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the damselfly is dying...or maybe by now it is dead already.

yesterday when i came back from the field trip, it was still on the plant, moving slightly. this morning when i reached the lab, it wasnt on the plant anymore...feeling a little nervous, i started to look around, searching for it. not on the plants, not around the pots....i was about to give up the search when i finally saw it..it was lying on the floor, looking dead. i thought, oh god, times up..but as i put it on my palm, i realised it moved! not dead..kind of happy, but it was quite sad looking at it, not able to move much, most probably because it was too hungry. i cant do anything to help it...where can i get any insects to feed it?? i can only watch it ending its life slowly. how sad..

i left it on my table, and started my work. it didnt move at all for most of the day, not that i noticed. before i went home, i decided to put it on the petri dish cover that i have, and by then, it really didnt move anymore..as i was considering whether i should add in any alcohol to preserve it, it moved!. god! i nearly killed it..lucky i havent poured in the alcohol yet. but it was really quite sad looking at it, trying its best to move, maybe trying to escape thinking that we were hurting it, but it was just too weak to do anything..it would really be a miracle if it survives over the weekend

it is always sad to watch living things losing their life. i dont like it...or maybe i shouldnt have developed any feelings for it, and just treat it as a 'thing'..then maybe i wouldnt feel sad when it is gone. but i am a human..how can i not feeling anything?