adjusting

messed up. need to rest for a while.

struggling with the thesis. still have quite a lot to do. trying very hard to stay calm.

feel really sad that i cant join the trip tomorrow. i really want to go...

dont really feel like chatting. but when i want to chat badly, the connection doesnt allow me to do so. please, for goodness's sake, just give me a few minutes.

i think the best for me is just to keep quiet. i am feeling very bad. i dont want to hurt anyone. i start conversations, hoping that i will some how feel more relaxed. unfortunately, the conversations cannot sustain.

grumpy. worried. nervous. sad. i can hardly breathe. i wish i can cry. but i cant.

i will be fine