barely alive

i dont even have one now which is big enough for me to have a good hug..

the good things about staying back late in the lab are, i will end up feeling happy because we will somehow have some fun, and the connection is very stable. i can have proper chats if i want to. so if you dont reply means....?!?!?!?!?!?!?????? is ok. WHATEVER.

havent had any proper sleep for 2 nights. i feel like a zombie.

i seriously do not know how i can survive for these few weeks.

"everything will be fine in the end". and i seriously hope so.