from a good sleep. i didnt sleep the night before, was rushing lab report. saw some really nice clouds on the sky, attempted to take pictures of them but wasnt quite successful

First morning on the beach

rainbow coloured sky. too bad my camera is an old one. the colours looked much better in real life

right hand side of the beach

left hand side

me and some of my friends decided to explore the rocky area on the left hand side of the beach

jim fong

audrey (in black), vi vi (in blue)

waves rush in..

....and crash on the rocks! (i did see better splashes, and i have all the patience and time in the world to try to catch the correct moment with my camera, but my camera battery didnt allow me to do so, it couldnt last long)

saturday late evening on the beach

my friend jim fong

not alone

just me

second morning on the beach

the ranger came back after a night's watch

the trail left by the turtle which came on the beach

closer view

the second morning right before we left was cloudy

chillng on a cooling sunday morning

then it was time to say goodbye..back to the hectic reality in KL, which is coming to an end really soon, in about 1 month's time. slow down please..i am still not ready to end yet...

how the story ended

During our turtle sanctuary field trip last week, we were told that turtle eggs were found to be sold at a petrol station. this is how the story ended..



(article taken from WWF magazine, Green Heart, issue 04, 2006)

i am glad that the story had a happy ending, and the action taken did have its effect

field trip photos

will post up more during the weekend. after i survive tomorrow...haha

looking far

(get caught in the act...opps :p)

i love wednesdays

wednesdays are my free days. nothing due. can relax...just a bit

last night finally had a good sleep. finally had some energy left to stay up until around 1am. wanted to do my report...but then ended up chatting with one of my wonderful seniors haha. very nice chat. we talked about the field trip that i went, but quite sad that she couldnt make it for it..just a nice chat, while i was just a little down and out due to tiredness after one whole day of rushing. she was just so sweet..when my msn nick changed to 'want to watch spiderman', she sent me spiderman movie theme song by Michael Buble..when we talked about UM, and i was telling her that i went there once myself, and she told me ya she could remember, becos she is my loyal blog reader..i like it when ppl can remember things that i have said or done before, becos this shows that they care to take note of you. the chat was just great. thanks :)

this morning finally woke up around 7.35am, a normal timing..not some weird hours like 2am, 3am, 4am. and guess what's my first reaction when i woke up at 7.35am: "god overslept again! what report due today???" haha...haih. these days normally after i reached home at night, i will be exhausted. after dinner and a bath, i will be on the bed. then wake up at weird hours to start my work. thats my current life, which has no life at all. no proper sleep, no proper meals, not to mention tv and also, my beloved movies!!!! arghhhhhhhh...miss watching movie

should seriously start my work. ready to go! :)

short rest

still in the report-rushing marathon. the race is still going on..hopefully next week it will end. after another day of rushing, guess i should just take some time out to rest, before i start all over again..still need short breaks here and there

the field trip last weekend really helped a lot. went to the turtle sanctuary in Ma Daerah, Terengganu. enjoyed myself..well seriously speaking not to the fullest. maybe i was too tired before that. but i really love it. in the midst of all the rushing since i came back on Sunday, i still think about all the wonderful things there. the beautiful starry night at the beach. the sunrise. the hornbills. the sea. the ships far away. the changing sky throughout the day. the moon on the sky at early morning..and ya did see the turtle. in fact there were 2 but i only saw one of them. missed the other one..becos most of us were sleeping when it came on the beach. shall look at the photos then

to tell you the truth...i am not satisfied with most of the photos i took during the field trip. in fact i think most of them are just bad. i guess the photo taking thing was affected by my state that time, which was still quite in a daze. i kept myself free flow during the trip. wasnt really attached to any particular group of friends. and i dont mind to join in any groups. and i really appreciate some of my friends who didnt forget to include me in their plans and their activities. they are just great. speech was kept to the minimum. i am not anti-social, this is just my way of resting and recovering when i am tired and stressed out. once i have enough rest and settle my internal mess i will open up again. i dont talk when i m tired. when i m happy and excited i talk a lot with big expression. my body language can tell you everything about me

one of the very few shots which i think is quite ok..the first morning during the trip

bridge over troubled water

When you're weary, feeling small
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all
I'm on your side. when times get rough
And friends just cant be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

When you're down and out
When youre on the street
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
I'll take your part
When darkness comes
And pains is all around
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down

Sail on silvergirl
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind

how i wish someone can tell me all these, and really mean it...

should get started with my revision

down

totally down today.

still couldnt make it for the report again. really cant do the report in such a short time. feel so guilty

2 tests tomorrow...and i m so sleepy now. i didnt really sleep last night

feel quite sorry for my lab partners today. i didnt make any big mistakes, but i was totally blur. couldnt function normally. just stoning..and today was the last session for this lab. so sorry

didnt sleep last night, and didnt really eat anything for lunch. didnt feel like eating. and yet, i was so awake while i was in uni. the stress really kept me up

if tears can solve problems, i would have solved everything that troubles me for today..

guess i just need some sleep. still have to deal with another week of work before i can go enjoy myself for the weekend. going to a turtle sanctuary in Terengganu. cant wait for the weekend to come...

see for yourself

It is through hard times that you can really see who are the ones who really care about you..friends who really treat you like a friend, among all the people you know

they will be there for you when you need help. they will still have that little bit of time for you eventhough they are busy themselves. all you need to do is just ask

they understand your condition, your problem. instead of blaming you, they tolerate and advice you to change. becos they are worried about you

they are willing to listen to what you want to say. they encourage you, and tell you what are the pratical things that you should do

and also..you can see those who just want a piece of you. the predators who just want a nice bite on you. only come to you because they find you useful. after getting what they want, they leave. just like that.
(sorry, my tolerance is proportional to the closeness of friendship between people. the closer we are, the more i will tolerate. which means, i wont have mercy for predators when they take me for granted, especially when they are just my hi-bye friends. i am not your free consultant)

"..you can only see things clearly with your heart. What is essential is invisible to the eye."
from the book, The Little Prince, by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

thats why sometimes i would rather just keep quiet. i think my heart can function much better when i am not using my mouth.

see. listen. feel. and think. rather than talk using the mouth.
thats how i live my life most of the time

this is good

worth listening. he is good.

thanks

these days have been really overwhelmed by the amount of work. mid sem is always like that.

took a nap after dinner just now. woke up feeling quite bad. terrible stomachache. thats what happens whenever i mess up my biological clock..

and then...saw this on the table:

all the way from Paris :D so happy!

and so purple. even the stamp is purple hahaha..you really know what i like :) just came at the right time when i need something to bring up my spirit again. thanks so much!

and also a big thank you to those who have been helping me one way or another and giving me encouragement these days. thanks for being there for me when i need help. really appreciate it

time to get back to work. i will survive

forgiveness

was watching this movie called Rumours Has It on tv just now. simple comedy starring Jennifer Aniston. it is undeniable that she is really so hot. her long hair looks so nice..

simple comedy with a touching ending. have you ever felt so mad about someone whom you care very much, or maybe a good friend or a close friend, or a family member, when the person did something really wrong towards you? what did you do in the end? isnt that eventually you will forgive the person, no matter how wrong the person is? especially after the person did show that he/she is sorry about what happened. at the end of the movie, the character starring Jennifer Aniston was forgiven eventhough she had done things which were really wrong. the ending was quite touched, becos it really resembles real life. you forgive the person, becos you still care much about the person. wont you forgive someone you care that has come to say sorry for what he/she has done? dont tell me you wont. you will forgive the person

touching becos it is so real. something that can really happen in real life. forgive and forget. sometimes to forgive is already not an easy thing, not to say to forget. dont you agree?

short break

today is a holiday becos all the classes were cancelled..2 lecturers were not around. tuesday and wednesday are public holidays. plus the weekends which were over...quite a nice break, eventhough there are plenty of work due on thursday and friday. no i didnt forget about them. but the break is good. can rest a bit and start all over again for another pile of work. nice

had been enjoying myself for the past 3 days:

friday night- celebrated my dearie's birthday. her birthday is actually on 30/4 which is monday, but most of us dont have classes and we are not going to uni, so we had the celebration earlier. glad that she enjoyed herself.

saturday - went to Kuala Gandah Elephant Sanctuary in Pahang. great day. had fun with the elephants and my friends. my dearie went too. she was so excited over the elephants hahaa..well i have no time to include the details now, maybe will do it during the coming weekend after i survive for the pile of work.

sunday - shopping day. didnt want to go out actually but my book voucher was going to due. so went out to get my book n ended up spending, spending and spending. naughty girl. better study hard and work hard after all the enjoyment

today- house keeping. had all the rest i need, good sleep on sunday night n woke up feeling energetic and fresh. finally cleared up the mess accumulated over 1 week. can finally start my work

and ya.....got pissed off by some stupid guy today. i started to feel a bit stressed over my work, so wasnt too happy when he came to disturb me again. said the wrong thing at the wrong time, too bad for you. well i appreciate that you want to make friends with me, but flirting while assuming that i didnt know you are attached? i have told you that i know your true status, when you still wanted to lie, saying that you are single. i am not blind. and yes i can differentiate between interacting and flirting. dont tell me that i have misunderstood. for goodness's sake, leave me alone. or interact normally. you want to make your own life hard, go ahead. dont create potential problems for me. i pity the gf. she is such a sweet girl. and yet u still have the face to ask whether i am single or not, whether one of my pretty friends in my display pic is single or not. are you single at the first place? ask yourself this question 1st before you go around asking girls this. stop what you are doing la. dont hurt her

show you some pictures...

me and my favourite elephant at the sanctuary. like her becos she is the most special one among the others, with those orange patches. she is 69 years old

looking at you

manja baby girl

see how manja haha

my dearie and me with the elephant skull

my dearie hooi yee, and juwin


nice drawing.

will post up somemore photos when i get the rest of them