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full of hatred. i dont know what to say

get another new job? i dont know. i only know i start to cry a lot after i started working there. just like the time when i was having a hard time during my pre-U. and same thing happens again: i dont like the sad part but i like the people there. i dont wanna leave just like that. i guess i will still stick on for a while more...or should i?

finally met her last weekend. she is not as bad as i imagine...but is bad enough to crush my heart. if only i can visit her often. i think this is the first time i witness with my own eyes how illness tortures people.....stop torturing her, wouldnt you?

i hate self-centered people. yes i do. people come all the way to such a far place, and you make me lose the chance to meet them for a longer time because you cant / dont want to wake up in the morning????? you dont know that i do get angry, no?

time to get off. good bye