lonely

project is progressing bit by bit, which really makes me happy when i think about it. did a trial test for the water samples that i collected on last sunday, and saw the results today. did get some positive results :) and the research asistant that guides me said that my agar plate looked quite nice. praises on work from people who are quite professional already in the same work do sound good, dont they? just hope things continue to go well..

i guess now i can quite understand why people say research life is boring. the amount of people we meet in the lab area is really small, and for me i guess i can be considered more fortunate, since i have 2 labs to move around, eventhough it still doesnt make much difference. at least i dont have to get stucked in the same lab everyday. i will be in lab 3 when i am doing my microbiology work, if not i will be in lab 5, which is where i will be doing my environmental part, the invertebrates part. lab 3 is quite lively, 3 research assistants and 3 honours students including me. all girls. and they keep playing stephanie sun's songs until they get stucked in my head hahaha. i prefer a lab without music though, but it is not my lab, so i should just get used to it. as for lab 5, there are only 3 of us using the lab, 2 pre-master course students and me. quite like the lab because there is not much people to deal with but just 3 of us, and i can officially claim a place there and stay there as long as i want. can use and touch anything as i wish. just like my own lab. the 2 guys in my lab are quite nice, especially tse yuen. he has been in the lab for some time, so he knows more than i do. has been helping me when i have questions and very nice to chat with. glad to have him in the lab. but life gets really boring when i am the only one in the lab, like today. so quiet and liveless hahaa..except the sound of the bubbles coming out from the aquarium containing the water cockcroaches. and we have another smaller aquarium now with some apple snails and another bug which i am not sure what it is called from the tin mine lake they had field trip on last saturday. very cute little bug, still alive and can swim quite fast in the water. i like the green plants by the window, which show another sign of life in the lab. hope they wont die hahaa..

sometimes just feel a bit too quiet in the lab area. and when people that you meet in the lab dont appear you feel even worse..more quiet than ever. dont have much people to share things with. guess after i go for my sampling, i wont feel bored and lonely anymore. i will be too busy dealing with the samples. miss the time when we go for lectures, where we will meet people everyday, chat with the closer ones everyday, moving from one venue to the other, meeting more people. i have long lost my addiction on msn i guess...last time used to engage in daily chattings with people, but now..most of the people are very busy, and most of the time i am just too lazy to think of anything to say. dont feel like starting conversations. dont feel like choosing people to start chatting. i am tired to care too much anymore i guess, especially when the effort doesnt seem to pay off. tired to drive on a one-way street

i have a feeling that i am somehow stucked in a space, never really move on to the new phase. technically i didnt really have a very good rest since i finished my last semester 2 months ago. just kept worrying about getting a job, when i finally secure a part time job, it is time to start my honours too. feel like going home and rest for a while, and come back here start anew feeling fresh. when will i have the chance to go back? maybe i should think less and concentrate more