not very happy

Watched 2 movies yesterday. 1st one was a korean movie called Almost Love. quite a nice n sweet one, about the friendship between a guy and a girl, which started since they were still small kids. funny at the beginning, sad towards the end but it ended happily. 2nd one was a horror movie called Stay Alive. not too bad but actually nothing to be scared about, to think about it after finish watching the movie haha. then did a bit of shopping.

Guess the pace of my hols is a bit too fast. 3-day trip, one day break, then yesterday 1 whole day out. feel kind of tired. maybe i should rest more at home.

Had a weird dream last night. dreamed that i was getting married, to someone i didnt really love. kind of scary becos in the dream i was wondering what to do, how. in a dilemma. looked n felt real. but thank god it was just a dream

A little depressed. maybe i should have more rest

Going for my friend's cell group meeting at night. nice group of friends whom i havent met for quite a few weeks. hope it will be fun

Thats all for now

Mv below: 我很想爱他 (wo hen xiang ai ta) by Twins

Fraser's Hill. Genting. Bukit Tinggi

Finally finished my finals on last Friday. a few hours after my last paper, i left for Awana, Genting. my uncle n his friend planned for a 3-day trip for golf, n his friend rented an apartment unit with extra room. so me n my cousin joined in for the trip. we went to have our own fun while they went for golf. quite a nice trip hehe. 3 day, 3 different places.

Friday we reached Awana in the evening. at night we had steamboat for dinner hehe. nice

Saturday my uncle n his friend decided to go Fraser's Hill for golf. we passed by this reservoir on the way. nice view


the reservoir

then the scenery along the road up to the hill was great! mountains within a sea of cloud. so beautiful



at Fraser's Hill we walked around n took photos. we had 3 cameras all together hehe, my cousin brought his Nikon SLR (that kind of camera which looks professional with lens dat can be adjusted) n Sony Cyber Shot, while i used their old Canon Ixus (old but i m contented, dont even have 1 digi cam of my own).


nice flower. 1st time see this.


misty morning in Fraser's Hill. this is the golf course

we discovered this trail called the Bishop's Trail which went through the forest (they actually have 6 trails in Fraser's Hill, Bishop's Trail is just one of them). so we decided to went for it. hmm the trail and the surroundings were about the same as what i had during my field trips to the Gombak Forest. but this time saw quite some weird looking fungi hehe. n also..ended up with leech bite! yuck! the bites were not painful but it was so disgusting to see them stick to ur foot! 3 of them had a good meal sucking my blood, n 2 or 3 more inside or outside my shoe. i hate them.

cousin looking pro with his Nikon SLR hehe


inside the forest


me at the clock tower in Fraser's Hill

after lunch we went back to Awana. we had fishhead curry for dinner hehe. after dinner me n my cousin went up to Genting to spend some time in the indoor themepark. we took cable car to go up to Genting. free coupons :) free for all the cable car rides. 1st time taking a cable car. started to feel a little scared when the cable car left the ground hahaha. 1st time hanging in the air.


me n my cousin in the cable car

we went for the Ripley's Believe It or Not exhibition, Haunted Adventure and Motion Master. Ripley's was quite nice, saw quite a lot of weird, interesting things n ppl. Haunted Adventure was scary! hahaha 1st time in such a dark place where sometimes ppl will jump out as ghost to scare u. dont really like to be scared this way. hehe. Motion Master was a bit disappointed. it was a 3D short movie n u watch it by wearing a special spetacles. then the movie wasnt really as exciting as we expected. thats all for Saturday.


Genting indoor theme park

Sunday we spent the whole day in Genting. from morning until midnight. enjoyed the view on the way up to Genting in the cable car. we went to the outdoor themepark. played almost everything. the 1st thing we played was a thing whereby u sit in a hanging seat and the thing will bring u round n round with u hanging in the air. 1st time hanging and spinning in the air! so scared haha.

spinning in the air


Genting outdoor themepark


nice view right? thats the roller coaster track at the middle

the roller coasters were scary too. then there is this thing called Space Shot, whereby u will be brought up into the sky and then dropped down. the view was breath taking when i was on top. but my heart nearly stopped when i was dropped down. felt weightless all the way down, like wat they described hehe.


Space Shot

played a few more things, spent some time on the lake too, cycling the boat on the lake (u got to cycle in order to move the boat). then after we played almost everything, we repeated 2 of the roller coaster rides, the spinning thing dat we 1st played n Space Shot. more fun for the 2nd time but still scared hahaha. now i know i dont enjoy this type of rides. it turned really misty and cold towards the evening. a pity becos we couldnt see anything when we took the monorail which went around the park and also when we played Space Shot again. at night after dinner we went for a movie. watched The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift. so COOL haha. i like the movie. we went back to Awana after the movie.


i like this merry-go-round at the indoor theme park but i cant play. is for kids hehe


so i went to play the one at the outdoor theme park :p

Monday we went to Bukit Tinggi, somewhere near Bentong. the exact name of the place is called Bukit Tinggi Resort. 1st of all we went to the Japanese Village, and Botanical Garden which is a nice garden in a forest. then we went to Colmar Tropicale, which is a French-themed resort built according to the Colmar Village in France. nice buildings. saw cute beautiful swans in the pond at the entrance hehehe. then we went to the rabbit park, where the rabbits run free n u can touch them, hold them or feed them. there were some deers and donkeys for donkey rides too. one of the donkeys was quite cute hehe, walked towards us when we went close, sticked its head out n let us touched. so tame n friendly. then finally we had lunch and then went back to KL.


Japanese restaurant (on the left) and the Botanical Garden


Colmar Tropicale


inside Colmar Tropicale




lovely swans

another pair


donkey n me

Quite a nice start for this holiday. next is movies n meeting up with ppl :) so far so good for the holiday. hope i will enjoy the rest of the hols :)

one more day

Shall work hard today before liberation tmr. so far 4 ppl had approached me to ask about the exam tmr. 3 through msn, 1 call. kind of funny becos not too sure how many times i have told ppl about the format of the exam hahaha..n seems most of the ppl have not really started revising until noon just now. actually i also dont feel like revising :p but no choice. better start

蔡依林 离人节
作词：严云农 作曲：冯翰铭

在我们的故事 写下结局前
请你 聆听最后尾奏的音乐
幸福渐远 心跳渐弱
回音在休止符后停留了好久

当每一个当下 变成过去后
自由 也许是离人们的折磨
在狂欢时寂寞 从绝望里复活
才明白 爱会随时间逐渐成熟

从那一天 原谅你的瞬间
我不过情人节
我和未来 不再相恋
爱断了线 于是我每天都过想你的离人节
不再见面 不代表我不再对你想念
你是曾经的永远
会永远 在我身边

从那一天 放开你的瞬间
我不过情人节
除非未来 还会出现
爱断了线 我如何能不再过想你的离人节
希望这是 最后一次向最爱说再见
也希望 下个永远
会永远 在我身边

near future

The bad thing about finishing ur finals later than most of ur friends is that u cant join them when they go out and have fun after their last paper. thats a bit sad. but they have to suffer much much more than me becos they are having 2 papers back to back for today n tmr. n then just finish earlier than me for 1 day? haha..thank god i have one day break before the next paper. my last paper

Kind of sad. i have some movies in mind that i want to watch after my exam but guess today is the last day they r showing in cinema. sigh..y dont they show it for another 2 days?

Next semester. will not see some of my friends in class becos we r taking different units. different core units becos different course. a bit sad. but monash is just within one building right? such a small 'world' haha. nothing too bad la

Too busy chatting. cant think too much hehehe..so shall just end here :)

One more n then all the fun starts! hahaha..cant help but feeling excited

(results will be out on 13/7. reality. cant run away, can u?)

lyrics

蔡依林 最终话

作词：阿信 作曲：李偲菘 编曲：Terence Teo

终于太阳 还是升起
蒸发昨夜 为你落的泪滴
终于自己 能为自己
呼吸一口 不为你活的
呼吸 为自己而呼吸
为自己而心跳
为自己而快乐和伤心
噢噢 明天 会有新的剧情
会有人更爱我
会有不再委屈的命运
不再改变那些为你改变的个性
不再忍耐那些长久忍耐的心情
虽然心还疼痛地
回忆最初的场景

一开始你 就准备好
最后一集 你抽身的干净
成全了你也就是我 成全自己
最后最美的期许

那天你眼神泄漏孩子气
我偷偷下定给你幸福的决定
那开场白说得越真越壮丽
那最终话就越是遗憾的天地

不该继续叹息 再次深深
呼吸 为自己呼吸
为自己而心跳
为自己而快乐和伤心
明天 会有新的剧情
会有人更爱我
会有不再委屈的命运
不再改变那些为你改变的个性
不再忍耐那些长久忍耐的耳语
虽然心还疼痛地 感谢名单还有你

终于太阳 还是升起
蒸发昨夜 为你落的泪滴
终于自己 能为自己呼吸一口
我不为你活的呼吸
最终话的最终场景
女孩眼中他的背影

sigh

Realise it is really not very fun when u have to keep reading something that u find it boring. one of the units ('unit' is the word used in Monash to call a subject. 'module' is the word used in NUS) that i took this semester is Cellular Metabolism and thats my next paper. basically is about the metabolism pathways in ur body, how the things u eat r used up, stored or excreted out. some parts r interesting but all this unit about is pathway, pathway n still pathway. n i m quite lost for this unit. didnt really follow the lectures. was busy copying the notes. and i skipped most of the 8am lecture on Fridays becos i couldnt make it. rushing lab report. the whole list of topics that i have to clear up is making me a little depressed. well...just keep going n going then. nothing else i can do

N my holiday plans. seems that it will have some changes. after my last paper i might have to follow my uncle n the family to go Genting for a few days. nothing is quite sure yet though. anyway i think i will be going to Lang Tengah which is some pulau near Redang from 3/7 until 8/7. i think haha..

Today is not really a bad day. had some nice chats :)

Better get back to study. long list to go..sigh. i hope i have some solid holiday plans for next week that can at least make me feel a bit excited n happy. nothing is too sure yet though

what would have happened then?

There is this poem called The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost. Do u know the poem? The poem is about the writer making choices between 2 paths, wondering which one he should take and what it would be like if he have chosen the other path..the road not taken. sometimes i do wonder about certain choices that i would have made in the past but i didnt at that moment, or certain things that i would have done but didnt. wonder what would have happened then?

What would have happened if i had worked harder during A levels? maybe i would not have lost it. maybe i would have enter NUS instead of Monash (n more stressful than now? or more fun?) if i m in NUS now, maybe i would have mastered another foreign language. maybe by now i would have been able to speak n write fluent japanese. or some other languages.

Or..what would have happened if i had taken up one of the 2 polytechnic offers? if i had taken up the 1st one, then i would have ended my A levels at the very beginning, since the offer arrived during the 1st 3 months when i was just starting my A levels. if i had taken up the 2nd offer, which came after my A levels results, i would have graduated as a physiotherapist by now, n should have started earning money..Sing dollar somemore. n there would be no Monash. no KL. wont meet any of my uni friends, which would be a bit sad though, since some r really nice friends.

What would have happened if i have accepted some certain other invitations? instead of rejecting them at the end? maybe my status would have had certain changes. maybe. by then i still didnt know much about having fun. still too obedient. doesnt really matter now anyway.

But obviously after making a choice between 2 paths, which is usually irreversible, no turning back, u wouldnt know what it would be like then if u have taken the other path, will u? well..but sometimes i still wonder. just wonder.

n maybe there r better things lying ahead. who knows?

law of the seed

saw this in one of the emails forwarded to me by one of my uni friends. quite meaningful :)

Law of the Seed

How many times does a footballer try before he can score a goal?

The Law of the Seed

Take a look at an apple tree. There might be five hundred apples on the tree, but each apple has just ten seeds. That's a lot of seeds!

We might ask, "Why would you need so many seeds to grow just a few more apple trees?"

Nature has something to teach us here.It's telling us: "Not all seeds grow. In life, most seeds never grow.So if you really want to make something happen, you had better try more than once."

This might mean:You'll attend twenty interviews to get one job. You'll interview forty people to find one good employee. You'll talk to fifty people to sell one house, one car, one vacuum cleaner, one insurancepolicy, or a business idea.

And you might meet a hundred acquaintances just to find one special friend.

When we understand the "Law of the Seed", we don't get so disappointed.

We stop feeling like victims.We learn how to deal with things that happen to us.

Laws of nature are not things to take personally. We just need to understand them - and work with them.

IN A NUTSHELL

Successful people fail more often. But they plant more seeds.

When Things Are Beyond your control, here's something that you must NOT DO so as to avoid misery in your life:
- You must not decide how you think the world SHOULD be.
- You must not make rules for how everyone SHOULD behave.
- Then, when the world doesn't obey your rules, you get angry!
- That's what miserable people do!

On the other hand, let's say you expect that:
- Friends SHOULD return favours.
- People SHOULD appreciate you.
- Planes SHOULD arrive on time.
- Everyone SHOULD be honest.
- Your husband or best friend SHOULD remember your birthday.

These expectations may sound reasonable. But often, these things won't happen!

- So you end up frustrated and disappointed.
- There's a better strategy. Demand less, and instead, have preferences!
- For things that are beyond your control, tell yourself:- "I WOULD PREFER "A", BUT IF "B" HAPPENS, IT'S OK TOO!"

This is really a change in mindset. It is a shift in attitude, and it gives you more peace of mind ...

You prefer that people are polite ... but when they are rude, it doesn't ruin your day. You prefer sunshine ... but if it rains, it is ok too! To become happier, we either need to
a) Change the world, or
b) Change our thinking.

It is easier to change our Thinking!

IN A NUTSHELL

It is not the problem that is the issue, but rather it is your attitude attending to the problem that is the problem. It's not what happens to you that determine your happiness. It's how you think about what happens to you!

funny but sweet

i like this mv hehehe




真的是笨猪一条
(a cute line from the mv)

tired

Done with another paper. thank god the paper was quite easy hehe...ppl started to leave the exam hall after the 1st hour. it was a 2-hour paper. at the end, apart from the rest who were taking other papers, there were only 4 or 5 of us left for this paper. hahaha..is ok. not going to leave the hall early no matter how early i finish the paper. i would rather sit there n read through again instead of leaving early, creating chances for me to blame myself in future for not spending more time on it if the result released is not good. sigh..sad to say that this paper only takes up 25% of the overall grade. how i wish it weighs more

Going to start my 3rd year next semester. final year for me if i dont take another year for Honours. started to think about what i should do after my 3rd year. i have never really wanted to take Honours year..have been studying for all these years n still want to suffer with thesis? research project? have all along wanted to just end there after my degree n start looking for a job. make money n enjoy my life! haha..but nowadays i m changing my mind. considering about the Honours year. reality tells me that i might lose out in looking for a job without an Honours. most of the ppl now graduate with an honours if they r doing a degree. 4 years not just 3. cleared my doubts about honours year with the course manager today. so....see how then. see where life will lead me.

Feel a little excitement in me, since next week will be my last week for the finals. but have been reminding myself not to think about it. not yet. 2 more to go. should rest well tonight. n tmr i have to go back to uni :( for a revision class. another day out. can i just dont go? do i have a choice? sigh

Shall get on with life

another day

Done with 1 more paper. not very very good but was quite happy becos could answer most of them. but still, i forgot that i had to bring calculator, wasted some time doing manual calculation..wasted one of the questions..so easy yet i got no time left to answer! god..n i was desperate for calculator so i turned around to borrow from the person behind me..luckily the invigilator didnt see me. but i was quite happy after the paper. came out quite the same as wat i studied. hope i will feel happy too after the next paper :)

Oh ya..my dearie laptop. attacked by trojan horse. becos of me, this stupid owner, simply go click some stupid link that accidentally send to me through msn. yesterday was under treatment. thanks to my IT pro cousin. but still not cured yet n the final solution is reformat but all the cds for all the programmes needed is at home in JB! means i got to go home n get them 1st b4 i can reformat my laptop. sighhhhhhhh have to spend the hols with my cousin's computer. missing my laptop already..n i realise that it is really good to have someone who is pro in IT in ur life, whether is a friend or family member. can get help easily when u have probs with ur computer. very nice

Time to get on with life. got to settle time table for next sem n start studying fast. got to work really hard for the next paper. guess think is a good thing that my laptop is down. cant online when i m in my room already. study more online less

Life goes on yet for another day

Cheer up! :)

sweet

Yesterday i think the exam stress drove me mad haha..emotionally quite unstable from morning until evening. dont really know y this time round the finals seem to be more stressful. can even sense that my brain n memory r degrading hahaha..forget this forget that n believed in one of my friends' silly joke..still so gullible. silly side of me. anyway finally felt better after i woke up from a nap. watched a movie called Contact on tv at night. watched it for the 2nd time. very good movie. about this scientist in astronomy who worked very hard to pursue her dreams, to prove that what she believes is true. starring Jodie Foster. i like her.she is a very good actress. her movie are usually worth watching

Today..nothing much. study study n study. paper tmr. then another one on friday. thats all for this week.

Had a change of plans for my coming holidays. after my last paper on 23/6, dont think i will be going back to JB yet. will stay in KL for one week n then will be going to Pulau Perhentian with my uncle n his family at the beginning of July :) after that then only i will be going back home. 1 week in KL means more outings :p Pulau Perhentian. heard is very nice. sounds fun right? well let me survive for the rest of my papers first ba..

Some sweet friend has done some nice thing for me. i used to do that for some ppl n i still do that sometimes for my close friends. never expect anyone will do the same thing for me too. so sweet :) touched

Shall continue studying

more than words

...to tell u how i feel

world cup

Well..i dont watch football often. but usually i will at least watch 1 or 2 matches during World Cup. becos this event is only held once in a few years time. not like u can watch it everyday or wat. opening match was quite exciting. the match which i just watched a while ago was quite boring. first goal was during the first 4 minutes and thats all. 1-0. nothing much

Hmm realise something. sometimes hear ppl say that guys appear most attractive when they r doing things seriously, concentrating on wat they r doing. the statement doesnt really make sense to me in the past whenever i hear about it and i dont really understand y. but seems now it does haha..just pay attention on those football players if u happen to watch world cup. then maybe the statement will start making sense to u too :)

my new darling

a bit regret though hehe. should have picked Striker Red instead of Defender Yellow. it seems to look better wearing red rather than yellow. but is ok. i still love my new darling :D

just a little something

Yesterday was having holiday mood. cleaned up my room, spent much time with my laptop, at night had a chat with my friend who is back from US. looking forward to meet her. was excited hehe...yesterday even had the urge to do some shopping. crazy..n i was trying hard to finish up that stupid last piece of work. 2 tasks done. 2 more..

Today no more holiday mood. back to reality..esp after chatting with one of my uni friends...reminded me how 'wonderful' my last 2 papers were n how hard the coming paper on 21/6 will be. sigh...reality. cant allow myself to keep thinking about what i may do after i finish my finals. better work hard ba

Mv below: even if - ken hirai


boring mv. but the song is nice. u can get the lyrics and the english translation on the website below. just scroll down when u r on that page.

http://www.corichan.com/lyrics2/albums2/kenh-gaining.html

photos

some views around my house in KL. taken on different days in the evening except the 4th one which was during noon.

the white dot is moon

:)

be grateful. appreciate

Had been down for some time. becos of exam? maybe..yesterday was down right to the bottom after that horrible paper. it was easy but no matter how easy, what could u do if not well prepared right? set me thinking..about the mess i have created so far in life. thinking about my life...thinking a little bit too much i guess

Today finally feel better. after quite a while..think we should just be grateful in life. appreciate ppl that we encounter, appreciate the things we receive. dont think too much. just appreciate n be grateful to what ppl do for u, their kindness n care..guess this will at least make life a bit more beautiful? haha..cant deny that life does have its beautiful side. at least for me

Always look on the bright side of life...always? sounds kind of impossible right. at least should try sometimes, if not always. so that we can be happier in life. make life a bit easier :)

miss home

i want to go home

hopeless

thinking about the amount of time left before the day i have my papers,

looking at the list of topics which i have to study, the pile of notes which i have to read..

one word just appear in my mind: hopeless

hopeless until i can just laugh..the idea of finishing up the notes is just so impossible

better get started for today. there is no 'can' or 'cannot' finish..is HAVE TO. at least finish as much as possible..

will try. MUST TRY. no such thing called give up. i dont do dat

nothing much

lyrics for a song..

九份的咖啡店 陈绮贞
作词：陈绮贞 作曲：陈绮贞 编曲：陈绮贞

这里的景色像你变幻莫测
这样的午后我坐在九份的马路边
这里的空气很新鲜
这里的感觉很特别
仰望这片天空遥尽我对你的思念

窗外的星空像你嬉笑不眠
这样的午夜我坐在九份的咖啡店
这里的街道有点改变
这里的人群喧闹整夜
望着朦胧的海岸线是否还能回到从前

昨日的单纯今天的实际像你
而你也早已不是你
我的心是一杯调和过的咖啡
怀念着往日淡薄的青草味

窗外的景色像你没什么道理
这样的午后我在忠孝东路的咖啡店
这里的街道有点危险
这里的人群面无表情
想问你也问问自己是否还会记得从前

昨日的单纯今天的实际像你
而你也早已不是你
我的心是一杯调和过的咖啡
怀念着往日淡薄的青草味
怀念着往日的坚持和现在你我的改变

This singer is quite talented. she composes her own songs, most of them, for both the lyrics and the melody.how cool. her songs r special
听她的歌就好像在读散文一样

this is another song from her 吉他手

random pick

wishing on the same star - namie amuro

no mood

dont have much mood for most of the things in life now. kind of down becos of finals.

no mood to chat online. although i m still there sometimes, i just let the msn list to become my wall paper for the com. just let myself be a quiet icon on the list. think sooner or later u wont even see this icon of me anymore

no mood for songs. simply play the list randomly. rock songs seem to be quite nice now especially when i feel worse haha..blast them LOUD until i find it noisy..

not much mood for tv too. although i m still following a korean drama n a jap drama now, basically i can still afford to skip them. sometimes.

no more outings or movies. yesterday had the last movie. guess wont have any until 23/6. last paper day.

actually i shouldnt blog so much too.

currently my means for destressing: story book/sleep (if is nap time n i m at home)

not looking forward for anything. eventhough i do have some which i can look forward to. my current goal is to survive for the 2 papers next week.

now i just feel like lying on the bed n staring at the roof. do nothing. have a short nap. but i m in uni...not sure wat time i will be home also

done with this depressing blog. shall start studying now.

i m still fine

KLIA

I was in KLIA about 3 hours ago..tagged along to send off one of my cousins who came to kl becos of work so that i could have a ride to uni after sending him off. well we didnt go to the main KLIA building. my cousin was taking Air Asia. so the terminal was at another area which was specially meant for Air Asia flights. kind of pity hehe. i like the main building

Always like to tag along to go KLIA when i have a chance (but today i didnt volunteer. i went there together just for the ride to uni after KLIA). KLIA is not at the main city n the journey to go there usuallly takes about 45min. n the usual timing we go is always at night or very early in the morning. i enjoy the journey. sitting comfortably in the car, listening to the radio, looking at the things along the highway. looking at the sky, sometimes will have the chance to see some nice sky, sunrise, if we happen to leave KLIA early in the morning. today we left KLIA around 7am and the sky was beautiful..with the sun shining through the clouds. u can actually see the rays. but no camera. can only keep the picture in my mind.

Along the way while doing nothing, i can just let my mind sort of relax, thinking about nothing much. just relax while the car will bring u to somewhere far away from the city. far away from the things that trouble u..ur work, ur test or watever..just for a while. in the airport, just walk around, look at the people, their expressions, their luggages..where r they going? or did they just arrive? different ppl, different stories, different experiences, different encounters, different purposes to be at the airport, different feelings. n basically, if u have the money, the next minute u can just be on a journey to anywhere else in the world. fly off. just leave. haha..too bad i m not that rich. I hope one day i can have the ability to do that. just go anywhere i feel like going. just leave when i feel like leaving. then come back only when i m satisfied. dreaming

Shall just end here..