grumble

emotion going up and down these days.

very down when i see that people are rushing up to give her a visit. i really want to know how she is. one more week to go before i can see her. i hope our plan will go well.

work..good and bad. i am still not fast enough. i need to be faster. i am trying..can you just stop saying that i am not fast enough????.....colleagues are fine. lab manager is friendly. there are times when i feel quite happy by the end of the day. next week i will be all alone in my department. lets see how i can turn myself into a wonderwoman/superwoman/whatever who can finish all the work by the end of the day, on time, no OT

very lonely. the house has turned so quiet after my uncle and aunt went to Sabah. there is only me alone at home when my cousin is coming home late. no one to talk to. and i feel the need to talk to someone. please dont sound bad to me when i am trying to have a conversation. i just need someone to talk to. how i wish making phone calls is free. msn is free, but i am too tired to get online, and...well it doesnt guarentee that i can get the right person to talk to. i am so lonely

i hope tomorrow will be a better day