yesterday once more

yesterday was quite a good day actually...

enjoyed sorting my samples which were collected during the Aquatic Biology field trip..

went for a movie..watched Pursuit of HappYness (ya dats the way they spell happiness. not spelling mistakes). has been quite some time since the last time i watched a movie. anyway...the movie was great. really worth watching. it is about how this guy (starring Will Smith) made his way to success. it was based on a true story. really like his never-give-up spirit..how he remained motivated eventhough things were really bad..how he insisted to keep his son, not letting the mother to take him away together and still took great care of his son despite all the hardship. good movie. and i realise that i actually managed to catch it right before they stop showing the movie today haha..

got a call from Germany...this is the furthest long distance call that i have ever received so far. a call because i sounded down over msn. really appreciate that..

actually it is birthday period for these few days: 26/3 - one of my uni friends, 27/3 - a friend in UK, 28/3 - 3 people, one in UK, one in France, one in Aunstralia...29/3 - one in Singapore. hope they enjoyed their day

another series of ecology field trip photos...

second day of the trip..after we left the mangrove forest. the sky had cleared up after the morning rain


eileen


grasshopper on my lecturer's hand



on our way back after the secondary forest..the famous 'jangan berdua-duaan' bridge. we always laugh about the 'jangan berdua-duaan' thing..they are trying to advice ppl not to go through it in pairs..not that they are banning couples to appear there. no one is going to care about what you do at the bridge. berdua-duaan? berempat-empatan also can la if you want..


taken by eileen from the opposite side of the bridge


the way back

started to have some funny ideas for our photos...

we decided that guys n girls should switch roles for a while..

thats what happens when u r the only guy during the trip :p

this stone is said to resemble a hand. to me i think it looks more like a foot

the way up to Bukit Melawati for sunset

the light house

after looking at the 3 photos below...really think that i should really get a new camera as soon as i have the money hahaha. all these 3 photos were taken using eileen's camera. the effects were really different from those that i took using my camera..

one last shot before we left the place where we stayed in Kuala Selangor.

i guess the dues dates for assignments and reports are giving me some slight pressure hahaha..should just stay cool and concentrate. dont think so much. these days i have been quite happy. should stay on this way :)

everything will be fine at the end. just remember this

ugly

a song by Sugababes...nice song :)



(the lyrics)
When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way they show that they wish
They had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

Cos people are all the same
(The same, the same)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah, yeah)
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, you)
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
(Oh, oh, oh)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah)
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, so are you)
So are you
So are you

free weekend

finally reach the weekend whereby i can have some rest. no field trips, no reports due on monday. nice :) but this does not mean that i hate field trips. i LOVE them hahaha..i still have no regrets for joining the ecology field trip last weekend eventhough i ended up passing up my lab report really late. overdue for 3 days..still no regrets :p

finally can have a chance to look at the photos that i have taken during the field trip. well my skill is not very good, and my camera is not a very good one, plus my hand..shook quite terribly this time round for many shots. so..i have plenty of disappointments for the photos. but glad that some do look great, to me. satisfactory to me

last Saturday late morning in Taman Alam, Kuala Selangor. taken before we entered the mangrove forest. the white thing behind is the light house at Bukit Melawati

sunset at Bukit Melawati, Kuala Selangor

enjoying the view

the ice cream man at Bukit Melawati

William, Eileen, Shen, Nova, me..n the little binoculars on me which belongs to William. not the big nice one, but still better than nothing hehe...n u know what, i realise that actually, i HAVE BINOCULARS AT HOME! only knew about it after i came back from the field trip. my uncle's binoculars...hehe will try it out someday

superman flew by

another 2 juniors joined us later on. they were on the left. now i know roughly how my back looks like hehe..thanks Eileen for the shot


1 senior + 5 juniors :) (not including the one standing ok. that person just obstructed my nice photo haha)

still have photos to post. but will do it another time. i shall sleep

rock style love song

a song by Alan Kuo (柯有伦) - Mixed feelings 哭笑不得



it is about how sad the guy feels when he broke up with his girlfriend

man enough? ......not too bad

still alive

well...i didnt make it for the lab report for today. i went to bed around 3.30am and when i woke up around 6am, i was too sleepy and tired to do anything...so i decided to ask for extension and my lecturer just said yes. thank god...actually she isnt feeling well these days. hope she will get well soon

today i only have 2 lectures. the first lecture which was at 9am was cancelled. and we only knew about the cancellation after most of us were in the class already..the next one is at 5pm. the break is really so long..and i was really tired and sleepy. i felt like going home to have a good sleep but i dont feel like skipping the lecture at 5pm. so in the end i went to look for my dearie and had a nice nap in her room :) she cooked lunch later on and we had our lunch together while watching some Hong Kong drama series hehe...so nice :) will start on my report later after my 5pm lecture ends. will definitely make it by tomorrow morning

hope later my cousin wont be late to pick me up...looking forward to my korean drama at 8.30pm hehehe...

time for my lecture :)

lucky

i am supposed to rush my lab report now..since it dues tomorrow. but i still havent started my work yet hehehe...i am too happy to feel the stress :p

my weekend was GREAT :) went for ecology field trip to have fun and also to help out. the trip was from friday evening until sunday evening. i have so much things to talk about, really want to look at the photos that i have taken during the trip..but definitely not now. have to settle the lab report first. shall survive tomorrow :)

today the trip ended around noon instead of 4pm and we managed to make it back to the uni around 2pm. and by chance, i followed one of my juniors' car to go to the LRT station. i just wanted a ride to the LRT station that he would pass by but in the end, he sent me back home instead. how lucky hahaha..really lucky to know such a nice junior :)

and i actually met one of my blog readers during the field trip hehehe :p thanks for reading my blog and thank you so much for all the guidance and care during the field trip. really lucky to meet yet another a nice senior :)

time to start rushing :p

wish me luck

wednesdays are my stay-home days..becos there are no classes on wednesdays. i dont have to leave the house unless i want to. so..today i didnt go anywhere. supposed to stay at home, do my lab report and study for the pathology small test tomorrow. but i didnt do much for the whole day haha..normal la i guess. i spent the day doing things slow, dragging here and there, relaxing..watched my korean drama at 8.30pm, followed by CSI from 10pm to 12am. didnt do my lab report, havent started studying for my test. bad girl..

not very happy these days..n i cant chat with people that i want to chat with as often and as easily as in the past, becos of the different time zones, and some are not around. think i still need some more time to get used to this hahaha...will start to take note of the correct timing. and i think i need more time to sleep. next week maybe..

can i give up on the test tomorrow? i want to sleep...nah you know i wont do that. no matter what i will still force something into my brain before i sleep. dont worry i wont give up eventhough it is only 2.5%

my earphones are giving me problems. haih..thanks to this owner who doesnt take good care of them. the wire for one side of the earphones are getting loose. so sometimes it can only transmit sound to my ear after i readjust the wire...just hope that it wont die. i dont have money for another new pair..

tomorrow is going to be a very tiring day. hope everything will be fine

and friday off i go for my fireflies :)

should start studying..

focus

Saturday had a great time during the field trip :) we went to Kelana Jaya Lake, the peat swamp in Kuala Selangor and Sungai Kroh in FRIM (Forest Research Institute Malaysia, in Kepong, Selangor). went there and collected some physical data and water samples. will be looking for invertebrates in the water samples, see what kind of animals live in those places haha..just hope that there will be some in my samples. 4 samples all together, 2 from the peat swamps, 1 from the lake and 1 from the river. i think the river sample should be the best sample becos i got some professional help while me and my friend were collecting the sample hehe..thanks for the help :) hopefully i can make it for the field trip next week. i want to see the fireflies again hehehe

have been enjoying myself these days..quite occupied. time doesnt seem to be enough for me n my room is still in a mess :p got to settle it tonight. n start to focus on my studies. havent been revising. n there is a test coming up next week. haih...can i have more time? hahaha..dream on

actually i think i should considered myself really fortunate. i have family members who will always be there for me whenever i am in trouble (i can just reach them with a simple phone call when emergency really happens, and i can always be myself in front of them, no matter how my mood is), i have friends who do care about me (i mean really care, one way or another, no matter far or near me), i have seniors who are really nice to me (teach me this and that, help me here and there, sometimes let me bully them somemore hehe..and lately a senior actually offers to let me have her work. i didnt even ask. help drops from the sky :) how can i not appreciate my seniors?), i have juniors who are really nice to me also..i am really such a lucky girl. i should really appreciate what i have so far in my life. you know sometimes when you are sad or what, just think about all the nice things you have in life, all the nice chances that you have encountered and grabbed, all the nice people that you can go to and who will be there for you in one way or another..appreciate all these and believe me, your unhappiness will definitely reduce somehow, if not totally disappeared. should appreciate what you have in life

i think i better get started with my messy room. take care :)

(evening after the field trip...taken while waiting for my cousin to come..he would turn into this road which is beside the sidegate of my uni and i would always be there waiting for him)

the most ridiculous event so far

i forgot to bring my housekey out today. and i only realised it when i was about to reach home..my god..how can i forget the keys???? haih...

my class ended around 6pm today. i had to go back by myself becos cousin couldnt pick me up..he was going to have dinner with his friend. so ya..today i went home myself. it started to rain when the lecture was coming to an end. and it was still raining after the lecture ended. well...not very very heavy, with umbrella should be fine. and i was really lucky. right after i stepped out of the side gate, the yellow bus which would pass by Sunway Pyramid came. didnt have to walk out to the bus stop in front of the pyramid anymore :) happily hopped on to the bus..and then continued my journey back home

i took a bus to Mid Valley, and then took the KTM commuter train from Mid Valley. today the train was so full until there were still some people who couldnt fit into the passenger space. i was one of those who couldnt go into the train. then...the ktm driver opened the door at his part and let some of the people entered. and i did. really should thank him, if not i would have to wait for the next train. it was really kind of him to let passengers entering his part of the train, and actually he wasnt supposed to do that. it was actually quite interesting to have a chance to see how the ktm driver drives the train..how he made annoucements, how his part of the train looked like. thanks for being so kind

then..from KTM, i switched to LRT. when i was on the LRT, i started to look for my housekeys and realised i didnt bring them out today! GOD! no one would be at home tonight....this was the first panic attack..the second panic attack came after i reached the end station: i couldnt get a cab back home! there was NO CAB AT ALL...it was around 8pm already. dark..n all i wanted was to get home as soon as possible. no keys + no cab.. god this is really bad and worrying. started to panic more and thus..didnt use my brain to figure out the best way to solve my problems. i called my cousin, and he actually asked me to take a cab to the shopping mall around our housing area and he would pick me up after his outing. but i didnt hear what he said....haih. (didnt hear, not dont want to follow ok..) so in the end, i took a cab back home, and then..guess what i did? i climbed over the fence in order to get into the carpark area of the house compound......i didnt want to wait outside the main gate. definitely. thats why i decided to use this way to get into the compound of my house. the fence wasnt really very high la and it was quite easy to get in. crazy? hahaha..i think i was just too desperate to get into the house. but still, i couldnt enter the house. so i waited at the car porch until my cousin finally came home around 10.30pm. i reached the house around 8.30pm by the way...i wasnt really alone la. i have 2 dogs with me haha..my cousin's dogs. if only i have stayed calm...i would have taken the cab to go to the shopping mall to wait for my cousin, instead of going back home and getting into the house in such a crazy way...if only i didnt forget my keys..haih

will never forget my keys again..

slowing down

well basically i have been busy since the start of the semester. last saturday went for the orientation bash in Genting and met a group of people who were really sporting. really had a fun time with them, and now we are planning for the next meeting. hope all of us will meet again really soon :)

last week...tried to do my things really fast and furious, and it was really tiring and stressful hahaha. so this week, i plan to resume back to the more relax, carefree state. so far so good :) these 2 days i spent my free time learning how to sort samples collected from field trips. the sample can be collected from rivers, lakes or hmm i guess anywhere with water? haha. just a part of the nature. then i learnt how to pick out the animals from the bottle of 'water'. never know there are actually animals which can be that small! can only see them under microscope. when you see through the microscope, you feel as if you are swimming around in the sea or river to look for some treasure. i always feel very happy whenever i find something. they look so big under the microscope and yet they are barely seen with naked eyes. very interesting hehehe..and l learnt how to identify them. and it is fun too! like solving some puzzles :p well these 2 days it is just a mock exercise. hopefully things will go well when i sort and identify my own samples next week. we will be going for the field trip this saturday to collect the samples and we will start processing the samples next tuesday. looking forward to the field trip :)

sometimes i dont understand. when you try to be kind to people, and yet in the end what you receive in return is anger. hmm actually i think the problem lies on myself. seems these days i tend to get angry easily, less tolerance..maybe i m just tired with the way people treat me..dont feel like letting people to take advantage of me anymore. or maybe there are some biological influences. haih...will try to tolerate more. anger wont help and it only tortures me more

sometimes i dont understand myself. why still continue with things that wont end the way i really want it to be? why is it so hard to give up? i guess it is because it is easier to continue than to stop. and i am happy haha..human heart. sometimes it is just so ironic, isn't it?

think thats all for now. farewell

nice saturday

i am very happy now :) had a great day today..

really want to say something about it. but i m really very sleepy already. will do it tomorrow

all in all, really glad that the trip did brighten up my weekend :)

yet another day

these days have been quite busy. or rather..these days my concentration has been affected greatly by my mood swings. well...i dont know. i havent been sleeping well these days, feeling as if i am in the middle of the semester and keep rushing things, dont even bother to print out the lecture notes for the new lectures eventhough they are available already, sometimes just wondering around feeling blur and sometimes dont even know why i can end up at certain places (i mean..eg, i wanted to get my coffee but i ended up walking pass all the drinks and then asked myself, why am i here?).....haih. i think i need a very good sleep

these days have been really tired with my transport problem. actually things are not as bad as last sem because my cousin has started to work and his office is in Sunway too, so basically i dont have to worry much about how to go to uni. somedays i can just wait for his car to go home together, but somedays no. and this semester my classes all end at 6pm. not very early...and KL is forever not safe. the later you go home by yourself, the more alert you will have to be. so ya..this is a problem: some days i dont have transport to go home. haih..i thought i was lucky enough to meet another person who also lives in the same area as me and thus maybe my transport problem can be solved. but instead of solving my problem, i get hurt. emotionally, not physically so dont worry. sometimes, it is really so hard to ask help from people. i am really tired of it. you know, next time if you ever want to reject me for anything, i prefer you to be cruel and reject me directly..find some excuses, or whatever. i know your mouth did say yes or maybe you can help but you know what..your body language says so much louder than your words, that ya, actually you are not willing to help due to whatever reasons. it hurts me even more when you reject me in such an indirect way. please, dont ever hurt me like that

hmm..i do have exciting things happening too. i am going to Genting this weekend, for free haha...will be going there for orientation party. thank god that finally my transport problem was settled. yes transport problem AGAIN. if not i wont be able to go. i will be reaching the uni around 9pm and my cousin is lazy to go down all the way to pick me up, so ya no transport to go home and thus the best thing will be not to join the trip. but today i have a friend who agrees to let me overnight at her place after i get back from the Genting trip, instead of thinking about how to get home. she is really such a nice person. thanks for the help :)

and this sem, my saturdays or weekends will be quite occupied. next saturday and the following weekend i will be going for field trips hehehe. i just like field trips. in mid May i will be going to the turtle santuary to watch the turtles laying eggs on the beach. this is really going to be fun :) ya shall forget about my lab reports and field trip reports..shall just enjoy myself first and then see how i should make it for them. this is my last semester already...should enjoy

thats all for today. my eyes are closing automatically already...bye