somewhere over the rainbow

moving on :)

2010-12-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

yes. finally back to the blogging world, and yes i will start anew at a brand new place :)

http://purpleangelwen.wordpress.com

feeling excited! because i m back blogging hahaa......see you there!

emo

2009-04-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

i have known this word since long time ago..but i have never used it. until now..i guess i dont really know a better word to describe my feelings now

emo..maybe it is becos of the 'time of the month'..or maybe it is becos i am sad that i dont have so many friends who can so called 'sayang' me so much, like what my colleague is having now.. like wat she told me today. or maybe it is due to my tiredness..do i need a reason to be emo?

12.01am. time to sleep...tomorrow is another waking-up-early-to-take-buSES-to-work day..i seriously hope that i can get a car soon..

sometimes i am a bit tired of hearing him saying that he cant reach home late whenever we go out..i know he stays very far. i know his family will worry. so what?!?

and i m very tired of hearing people telling me to save my money. whats the point of saving all the money if this doesnt make me happy? sometimes i need to spend, i wanna buy things that i like, just to make myself happy..i wanna BE HAPPY. how i wish i can earn more. then i dont have to keep hearing ppl telling me to keep the phone calls short..if not they will cost a lot. DO YOU THINK I GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT? WHATS WRONG FOR ME TO CALL THE PPL I CARE???? HUH?!?!

god. sorry for all the readers. but ya..i need to complain for a while. thanks for listening..if there is still anyone reading this old, almost-being-abandoned blog

missing field trip

2009-03-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

....SO MUCH.

serious. no joke.

a song to keep

2009-03-19T23:59:00.003+08:00

as usual..cant get the mp3 yet. so i will just keep the mv here

If - Naby (from the Korean drama, On Air)

i need you. i love you. i cant say goodbye

damn song. make me depressed only...haih

delay delay delay

2009-03-16T01:44:00.003+08:00

delay shifting my blog. delay posting. delay looking at my photos. delay checking emails and let them piling up. delay clearing up my laptop. delay this delay that..oh man.....

i wish i have a long holiday where i can really sit down and do all these things. hahaa i wish

everything has been quite ok i guess. not much problems with the new job. not much problems with any other things...

sometimes unexpected things happen, and they make you realise how much a person cares about you.

today i was really a bad girl. my umbrella was spoilt, and i couldnt find a suitable one when we were out on saturday. so on saturday, he said that he will accompany me to get one on sunday, if his flu didnt get worse. this morning, he called and said that most probably he wont be able to teman me to get the umbrella, because his flu got worse..instead of telling him to rest, i did a bit of grumbling and said: next week if it rains, and i get wet because i dont have an umbrella, then it will be your fault...then around noon time, he went out, bought me an umbrella, and then asked me out to passed it to me. everything happened in less than 3 or 4 hours, and he did all these eventhough he was sick. the umbrella he bought was a nice one, not one which he just simply get just to fulfil my need. i am just so bad..

not to mention on saturday, he still went out with me, eventhough he was on mc.

he wont do all these, if he doesnt care about me.

他是真的疼我的。

我真的应该要改一改我的任性 haha..

sometimes, things like these make me wonder, why am i so stupid in the past, wasting my time trying to be nice to people who dont appreciate me at all?

but i guess it happens for a reason: it makes you realise that how lucky you are now, to meet with someone who loves you and will do so much for you. it makes you to appreciate and to your beloved one even more.

i thank god that i have finally met him, he who loves me :)

moving?

2009-02-28T17:05:00.003+08:00

have been thinking about moving to another blogsite..

still trying out here and there..no final decision yet

but dont worry. i will lead you to my new home :)

life has been ok. realise that i am actually happier after i am attached hahaa..do you feel the same way as i do? :) but had a fight lately..and truely agree now that, to be in a relationship is indeed not easy. rain and shine, unavoidable. just have to be confident about it. (thanks for the reminder..hehe..)

oh yes, i will talk about my birthday. next time k :)

thats all for now. good day :)

started

2009-02-01T23:58:00.001+08:00

meet my bf :)

better?

2009-01-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

are we getting anywhere? i guess so..but we can only be together if he can fit me into his life.

and i really hope that he can do that. i dont want any of us to get hurt.

是我爱上了一个人, 还是爱上了被人疼的温存？

我只知道，我开始渐渐的会想念。会想见面。会想一整天。

越是不想去想，越是想得多。

烦。

有时觉得好烦了，想太多，决定今天就一个人静一静, 不上网。不开msn 。可是半天后又收到sms, 问我吃了午餐没? 心里不禁感到高兴。他有在想我。

最后结果会怎样？

我也想知道。。。

拭目以待

happy new year

2009-01-01T01:24:00.000+08:00

on the very first day of 2009...during the very first hour of the day...i have already shed my tears.

tell me, how can i be happy for the rest of the year?

please tell me everything is going to be fine.

happy new year

happy working sunday

2008-12-29T00:37:00.001+08:00

working on sundays has never been a happy thing for me. i have to work from 9am to 6pm alone in the lab when most of the people are relaxing at home.

except for today.

on working sundays, i will get ready my own lunch, which is usually just bread and coffee, and get it over with in the lab. dont feel like leaving the lab alone, walking in and out of the lab where the whole area is so deserted that sometimes you can hardly even see a car driving pass on sunday afternoons.

but for today, he spent about 30 mins driving from his house to the lab, just to pack lunch for me.

other than packing lunch for me, he also became my guinea pig when i asked him to teach me how to draw blood..hahaa. thank god his blood test shows a totally normal result. not a thalassemia carrier like me :)

so far so good...hope everything is not just a beautiful dream

love?

2008-12-24T01:32:00.004+08:00

things are happening very fast

we did talk to each other before through phone, because of work. but we have never met each other before until about 1 week plus ago during the annual dinner. on 13/12.

then we became friendster friends. and then we started sms-ing each other, and started chatting on msn.

we had our first date on 21/12.

and now he msgs me everyday.

i was out just now to meet evona, chee hou and eugene. and had to travel back home myself. it was already 10 plus pm. and i only managed to reach home around 11.30pm. within this period of time, he msged now and then to ask if i had reached home safely..until finally when i sent the msg saying dat i had reached home, then only he went to bed. which was already 12am plus.

all these happened within less than 2 weeks..so fast until i am confused. should i just go ahead with it? or should i keep a distance some how?

just hope that nothing bad will turn out. no casualties. and hopefully, a happy ending.

silly

2008-12-02T22:15:00.001+08:00

..and thats me.

too nice to the people around me. too nice to the people that i care about. too nice to the people that i thought they deserve my care. what do i get in return? nothing.

are you really that forgetful? maybe. and maybe my expectation is a little too high. thats why i find it hard not to be angry when you make mistakes.

so back to the very beginning. it is me again who expect too much. it is me again who make my own life hard. yes it is all my fault.

my fault.

i m just silly.

touched

2008-11-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

"yea. but if you want to start all over again also good. i will support you no matter what decision you make."

so heart-warming...thanks :)

another day

2008-11-23T10:08:00.001+08:00

watched Madagascar 2 on friday.. there was this part where Melman the giraffe decided to confess to Gloria the hippo about his feelings towards her, but when he found her, she was actually half way dating Moto Moto, the male hippo. instead of telling her how much he likes her, Melman grabbed Moto Moto and told him to treat Gloria well, and told him how to treat her nice, what her favourite breakfast was..what to do just to see her sweet smile...

quite touching. and i nearly cried. maybe it was because of the afterwork tiredness, which makes me emotionally weak and tend to feel sad easily. but...how i wish someone would do the same for me too..remembering every single thing about me, knowing how to make me happy when i am down. understands me so so well..cares about me. loves me.

i am just so depressed. i guess i am just too tired. these 2 weeks i have to work continuously without any break in between. today is the 7th day. i have another 6 more days to go.

i am having the second interview tomorrow. but...do i really wanna leave? too early for any decisions. wait till i get the offer.

should start my work now before i regret later..time to work

我被困在一个人的峡谷多想要却要不到你安抚

kid

2008-11-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

i think i am behaving more and more like a small kid. when i am happy, i laugh. when i am sad or too angry, i just cry. eventhough i know crying cannot solve any problems.

i was really happy this morning when i received the call. a job interview..they responded really fast, i only submitted the application last night, after midnight. and this morning they gave me a call.

seriously hope that this will be something good. then i can kiss them goodbye. go ahead and process the sample yourself! shit.

i am very tired. will have an early rest. wish me good luck.

*my new hairband from Mc D.. :)

wish of the day

2008-10-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

let me die. thank you.

crushed

2008-10-19T00:51:00.001+08:00

too many things happen this week..i am just so tired

she has left us forever on Tuesday morning..i have never lost anyone close forever before, this is the first time. i just didnt know how to react. couldnt accept it, didnt want to accept it. but had to learn how to accept it. indeed very sad. i couldnt cry when i really felt like doing so, because it was working hours, but when i finally reached home at night, there were no more tears eventhough i was sad. wanna cry but there was no tears...it was so hard trying to put on a smile during work. so hard to hide how i felt. but managed to find someone to have a good chat yesterday night. i am all fine now. really appreciate the emails and messages that i received, thanks for the concern. may you rest in peace...

my wonderful lab manager has left the lab. quite sad, because all of us had such a nice time working with her. thanks to her training, i have turned from a newbie who knows nothing much about her job, to someone who can now work independently (at least most of the time) in her department. hope she will be happy in her life

i really dont know what i did to deserve all the no-replies on msn and facebook. i just wanted to know why. so i emailed, and tried to start a conversation again, but it only made things worse. another block on msn. why dont you just tell me on the face that you hate me? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS???? T E L L M E! i am a human too! i have feeling too! thanks for crushing me with another bad news after all the bad news this week. go ahead and do whatever you want. i am sad enough already. no big deal with another bad news. WHATEVER

but i am really glad that my ex-boss's wife managed to give birth to a lovely baby girl today. what a perfect family now...

and they showed the movie that i like so much on tv just now...nice.

i dont know how long it will take for me to fully recover. emotionally crushed. cant really feel anything now. i just want to have a good rest

cuties

2008-10-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

Bought these for her. i know she likes them by the way she touches them..i love them so much that i nearly keep them for myself. cant help but feel happy when i look at them

always by your side

you and i

.....

2008-09-27T09:40:00.001+08:00

full of hatred. i dont know what to say

get another new job? i dont know. i only know i start to cry a lot after i started working there. just like the time when i was having a hard time during my pre-U. and same thing happens again: i dont like the sad part but i like the people there. i dont wanna leave just like that. i guess i will still stick on for a while more...or should i?

finally met her last weekend. she is not as bad as i imagine...but is bad enough to crush my heart. if only i can visit her often. i think this is the first time i witness with my own eyes how illness tortures people.....stop torturing her, wouldnt you?

i hate self-centered people. yes i do. people come all the way to such a far place, and you make me lose the chance to meet them for a longer time because you cant / dont want to wake up in the morning????? you dont know that i do get angry, no?

time to get off. good bye

another night

2008-09-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

i think i should never blog at night, especially on weekdays after work haha..i dont think there will be much nice things to be talked about, since i am tired. and sadness usually goes with tiredness. but i will try

i wish the night can be longer. so that i can upload all the photos that i want to upload. tonnes of them waiting for me to have a look. i will find one day

i need a sun in my life. are you the one i am looking for?

grumble

2008-09-13T00:13:00.001+08:00

emotion going up and down these days.

very down when i see that people are rushing up to give her a visit. i really want to know how she is. one more week to go before i can see her. i hope our plan will go well.

work..good and bad. i am still not fast enough. i need to be faster. i am trying..can you just stop saying that i am not fast enough????.....colleagues are fine. lab manager is friendly. there are times when i feel quite happy by the end of the day. next week i will be all alone in my department. lets see how i can turn myself into a wonderwoman/superwoman/whatever who can finish all the work by the end of the day, on time, no OT

very lonely. the house has turned so quiet after my uncle and aunt went to Sabah. there is only me alone at home when my cousin is coming home late. no one to talk to. and i feel the need to talk to someone. please dont sound bad to me when i am trying to have a conversation. i just need someone to talk to. how i wish making phone calls is free. msn is free, but i am too tired to get online, and...well it doesnt guarentee that i can get the right person to talk to. i am so lonely

i hope tomorrow will be a better day

hang on

2008-09-09T00:49:00.002+08:00

i dont know what to say about life.

please hang on there..we are going to meet you very soon. may god bless you. please bless her. PLEASE

why is the world so small? i dont want to bump into him anymore. please.

i am very tired.

tired

next stop

2008-08-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

tired of sunway. i wanna leave here

thoughts of the night

2008-08-22T00:27:00.001+08:00

i hate olympic. i miss my drama of the day because of it

i should work OT more. so that i can go over to my cousin's office to meet his cool colleagues while waiting for him to go home together. really friendly bunch of people

i found the pair of high heels that i have been looking for. finally. nice looking. just the right height. i hope it is the correct pair. brings me happiness but not pain

Nike shoes are good. you should invest on it if you want a pair of comfortable and long-lasting shoes. the last pair i had lasted me more than 1 year. i hope the new pair will do the same

the new cd is good. but a little regret...not as good as i thought i guess

yes. spent a lot of money lately. but i dont care. i am happy by the end of the day

my next targets: a bag, an mp3 player. not just any mp3 player, i want a Sony mp3 player

yes. i will pay for it as long as it makes me happy. as long as i m happy

the ending song of the drama that i am watching now..

林宥嘉 - 背影

game over

2008-08-16T23:53:00.001+08:00

have always wanted to say this. but it has never been a game. but it means the same anyway

this is not the first time i get blocked. but for all these years i have always forgiven you

but not this time. not anymore

thats it

good or bad

2008-08-13T01:28:00.000+08:00

not sure whether i should classified today as a good day or a bad one.

another OT day. i so felt like crying when 6pm was reaching and yet i still had so many samples that i had to process....my colleagues, or i should actually said my superiors actually, helped me to do some of the tests and i still ended up staying back late. because by the time i finished processing those left for me, night had already reached. too dark and dangerous for me to travel back by my own....oh god. i am getting paid for OT (i assume i can get them for this month) but i am not in need of money! i just wanna get home and rest. yesterday i was so tired that i felt quite dizzy and had a terrible headache....i dont know what to say. I H A T E O T

but for today, due to the desicion to stay back late and wait for my cousin to go home together, i ended up having dinner with my cousin and all of his colleagues. made some new friends :) my cousin's boss's wife was so friendly that she lent me her CSI dvd to watch while waiting for my cousin to finish his work. so nice.

and ya..thanks for the call last night. eventhough i was half way sleeping already, the idea of having ppl to call me and find out why i was depressed was nice. thanks :)

i hope i can watch Wall-E this week :)

dont know whats wrong

2008-08-10T00:58:00.001+08:00

quite a depressed day. possible causes?? not enough sleep? have to work for a full day on a saturday? ended the day with OT again?.....i dont know.

started the day in a half-awake state. then got some bad news from my ex-lab mate. i was just too surprised and i blew my top. what?!?!! you cant even send me an sms to let me know that you cant make it???? i dont understand. but thanks anyway. i was really awake after knowing it.

i really like this paragraph in the book that i am reading now..

'There were many skies.
The sky was invaded by great white clouds, flat on the bottom but round and billowy on top.
The sky was completely cloudless, of a blue quite shattering to the senses.
The sky was a heavy, suffocating blanket of grey cloud, but without promise of rain.
The sky was thinly overcast.
The sky was dappled with small, white, fleecy clouds.
The sky was streaked with high, thin clouds that looked like a cotton ball stretched apart.
The sky was a featureless miky haze.
The sky was a density of dark ad blustery rain clouds that passed by without delivering rain.
The sky was painted with a small number of flat clouds that looked like sandbars.
The sky was a mere block to allow a visual effect on the horizon: sunlight flooding the ocean, the vertical edges between light and shadow perfectly distinct.
The sky was a distant black curtain of falling rain.
The sky was many clouds at many levels, some thick and opaque, others looking like smoke.
The sky was black and spitting rain on my smiling face.
The sky was nothing but failing water, a ceaseless deluge that wrinkled and bloated my skin and froze me stiff.' (from Life of Pi by Yann Martel)

the sentences are actually arranged one after another, in a normal paragraph form. but i wanted to see the different skies so i separated them. so many different types of skies..and you can even picture each of them clearly in your head. very beautiful description of the lovely skies. no? the different skies are kind of like the different types of human mood...i always feel that the weather resembles our mood

field trip tomorrow. Yay :)

and i realise that my bosses are all quite attractive hahahaa...the previous ones and the current one. envy their other half

take care

2008-08-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

quite tired actually. head a little spinning..but still feel like going online for a while. just wanna have a chat

work..quite ok actually. just that i dont like the idea of leaving the lab later than i should...and still waiting for a bus to go home eventhough the day has already turned dark. this is just normal working hours and i finish my work in the evening. tmr i will have the first taste of afternoon shift, and lets see how i can get home after i finish my work AT NIGHT. great. i love transport problem, dont i?

and i start to wonder...is my life going to be like this forever? go to work, come back home at night, then sleep, and work all over again...no, is not that i like to complain. just a little wonder.

i hope things will turn better for you very soon, d ying. hugz

sad to know that something bad has happened to another friend. condolence to you

new start

2008-08-05T00:37:00.000+08:00

first day of my new job..not too bad actually :) so far everyone is quite friendly. hope things will continue to be good

last day of my old job (18/7) was very fun haha..had a nice lunch with everyone. had a nice cake and a T-shirt with everyone's wishes on as farewell gifts. very sweet...photos next time k.

and then reached the 2 weeks of nightmare. had a viral infection...which ended up as an allergic reaction due to the wrong medicine given by the doctor..my god..scary red rashes all over, and the itchyness was HORRIBLE. for the last 2 weeks, i spent almost all of my time at home, 1 week in kl, 1 week in jb. if not at home, means i was either in the clinic/hospital/medical centre meeting a doctor or getting my blood tested. thank god everything is ok now. i hope so..

things seem to be ok now..at least better than the past. i am grateful

farewell..soon

2008-07-16T01:24:00.000+08:00

started to feel sad after i let everyone knew that this Friday will be my last day at work

well despite the little grumblings here and there, i did have much fun working there. all the field trips, the plantation that i have been going for this one year, the people that i meet all these while, my colleagues...i will miss them

leaving is always sad..but it also marks a new start, which we should be happy about. no?

sunday night

2008-07-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

the movie that we watched together was shown on tv just now. i wonder whether you still remember

was supposed to search for jobs..but ended up downloading songs, reading blogs, looking at the recent graduation photos of friends. congratulations to those who have just graduated! :)

found a job actually. low pay, long working days..no better offers now, so will just stick with it first. havent started yet, but very soon. maybe i shouldnt complain. at least i managed to get one

i didnt know 'smoke gets in your eyes' is a sad love song

when a lovely flame dies, smoke gets in your eyes

not sure

2008-07-06T11:07:00.001+08:00

Life is getting boring. i turn lazier lately..and now i am getting restless.

i think the job hunt is giving me pressure.

somehow i lose the momentum in life after i complete my studies..haih

i hope life will get better soon. more excitement. more fun.

i hope i will feel better soon.

i need a new start

new look

2008-06-28T01:28:00.001+08:00

:)

nice?

happy :) but not going to tell you why :p

back..for more?

2008-06-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

just came back from JB today. thats where i was for the past few days, if you have been wondering why i disappeared online since last friday.

many things to settle..started settling things once i reached KL in the afternoon. one of them is my hair. bye bye long hair..hahaaa. too tired to take a picture now. show you another day

once online, went through emails as fast as i can while listening to updates from my labmate. went through blogs to see if everyone is ok...dropped by facebook..i am very tired. i just want to sleep

but better update my blog for a while since i have not been saying anything for so long.

i wonder if you still read my blog. do you?

almost free

2008-06-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

finally handed in my thesis on friday! :) almost free. left with viva next week..

couldnt really describe how i felt when i held that book of thesis in my hands. all those hard work, effort, stress, tears, worries, blood and sweat...all in the form of a book in my hands. well, thats it. time to rest and relax for a while :p

so friday turned out to be a movie day..went to watch Iron Man and Kung Fu Panda. both were nice :) Iron Man. so man hahah..Kung Fu Panda. very funny. i dont mind watching it again

weekends..time to clear up all the mess. almost done. was a little lazy so didnt finish them up haha..had the same feeling that i had after i finished my A levels: the sudden emptiness. was really busy ffor quite a long time and now suddenly i am so free. dont know what to do with all the time i have haha..so finally get myself engaged in some dramas. what else can i do?..ya i will start preparing for my viva.

brand new start tomorrow :)

a little better

2008-05-23T23:11:00.003+08:00

quite happy today. not because i have finished my thesis though hahaha....i am still on it. pathetic me

decided to take a short break today

watched a movie, eventhough i had no plans for it initially..Narnia 2. save your money seriously. no point

finally bought the cd that i wanted to buy for so long :) hahaa.. 伍家辉－虽然我愿意. this is his first album, and yet it is quite a good one. 9 out of the 10 songs are nice. i hope he can last long in the music industry

had a little pleasant surprise today..sometimes it is quite hard not to believe in fate haha

nice day

adjusting

2008-05-16T01:20:00.001+08:00

messed up. need to rest for a while.

struggling with the thesis. still have quite a lot to do. trying very hard to stay calm.

feel really sad that i cant join the trip tomorrow. i really want to go...

dont really feel like chatting. but when i want to chat badly, the connection doesnt allow me to do so. please, for goodness's sake, just give me a few minutes.

i think the best for me is just to keep quiet. i am feeling very bad. i dont want to hurt anyone. i start conversations, hoping that i will some how feel more relaxed. unfortunately, the conversations cannot sustain.

grumpy. worried. nervous. sad. i can hardly breathe. i wish i can cry. but i cant.

i will be fine

useless

2008-05-14T21:39:00.001+08:00

i am very angry with myself. i am just SO USELESS AND PATHETIC!!!

everyone is going to pass up the thesis soon. me?!?!?!??????

and still want to think about the turtle trip?!?!?!? just stay here and do your work!

do not deserve anything. deserve nothing!!

i am just useless

temporary joy

2008-05-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

finally finished my project on tuesday! and also survived the presentation on thursday! :D

whats left now..thesis, coursework examination and viva (the FINAL final presentation)

i was SO HAPPY after my presentation was over on thursday...has been such a long time since the last time i felt so happy and relieved hahah...i was supposed to feel very happy too when i finished my project on tuesday, but i had to rush out the data list to prepare for the presentation..so not in the mood yet. really have to thank everyone out there who had given me help/support one way or another, especially my supervisor..she has done SO MUCH for me until i feel so guilty. THANK YOU!

my happy mood carried over on friday. wanted to give myself a little break by watching a movie and getting the cd that i want. my first and second choices were Speed Racer and Ironman, but the timing for neither of them were suitable for me..so ended up watching What Happens in Vegas, starring Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz. nice comedy :) very relaxing. but i still havent bought the cd that i want...a little incident happened. when i was comfortably sitting in the cinema waiting for the movie, my supervisor gave me a call, telling me there was a thesis which was quite suitable for me....so after the movie, i made my way back to the uni to find her. she is making so much effort to help me, i cant possibly call myself human if i dont appreciate her help. i wonder when i will be able to get the cd and also to watch these 2 movies..

next week will be the field trip to watch the turtles...i am not allowed to go, unless i can finish my thesis by then. haih......

nice pic (looks a bit like me haha..same long hair, with my favourite colour on..)

by the way, congratulations to those who has just graduated unofficially!!! enjoy yourself to the fullest!!!! :)

barely alive

2008-05-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

i dont even have one now which is big enough for me to have a good hug..

the good things about staying back late in the lab are, i will end up feeling happy because we will somehow have some fun, and the connection is very stable. i can have proper chats if i want to. so if you dont reply means....?!?!?!?!?!?!?????? is ok. WHATEVER.

havent had any proper sleep for 2 nights. i feel like a zombie.

i seriously do not know how i can survive for these few weeks.

"everything will be fine in the end". and i seriously hope so.

unpredictable

2008-05-01T13:50:00.005+08:00

sometimes i hate myself for being such an emotional person. i hate that.

really appreciate that i have nice labmates who can tolerate me. well we are trying to be understanding for each other now, since all of us are stressed. but still, they are really nice ppl.

yesterday my supervisor gave me a call, just to see how i was doing. asked me not to panick, offered to drop by the lab and help me if i really want..touched

tried to have some break last week. met up with yan min for dinner last friday

the background looks nice

celebrated my cousin's birthday last sunday. the exact date was actually on monday, but we had an early celebration.

couldn't wait to cut the cake hahaa

i bought him a wallet. and his colleagues bought him a wallet too! hahaha..what a coincidence

i am not a fan of classical music. but i have always liked Canon in D. and i have found another new love lately

Sarah Brightman and Andrea Bocelli - Time to Say Goodbye

Beautiful song

try

2008-04-25T02:32:00.002+08:00

still can feel the remnant of stress in me, eventhough it is the very very end of the day. need to do something to relax a little more.

luck has been on my side. the presentation date is postponed again, for another week. but it didnt really decrease my stress level much though..i am still trying very hard to finish up the project. MUST TRY HARDER

my internet connection has turned really bad since the day we started using a new router-modem thing. just so annoyed at times. cant have proper chats. can i at least have some proper chats at times?????? i am not getting a reply because my message didnt get through? or what? dont want to reply me??

i will try to smile more. talk more. i will try.

just a song

2008-04-21T06:14:00.000+08:00

fall in love with this song

伍家辉－虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么问题依然想念着你
虽然我放弃虽然我愿意

brink

2008-04-20T04:08:00.001+08:00

still like him.

SMAP - Lion Heart

he is the first one who starts singing in this video. just in case you dont know who i am talking about.

one more week to go before my presentation. and i am still struggling to finish my project. tomorrow is a Sunday. and I am going back to uni. i have no choice. i have to go.

behaved badly today, especially in the morning. still feel quite guilty, to think about it now. we had steamboat for dinner today. didnt talk much, eventhough everyone was having a great time. i am sorry

stupid things that i did these few days:
(i) friday: during lunch, ordered spicy hot noodles without realising what i ordered was spicy hot. i only knew it was spicy hot when my noodles came...spicy hot topping plus steaming hot noodles. could hardly eat it. but had to la...

(ii) today: wanted to make a cup of coffee. i poured in another pack of 3-in-1 coffee powder into the cup, eventhough i already poured 1 pack into the cup. only realised what i did after i had a taste of the coffee.. it was super duper sweet compared to the normal taste....double dose of caffeine and sugar. my poor body system..

just not focusing..too worried

happy things today:
(i) when i was walking towards the place where i planned to have my lunch, a senior from another lab asked me to join in to have lunch together with the group of them. didnt have lunch alone today, eventhough i was alone in my own lab

(ii) talking to dingying. thanks :)

i should really catch some sleep..

just me

2008-04-16T03:24:00.006+08:00

after some sleep, a little bit of coffee and a little more talk with my friends, finally getting over what happened today.

i am quite stressed already. so even small things can turn me crazy.

what happened today is actually not very significant. but it really hurt me. i am just too naive.

feel so touched, looking at the little pictures that my supervisor drew for me today. you can go ahead and say that i am crazy/stupid whatever, but i am really going to keep these little drawings nicely for long, as long as i can keep them.

i should get on with life. tomorrow is a brand new day :)

better

2008-04-13T03:10:00.003+08:00

this week has been quite ok. quite happy most of the time :)

celebrated Yong's birthday on monday, together with another 2 juniors, Nova and Shen.

birthday boy with his cake

relieved..finally blowed out all the candles after 2 tries

Nova is very good in birthday celebration hahaa...she was the one who started all the play. she asked Yong to pull out the candle using his mouth. 'can, but u have to eat this part of the cake!'

so he partitioned out the part for Nova..

...and she actually pushed his head down to the cake when he tried to take out the candle :p

thats it, cream all over the face! but didnt push hard so not much actually. next time :p

can eat already :)

i suggested to take a group pic, and thats when the cream fight started hhahaa. instead of eating the cake, they played with the cream! i didnt join in..me want no cream on me

i wonder how the 2 of them managed to put the cream all over him hahaha..shirt, face, chair, ears..everywhere!

neck also got! hahahaa..

done! cleaning time hahaa

proper pic before we left the room :)

it was quite fun, thanks to the juniors. laughed so much hahahaaa..got the correct people for the celebration, but bought the wrong cake! not enough whipped cream :p the thought of having not enough whipped cream did come across in my mind when i chose the cake, but i was too lazy to search for another one hahaaa. imagine if i buy one which is full of whipped cream...well anyway, hope the birthday boy had fun :)

tuesday received a good news: our presentation date is postponed!!! i was actually quite depressed that evening, and the news just made me so happy! hahaaa..i guess i am just too depressed these days and god decided to cheer me up a little. thank you

thursday night, stayed back in the lab with one of my labmates to do some work. after dinner, disaster started..allergy attack!!! my god....in a few hours time, red patches were all over me, it was so itchy until i couldnt even sleep eventhough i was so tired. thank god with the help of the correct soap it turned better. this is the second time in my life..just so scary. the red patches just make me so panicked everytime. please dont ever happen again..

friday..had a hair cut. my hair is a little too long, so i have it trimmed a little bit. it was trimmed by a student in a hairdressing academy, so didnt cost me much. but....just not 100% satisfied. the ends dont look the way i want them to be. maybe i shouldnt have saved the money. should i bear with it or waste some more money to trim it somemore? i dont know..haihzz

today i am quite happy too. initially i planned to stay at home n work on my thesis, but went back to the lab anyway. had a good nap in the afternoon, and cleared up most of my mess

my belated birthday present from Chai Har :) got it long time ago but i didnt open it up until today. the lion and the lollipop are just so cute! love them

another night wasted. no progress for thesis. good job. WORK HARD FOR GOODNESS'S SAKE!

april

2008-04-05T09:00:00.000+08:00

good morning.

thanks for dropping by. i know somehow you still care to know whether i m still breathing or not. or maybe just plain curiosity to see what this girl is thinking..whatever

what do you wanna know about me?

hows my thesis going on?

hows my project? have i managed to finish it since the due date is just around the corner?

how am i feeling these days?

do i sleep, eat, at least spend some time with my bf, which is the tv?

how much do i cry over these few weeks?

i hope the next post will be something good. bear with me. cannot panda. i dont want panda

bits and pieces of life

2008-03-31T04:01:00.002+08:00

last wednesday at work..one of the lessons for the education programme at the indian primary school at the plantation

one of the little experiments for the students..using celery stick and coloured dye to show the process of transpiration

control..celery sticks in plain water

set 1..celery sticks in blue coloured dye

the leaves of the control. normal green

leaves of set 1..the leaves turning blue

....and more blue. lovely..

my point is the sign board..but just nice there was a kingfisher just there..black-capped kingfisher? my guess

how the sky looked like by the time we finished everything and returned to uni

the seed of the chinese lantern plant (Physalis alkekengi). the white heart shape is natural, which makes the seed looking so cute...and no, i didnt turn so crazy until i draw a heart shape at the seed hahaaa..thats what one of my friends said when i showed her the seed

Stop and stare

You start to wonder why you're here not there

And you'd give anything to get what's fair

But fair ain't what you really need

Oh, can you see what I see

last week

2008-03-23T22:54:00.001+08:00

still thinking about the field trip last weekend. the ecology field trip. finally had the chance to sit down, go through all the photos and post them up. the trip was quite ok..but the mosquitoes were TERRIFYING. they came in SWAMPS. BIG SWAMPS. all these years the condition has never been so bad before. i guess it was just because of the rain....just our luck. started to love my camera more..can zoom all the way to take the pictures of the lovely birds :) and i realise the significance of a tripod..especially for bird shooting. my hands are already not very steady, plus they were so tired after carrying all the meters to the various sites, they just trembled horribly on the second morning when i was trying to shoot the birds. but seriously, i have no complains for the workload, because all the other 3 helpers around were all guys. they worked so much harder than me (well at least for 2 of them, the other one i dont know...). thank god that they were around

some pictures...more on facebook

the monkey on the bird watching tower that i went on the first morning

wanted to take the long shadow caused by the sunshine..failed attempt

a corner of the place where we stayed

right in front of our dorm

grey heron

bye..

at the entrance of the mangrove

beauty by the lake

great egret?

was quite busy at the mangrove..helping the students who got stucked in the mangrove mud, measuring this and that..finally reached the last site which was at the end of the mangrove. the sky was so so blue that i just had to take a shot of it before i left, eventhough my hands were covered with mud. only had time to take one shot though..just one shot

went up to Bukit Melawati for the sunset again...but there was nothing much to watch. thanks to the rain. so sad..

lovely couple

had to leave the hill because of the rain. haihz..

second morning at the bird watching tower

nice sunrise

little monkeys playing on the tree

great weather at the Gombak forest

the remaining of the 300-year-old tree that fell down..due to old age. in the past we were always amazed by its height, its huge trunk, its age...and now..thats it..

my supervisor Dr Cathy, and my labmate Tse Yuen

after the field trip..life carries on, despite all the tiredness, sore, whatever. emotinally very unstable..stressed because of the invetebrate identification, tired because of the field trips, plus the thesis..JUST CRAZY. hopefully next week will be a better week, seriously hope so

too tired

2008-03-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

very very tired....done with 2 field trips. one more tomorrow.

fun, but tiring...one trip after another is really exhausting. by the end of the day, my brain will be quite messed up already. all i want is to sleep.

tiredness messes up my mind. think a little too much...grumpy..sad. tiredness makes me crazy

everything will be fine tomorrow. sleeping is the best medicine now

march

2008-03-03T03:28:00.002+08:00

a little belated birthday gift from my junior. so sweet :)

entering march. time really flies so fast..finally finishing the main work for my boss. hopefully from next week onwards i can concentrate on my thesis, which still doesnt have a single word. still have lots of catch up to do in the lab..have to start reading up for the identification of those invertebrates..so much to do, yet i m not very stressed hahaa. good or bad...dont know

field trip month..this coming weekend and the following weekend i will be going to the forests which i have been to these few years. this time the main difference is...i m paid. despite the fact that i like field trips, if possible i wouldnt want to go for these field trips anymore. i have lost count of how many times i have been to these places. too much memories. painful.

i watched Kung Fu Dunk last thursday. nothing special, except some good looking guys. save your money for another movie

i like him. cool with killer smile..but i realise he only looks cool in this movie, the real person is just so-so

Bo-Lin Chen (陈柏霖) in Kung Fu Dunk

hmmm..i am a little too direct in this post hahaa. a bit mean. sorry..i was a direct scholar. (the old lame joke. still remember?)

some pictures taken during my last inverterbrate sampling at the plantation. nice sunset on the way back to KL.

which one do you like most?

happy mode these days, should post something depressed then only looks more like my post right hahaha...this song is quite nice. sad enough

Show Luo 罗志祥我不会唱歌

you will only understand how pain it can be if you have this type of similar experience. 想见不能见最痛

how long can this happy mode last? i wonder..

24

2008-02-28T02:03:00.001+08:00

nice number. i hope the year will be as nice too..

the day was quite nice. happy for the whole day. event of the day was the surprised celebration given by my labmates in microbiology lab :) eventhough it was just a short one, i was quite touched..

no cake, but doughnuts haha..quite a good idea, you dont have to cut and divide

ready for a bite!

everyone in the lab :)

closer look

present from 2 of my honours batchmates..a bracelet

another shot

other than this little party, received lots of birthday wishes..thanks for the smses, msn wishes, facebook messages, friendster comment. all are nice :) got an e card from Wendy in UK. nice..and got a self-made e-card from Hwa Chin, very nice..not sure whether i should post it here (i m very tempted to post it up, can i?) i share the lovely quote with u:

'True friendship is seen through the heart, not through the eyes'

very true.. and thanks for the effort :)

planning to catch a movie tmr..

..and first time enjoyed the fun of not telling people my day hehe: my labmate at the other lab, which is the environmental lab, was shocked to know it is my bday when another friend dropped by to give me the present. his reaction was funny. 'why didnt yiu say??' (with shocked look on face)..hahaha

the day went better than i expected

welcome back!

2008-02-20T01:30:00.002+08:00

my dearest movie kaki is back from UK!!! :D met up with her today, eventhough we didnt catch any movies, it was a very fun day. no movies but we shopped around hahaa....next time DEFINITELY will catch a movie..i dont care :p

some photos taken today..

havent been having any nice outings lately. today was really enjoyable :) hows my new dress? nice?

i am very happy today :) after a good sleep last night and a nice outing today, finally i m not feeling stressed anymore. sometimes do need a break..thats how we keep ourselves sane

happy :)

meet my bf

2008-02-14T00:57:00.002+08:00

:p

Happy Valentine's Day :)

these days

2008-02-13T01:37:00.001+08:00

everyone seems to be very busy. well everyone IS busy. after the CNY break, life starts all over again..projects projects work work work..tell me, can anyone afford to be free now? possible?

the break for me...i think happy times only takes up about 10% or less. other than that..sad, stress, angry, tears, tears more tears, whatever. you name it. cant even think properly. everyday weirdly i have one song stucked in my head. last 2 days were much better. much much better. well at least not that bad afterall

i have work due on friday. tried to get someone to chat so that i can feel more calm, and also, just to see how everyone is doing..sorry to disturb.

jia you everyone. gong xi fa cai :)

(found out that XOXO actually means hugs and kisses. hahaaa..ya i am slow..)

away

2008-02-02T15:34:00.000+08:00

going home today for CNY..will be back on 12/2.

in a rush..still havent finished packing yet eventhough i m leaving in 20 mins time. great.

hopefully i can online once in a while when i m at home..but..this is hard.

thats all..will update when i can. Happy Chinese New Year!

for my own entertainment

2008-01-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

i like the song but i dont have a copy of it. so just save the mv here. if you like it too feel free to click on it as many times as you want

林隆璇 & 李圣杰 - 你那么爱她

have not been blogging these days. just cant find the time. many events happened, but no chance to jot down. shall wait until one day when i will just post up the pictures. one day..

my good friend Jim Fong is leaving to Singapore next week. really feel happy for her for a brand new start. had a farewell outing with her just now. happy day. wish her all the best! good luck..i m going to miss u

funny

2008-01-19T00:54:00.000+08:00

Show Luo (罗志祥) 当我们宅一块

does it make you smile at least, if not laughing?

it worked for me :)

last day of the year

2007-12-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

feeling much better today. especially when things started to go my way in the afternoon.

decided to leave the lab a little early since tomorrow i will be back to the lab for the whole day..yes a very special new year's day indeed, whereby i will be doing my work in the lab..anyway, dropped by Pyramid to have a little walk while waiting for my cousins for a ride home. new year's eve..should feel happy :) so went to have my favourite food in Pyramid, which is the crispy wrap. then passed by MPH, thinking that maybe i should check out whether there is any stock for 'Life of Pi', the book that i have wanted to buy these few weeks but cant find a copy. and when i went in, there was the book, lying on the shelf!! :D very happy indeed!!! really make my day.

so eventhough i still cant get the results that i want, yet again..i am very happy now :) last day of the year wasnt that bad after all.

happy new year to all! best wishes for the year to come...

very sick

2007-12-30T16:30:00.000+08:00

home sick. very very sick...the main cause of this sickness is the lab. get stucked in the lab for too long, and keep getting no results. i need to get away for a while..i want to go home

super duper bad mood. just want to find ppl to chat. but some people are just so stupid. i care to start a conversation, but people just dont care to reply. i am not asking you to show any concern for me, just even answer my questions also so hard??? i know i m not some hot chick with a pretty face. so dats y i dont even deserve to be a friend? ya i m just stupid to pick the wrong person for a chat. and now another one does reply, but start to tell me lies. great. sadness turning into anger. thank you

i think i need some rest

Merry Christmas

2007-12-25T13:09:00.000+08:00

time really flies. another 2 weeks have past since my last post. n today is christmas! cant help but feeling a bit excited, eventhough it is a stay-home-do-work day.

right after my last post, talking about all the longing for movies n break, the next day my uncle decided to have a family outing, dinner and movie :) we watched 'The Warlords' (投名状), starring Jet Li, Andy Lau and Takeshi Kaneshiro. it is one of the movies that i feel like watching these days but no time for it until the outing. the movie looks quite good in the trailer, and Takeshi Kaneshiro is one of the actors hahaha..the movie turned out to be good! better than what i expected. not just pure killings but more about human relationship, reality and life. the movie lasted for 2 hours, and when the movie ended, i realise my joints were kind of stucked..didnt really move much but just focus on the movie itself all the while hahaa..lucky i didnt leave the cinema with the comment 'nothing special...thank god at least got takeshi'. quite a good movie, worth watching :) and the outing was great. had a wonderful time. enjoyed the night

then..life moves on. nothing too special happen. for the week in the lab, things were not too good..still cant get the results that i am supposed to get. cracking my head thinking about what went wrong..one day finally found out that one of the volume of the solutions that i added in was wrong! was quite happy at first and thought that i really solved the problem, but then...when i rerun the test, NO RESULTS AGAIN.......god. i really dont know whats wrong. haih..going to try another method tomorrow. hopefully it works.

last friday (21/12/07) my office had an end-year bash, to thank everyone that has contributed something to the group. was really happy that one of my bosses, John, and his family made it for the event. always like to see them, such a happy family..had a good time catching up things with them. great night :)

then sunday (23/12/07)..went to the christmas event in the church with Eugene How. the event was great, like last year's. i always like their idea of holding a candle in the hand. the view of a sea of lights on the screen showing everyone in the hall just looked magnificant. next year will i still be joining their celebration? god knows..

then yesterday (24/12/07)..Christmas Eve! so decided to give myself a half-day break. went to Mid Valley and catched a movie, 'Alvin and the Chipmunks'. not good..eventhough i like the chipmunks, since i was still a small girl. the chipmunks were really cute...but the story line was just too normal. too much of singing. too bad..i thought i can have the feeling as the one i have for transformers, watching childhood favourite cartoons and enjoying it very very much, but sadly, i dont. the shopping mall was so crowded. suffocating..couldnt shop properly, and didnt really have time for it, because had to rush to go for a christmas pot-luck gathering at my lab mate's house. the gathering was quite fun..and i learned how to play mah jong hehehee..and we had a very lucky position with very good 'feng-shui', whereby anyone who sat there would win the game! all the winnings were from the people who sat there last night haha..interesting. anyway quite a nice outing.

thats all for the long long happier story..is life really better? hmmm maybe. i guess so..but i guess i will only have the greatest joy if things turn out well in the lab. my wish for this christmas..and also hope everyone that i care would be happy. Merry Christmas :)

need a break

2007-12-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

have been very very busy these few weeks..was very sad and depressed because of the honours project. very stressed. until last week things started to turn out a little better, and finally managed to go for my long delayed sampling. but still made mistakes here and there when i processed my samples, because i was nervous and still not as confident as before. my confidence have been dashed quite severely and it is still slowing recovering..anyway finally get through the second sampling. really hope that things will go smooth in the lab. really need a lot of luck..wish me good luck..

this week finally not that busy in the lab..not that stressed. try to relax a little more. really feel like taking a break, going home, or just spend one day window shopping and watching a movie..i need a rest, after being so stressed for the past few weeks. will try to squeeze some time out..hopefully

honours year..really not as easy as i thought. i m not someone who thinks a lot, have a lot of interest in research. i am still blur and still make stupid mistakes in the lab..not very thoughtful. this is what makes me stressed. maybe i shouldnt have taken up the honours course..maybe. but no turning back anymore. so must continue on. no matter what, still have to get through everything. so all i can do now is work harder. people can survive honours year, so can i. just work harder

these days really appreciate friends around me who try to help me one way or another, or just listen to me at times. thanks a lot!

thats all for now. hopefully i have some nice stories to share soon.

smooth sailing in the lab please..really hope so

i need some fun. i need a break. i want to go home...

envy

2007-11-22T01:48:00.000+08:00

turning lazier each day...have work to do, but never really get down to it. have stories to blog about and pictures to put up, but no new posts lately too. i dont know what i am turning into..

my lab mate is a sweet loving bf. but of course not my bf la..today he was going to meet up with his gf in Seremban. he bought some nice donuts for her..from some nice donut shop in a shopping centre quite far in KL. then in the lab, he prepared nail polish remover for her, using his own solvents. well, the things he did may seem to be very small n simple, and you can go ahead and call me silly. but to me what he did were really sweet...nice bf. cant help but envy.

celebrated Marcella's birthday on Monday. she is one of my close friends in uni. this is one of my favourite pics for the night. will post up others another day

birthday girl is the one right next to me. may all her dreams come true :)

a fairy tale

2007-11-14T01:20:00.000+08:00

watched the movie Stardust yesterday. lovely fairy tale...quite a nice storyline. nice effects. beautiful actress. handsome actor (who only appeared charming after some make-over in the movie hahaa). happy ending. nice soundtrack. worth watching. go watch

the soundtrack: Take That - Rule The World

i like the innocence in the movie. still believe in fairy tales..

a little joy

2007-11-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

these 2 days had a little bit of fun..yesterday my lab mate suggested a waffle break, so we went for it. bought a new cd, 'Goodbye and Hello' by Tanya Chua (蔡健雅) :) havent really listened to it properly..hopefully it can make me playing it over and over again, none-stop..

today went back to the office. ya..it is a public holiday today, but i still went back to the office, because the lab is closed on public holidays, i cant sort my samples, so i should go back to the office and fulfill my working hours. felt really tired at the beginning of the day..these days have been taking public buses every morning, have to wake up quite early, didnt sleep well. today was just so blurry..but after meeting Jim Fong in the office, felt much much better. some chattings and catching up while doing our work..did make the day better. after our work, we decided to have dinner together in One Utama..spent another round of our hard earned money on food again hahaa. ya another bit of money is gone, but we had fun :) i guess thats the most important thing. if spending a little bit of money can bring some happiness to you, then why not?

to be happy is still one of the most important thing in life..

troubled

2007-11-04T03:28:00.000+08:00

...by an old problem.

it gets worse lately, after i realised how bad my judgement can be. disappointing.

when can i get out of this? i hope the day will come soon

lost myself somehow. need to find my soul back. where is it?

a little bored

2007-10-29T02:50:00.000+08:00

have been spending most of my time in the lab these days. finally can start sorting my invertebrate samples, but the microbiology work still gets into the way...have to repeat the process because i cant get any results. haih...i thought i can get it over fast and just concentrate on the invertebrate part, but no. hopefully next week i can have some results and get over with it

sorting the invertebrate samples..is not hard actually, basically you will just have to sit there, look under the microscope, search for those little insect larvae in the sample, pick them up and put them in another smaller bottle. but it is SO TEDIOUS..time consuming and tiring. imagine sitting in a place and searching for little things under microscope for hours! can chat..provided i have someone else in the lab, but actually no good because i will forget which part i have looked through and which part no hahaa. thank god i have a radio in the lab. can at least listen to something and make life a little more interesting hahaa

start to miss field trips..i have just had one on 17/10, but then getting stucked in the lab just making me feel like going out there somewhere again. start to think about the project trip 2 weeks ago (6/10 - 11/10), whereby those few days we were just working in the plantation from early morning until late evening..of course no easy job, but then at least we get to go to different places everyday, and occasionally can see some nice birds..and we did something called 'lamping' one night. we drove around in the plantation and shone light around to detect the animals present. animals' eyes would reflect the light, looking like some little lights, and thats we detect them by looking around for those little eyes. seriously very interesting and exciting haaha..it is really fun to be with these professional wildlife people, you can really learn a lot and see a lot of interesting things. too bad we can only join them for lamping for 1 night

some pictures of the trip..all of them are not my own photographs. i only bought my camera after the trip. next time i will have my own photos. yay!

first day of work. first site. testing the stream water with Jim Fong. she is my batchmate from Monash, working for Wild Asia too for now (photo taken by Yong)

towards the end of the first day. Yong, Jim Fong and me sampling in another river (photo taken by John, one of my bosses)

Yong going through the sample, looking for the tiny invertebrates, counting and identifying them. while Jim Fong recording down the data. i was the one collecting the samples since my identification skill is not as good as his

have a good smell at the sample :p (well of course not la hahaaa. just taking a closer look at the sample for the invertebrates)

caught a cat fish in one of the samples at that sampling site. quite a big one (photo taken by John)

dragonfly mating. saw them on our way out from a forest. the bottom one is the female (photo taken by Yong)

in that forest, i saw some peakcock fern too. really nice looking fern, the leaves are blue in some parts other than the normal green. this picture was not taken in that forest though. it was in taman negara (photo by Yong)

a black shouldered kite. one of the nice birds we saw in the plantation (photo by Yong)

the lovely common palm civet cat that we saw when we did lamping that night. it was hiding on one of the oil palm trees. so cute!! (photo by Dave, one of the bird watchers in our team)

we also saw a leopard cat. beautiful, isnt it? :) (photo by Dave)

closer look at the cat

our group photo, taken at the place we stayed. from left: Jim Fong, me, Dave, Yong, John and Kim Chye. Dave, John and Kim Chye are the professional bird watchers. John is also an ecologist. he knows almost everything! from birds to flowers to dragonflies..you name it. he is just amazing!

zz time. back to the lab tmr..

new camera!

2007-10-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

lately my cousin's old Canon Ixus died...which is really quite inconvenient for me since i want to take pictures of my sampling site, and it is really a pain when i go for field trips because i cant take any pictures at all. so decided to get one, using some of my hard-earned money and the other part is sponsored by my father. went to the Canon Expo today, and bought it!

This is it: Canon PowerShot A570 IS

my actual target is actually an Ixus, since i have been using Ixus all this while. but then..mainly because of the price (which is a little cheaper than the Ixus 75 i wanted initially), and also the functions (since you can sort of 'play' and learn more as you can adjust those shuttle speed etc, but you cant do these with an Ixus), and the freebies (i got a backpack and a 2GB memory card), so i bought this...at first i was still a little worried about the camera, since it is obviously more complicated than just a simple Ixus. but to think about it now, i m happy, since i have my own camera :) hopefully i will fully understand everything one day hahaaa

saw Simon Yam (任达华) today..well he is not really my idol, but he is still a super star. so joined in the fun to have a closer look at him, asked for his autograph and took a picture with him. once he arrived, the camera flashes just couldnt stop!!! but he was really friendly, didnt see a moment of him rejecting any shots or refusing any request for autographs. it is of course undeniable that he is VERY GOOD LOOKING, eventhough he is not very young. show u the picture when i get it then

had quite a nice day with Eileen, who went to the Expo together with me. thanks for the day :)

have been sick for a few days..sorethroat and flu. haih..dont like flu because i cant sleep well when i have blocked nose, and flu is always tiring. let me get well please..

ending

2007-10-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

the damselfly is dying...or maybe by now it is dead already.

yesterday when i came back from the field trip, it was still on the plant, moving slightly. this morning when i reached the lab, it wasnt on the plant anymore...feeling a little nervous, i started to look around, searching for it. not on the plants, not around the pots....i was about to give up the search when i finally saw it..it was lying on the floor, looking dead. i thought, oh god, times up..but as i put it on my palm, i realised it moved! not dead..kind of happy, but it was quite sad looking at it, not able to move much, most probably because it was too hungry. i cant do anything to help it...where can i get any insects to feed it?? i can only watch it ending its life slowly. how sad..

i left it on my table, and started my work. it didnt move at all for most of the day, not that i noticed. before i went home, i decided to put it on the petri dish cover that i have, and by then, it really didnt move anymore..as i was considering whether i should add in any alcohol to preserve it, it moved!. god! i nearly killed it..lucky i havent poured in the alcohol yet. but it was really quite sad looking at it, trying its best to move, maybe trying to escape thinking that we were hurting it, but it was just too weak to do anything..it would really be a miracle if it survives over the weekend

it is always sad to watch living things losing their life. i dont like it...or maybe i shouldnt have developed any feelings for it, and just treat it as a 'thing'..then maybe i wouldnt feel sad when it is gone. but i am a human..how can i not feeling anything?

surprise in the lab

2007-10-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

yong brought back some dragonfly and damselfly larvae during the field trip last week. they were left in the lab when we were back to KL on last friday. over the long weekend, i had been wondering what would have happened to them, whether they would survive, since they had no food. today when i was back to the lab, i found that some of them actually survived, alive and kicking in the plastic jars..and when i moved one of the jars, something actually flew out of it! God!! i was really surprised! it was actually a damselfly..one of the damselfly larva had turned into an adult!! hahaa...really didnt expect this to happen. the damselfly looks really delicate, and it is white in colour. maybe it will change colour later on, which i am not sure. i remember seeing the same type of damselfly when i went to one of the sampling sites. one of them flew out when i disturbed the water grass in the stream.

so what happens to the damselfly? it is still in the lab hahaa..the owner decided to let it hang around in the lab. it is still alive and hiding on the plant in the lab when i left. hopefully tomorrow i will still see it alive in the lab. poor thing...struggling without food. i wonder how long more it can survive

this is how a damselfly looks like. damselflies look more or less like dragonfllies, but they have a slimmer body, more delicate-looking. damselflies have their wings closed up when they perch on somewhere, whereas dragonflies have their wings spreaded out when they perch. do have a good look at a dragonfly next time if you have never noticed this before

long weekend

2007-10-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

which was not eally very long though. thought i would spend most of my time at home, resting after the tiring field trip, but i ended up being out on sunday and today.

on sunday eugene invited me to the church. have not been there for such a long time..last sem was quite caught up with assignments. then slowly didnt really visit there anymore. still felt the same warmth that i had before when i was there. saw some familiar faces. had a good time catching up with eugene too. enjoyed it

today went back to the office. the lab was closed due to public holiday, so decided to go back to the office to do some work. one of my batch mates, jim fong, is working in the same office as me now, so it isnt too boring or just about work when i m back to office. had quite a nice lunch, and then we decided to go for a movie after work. watched Lust, Caution (色，戒). quite a good movie, eventhough ya, there was only caution and not much of lust due to the censoring hahaha..quite a nice day. enjoyed the outing

have not been very happy these days. but these 2 days of outing really cheered me up. great :)

i guess i am just too kind to some people...no matter how much they make me angry, eventually i will still forgive them somehow. i will still be kind to them. am i stupid? most probably...i dont know

angry for nothing

2007-10-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

back from the one-week field work. no easy job...but did have some fun. maybe will talk more about it another day. not today. i m very tired

tend to get even more emotional when i m very tired. if i m sad i will feel even more sad, if angry i will just feel like killing people. maybe it is just something not really worthwhile for me to be angry with, but still i just cant make myself to feel better. guess i m just too tired

there are a lot of things that i dont understand. maybe there is really no need to understand at all..maybe

i really need some sleep. good night

work

2007-10-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

very busy...sampling after sampling, field trips non-stop..had one field trip last week which was purely just for fun, then 2 sampling trips this week (one on wednesday, another one on thursday), from tomorrow onwards until next thurday will have another field trip which is for work and hopefully i will enjoy it. i do enjoy field trips, but i realise it can be really tiring when the trips are just too close together. just feel so tired because of the consecurtive field trips on wed and thurs....just feel like having a good sleep. just dont feel like having any trips anymore..yet i do feel excited when i think about the trip tomorrow. like the idea of visiting new places, eventhough i will be going to oil palm plantations yet again..just hope that i will enjoy myself. to tell you the truth, i enjoy my trips eventhough they are tiring. ya i do..hope i will have fun for the trip tomorrow

guess i should just finish up my work as fast as i can and then sleep.....i am just SO TIRED....haih

one week break

2007-09-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

last week's break was quite fun. initially just plan to stay at home, be a good girl, read up about the invertebrates, and just spend a day to meet up with my secondary school friends. but in the end not only meet up with them, but also made a trip to singapore and met quite a lot of people.. nice :)

ding ying. really glad to meet her again. had lunch, talk talk talk, dropped by her room (which is really so neat and clean) and got some beauty tips from her too hehee. just miss you after i came back from s'pore..how nice if i m in nus too. then maybe we can go running at night together, or try clubbing together, shopping together, maybe stay back in the lab together also...sigh. want to meet you again. must meet next time when i go over again :)

after meeting with ding ying, spent some time in my younger sister's room. if you by chance come across someone that looks really like me in nus/singapore, yes thats my sis, and she is not me. i actually have a friend who went up to her and asked, 'chien wen what are you doing here?' hahaaa..my god. but with her over there now, it will be much much easier for me to go singapore hehe. my mum would be really glad to have someone to go over and have a look on her. i would really love to go over again soon

around evening, met up with hwa chin and her younger sis for dinner. subway's cookies are really nice! at night we went to jia en's acapella concert. ding ying was there too. the next day hwa chin met up with me n jia en again for breakfast before i left singapore. laughed our head off over lame jokes while having nice breakfast hahaa..hopefully i can be back to singapore again soon

hwa chin :)

after singapore, i met up with some of my secondary school friends. have not met them for such a long long time..had lunch, shop shop shop, lots of chattings. great time. glad to see that everyone is still good in her own ways..

from left: wei yen, soo teng, lay ting and me. great outing :)

thats my one week break. didnt realy have lots of rest but had lots of fun. did a lot of shopping too hahaa..i enjoyed my break. i am happy

away

2007-09-11T08:48:00.000+08:00

home for one week. will be back on sunday.. :)

take care

graduation

2007-09-09T02:40:00.000+08:00

my lovely bear and my lovely cert

a little performance before the ceremony. they actually played Cannon..one of my favourites. thank you

during the ceremony

waiting for the glorious moment to be on stage

my father

my elder sis

my new friends in the lab. they are simply great :)

one of my seniors who helped me quite a lot

kim. one of my batchmates who has always been incredible to me

chloe. the sweetest girl in my batch

my dear and i. best wishes to you in Hong Kong..

yong. my graduated senior who turned up too

other batchmates..

there goes the once-in-a-lifetime event....

relaxing

2007-09-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

still felt a little sad as the day started. i was supposed to be busy sampling at the plantation, but ended up in the lab becos the trip was cancelled. spent half a day in the lab, then met up with some friends for lunch. was kind of lazy to take the bus home, and i had nothing much to do if i m back early anyway, so decided to spend the afternoon in Pyramid and wait for my cousin for a ride home after his work

watched a movie, The Invasion. starring Nicole Kidman. it is about the invasion of an alien virus which would turn people to be unfeeling and emotionless, and the infection would only be effective after a sleep. to think about it, there is nothing too special about the story line. but i like the pace, fast and thrilling enough. this makes the movie really enjoyable. didnt regret choosing this movie :)

bought another new top. actually i just bought one last saturday, this is the second one within less than one week hehe..i have long wanted to try something more girlish, but always cant find one which can catch my attention, until today. eventhough it is a bit more girlish, but it is still simple in a way. hopefully it looks ok. i like it

havent been having such a carefree afternoon for quite some time. enjoyed the afternoon :)

S.H.E feat Fahrenheit - xie xie ni de wen rou (谢谢你的温柔)

不知道不明了不想要为什么我的心
明明是想靠近却孤单到黎明

cancelled

2007-09-05T01:05:00.000+08:00

the sampling tomorrow is cancelled :( heavy rain caused the river to overflow on sunday and the estate was flooded. today one of my bosses went there to have a look and told me that we couldnt even have access to some of the sites. so no point going anymore. cant help but feeling quite sad. my heart just sank when i received the flooding news on monday. thought at least can still carry on with the water sampling part but cant. haih...this is the third time we are postponing the trip. i really start to wonder whether we are really going to do it. what to do...will just have to wait then. hopefully i can do the water sampling part some day this month, before i do the invertebrate samping in October. OCTOBER..so far away. oh god..just hope that by then the condition will be favourable for me

suddenly i am so free for the next few days. or maybe weeks. movies?? go back to the office?? float around in the lab?? no idea..see how things go

how do you feel when you notice that some friendships are turning bad? as in...not as good as before. what will you do? the distance is getting bigger and bigger, and it is getting harder to start conversations. friendship is a two-way thing. if it is only one way all the time, i guess some day the friendship will turn bad too no matter what. because it is tiring to be one way all the time. how to save such friendships? i dont know. do you?

not ready

2007-09-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

not in the mood to blog these days. no fraser's hill for me after all..because the car couldnt fit me. felt quite dissapointed when i was told that i had to stay back, home alone. i mean...give me hope and then dash it?? how would you feel if i am the one who do this to you?? dont ask me at the first place then! dont ever give me nice hope, and then destroy it. DONT EVER DO THIS

sorry..started off grumbling. these days...i guess i m kind of worried about next week's sampling trip. i mean not really about the trip itself, but more for the microbiology part. i m worried that i might miss out any preparations that i have to do. i have spent a few weeks in the lab, but still..you need time to learn good skills and good lab preparation knowledge. eventhough i have been guided, sometimes i still tend to forget things, or dont do things the way they should be done. i guess worry doesnt help much. should just start to think thoroughly and get things ready next week once i m back to the lab. never feel stressed because of field trips hahaa..this is the first time. who asks me to take it as my honours project? if not the microbiology part wont even exist..anyway, things will be fine. everything will be fine in the end

friday stayed at home. today went out and had a bit of fun. watched a movie..Secret (不能说的秘密). the one directed by jay chou, starring jay chou too. quite a nice movie, but still felt a bit weird, because of the sudden twist of the story. but it is the twist that makes the movie not just a normal cliched love story. anyway, enjoyed the movie. spent quite a bit of money today..but didnt bring much happiness to me too. haih..

thats all for now...hows things at your end?

Jay Chou - Secret (不能说的秘密)

或许命运的签
只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋

这一季的秋天

飘落后才发现
这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

alive

2007-08-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for some time. had been occupied with work and also the poster for my project. finally completed the poster yesterday, and the presentation will be on thursday. kind of nervous..will get through it somehow anyway. should be fine. i hope..

quite like my job..because of the field work part. once in a while i will have to go to the plantation in Port Dickson, away from the city, the cars, the buildings. be with the nature for a while. well it is true that other than oil palm trees, there are just still more of oil palm trees. nothing much. but i like the clear blue sky, and the peacefulness in the estate. just like to be away in the wild for a while. next week will be my first sampling. hope it will go well :)

hope the movie plan tomorrow will work. has been really quite some time since the last movie i watched, which was...the nightmare detective? just hope tomorrow i can catch the movie. have another movie in mind for thursday, after the presentation. yes desperate for some fun..need some rest and fun

might be going to Fraser's Hill on friday and saturday...but..just feel like staying at home. or maybe i should go and have some fresh air, and also some nice scenery. will decide when time comes

life is unpredictable. and i hate it at times. hate it

thoughts

2007-08-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

these 2 days have not been feeling very happy. angry. but due to different things. i start to wonder, why do i end up doing honours? i have not really planned for this. in fact, i have never wanted to do it. my initial plan all this while was, to finish my degree and go out there, find a job, make money, and start to do whatever in life that i want to do, get whatever in life that i want to get. i have only planted the seed by applying for the course. and see now how the seed has grown. to study and work at the same time, eventhough just doing a part time job, is not easy. i dont have a car, thus i have to travel around by taking bus. 7 buses in a day is no fun. and to decide on when to go back to the office and when to be back to uni is another headache. things just dont go as i plan at times..just hate it. and now...start to taste how cruel life can be. when you are still new, means you will have to learn, have to tolerate when people just dont give you nice replies, cannot grumble because you are still no good, have to TOLERATE no matter what. this thing is very common in working places, is also not very rare in a campus, eventhough i m still a student. i should stop being so naive, thinking that why people have to behave like that. THIS IS LIFE. FACE IT.

i should stop grumbling. no point. there is no turning back. when challenge comes, you take it and deal with it. thats it.

today dropped by a boutique when i went to save my nike shoes. wanted to buy a new pair, but just cant make myself to take out rm200 for a new pair. anyway, saw a short dress which looks quite nice, and quite cheap, less than rm60. and this makes me thinking about Monash Ball hahaa. if i am going this year, this dress will come in handy. but this sem is different, most of my friends have left uni, no organiser, and no point going too. dont think i will go. time really flies, doesnt it? last year there was this girl who sang Kiss Me towards the end of the ball. memories are still so fresh. sometimes just hate it. why cant i forget things? why am i able to remember things so well??? whats the point???

sorry..nothing seems to sound nice in this post. but i have to vent it out. not happy means not happy. no need to hide. dont like to hide.

lonely

2007-08-16T00:46:00.000+08:00

project is progressing bit by bit, which really makes me happy when i think about it. did a trial test for the water samples that i collected on last sunday, and saw the results today. did get some positive results :) and the research asistant that guides me said that my agar plate looked quite nice. praises on work from people who are quite professional already in the same work do sound good, dont they? just hope things continue to go well..

i guess now i can quite understand why people say research life is boring. the amount of people we meet in the lab area is really small, and for me i guess i can be considered more fortunate, since i have 2 labs to move around, eventhough it still doesnt make much difference. at least i dont have to get stucked in the same lab everyday. i will be in lab 3 when i am doing my microbiology work, if not i will be in lab 5, which is where i will be doing my environmental part, the invertebrates part. lab 3 is quite lively, 3 research assistants and 3 honours students including me. all girls. and they keep playing stephanie sun's songs until they get stucked in my head hahaha. i prefer a lab without music though, but it is not my lab, so i should just get used to it. as for lab 5, there are only 3 of us using the lab, 2 pre-master course students and me. quite like the lab because there is not much people to deal with but just 3 of us, and i can officially claim a place there and stay there as long as i want. can use and touch anything as i wish. just like my own lab. the 2 guys in my lab are quite nice, especially tse yuen. he has been in the lab for some time, so he knows more than i do. has been helping me when i have questions and very nice to chat with. glad to have him in the lab. but life gets really boring when i am the only one in the lab, like today. so quiet and liveless hahaa..except the sound of the bubbles coming out from the aquarium containing the water cockcroaches. and we have another smaller aquarium now with some apple snails and another bug which i am not sure what it is called from the tin mine lake they had field trip on last saturday. very cute little bug, still alive and can swim quite fast in the water. i like the green plants by the window, which show another sign of life in the lab. hope they wont die hahaa..

sometimes just feel a bit too quiet in the lab area. and when people that you meet in the lab dont appear you feel even worse..more quiet than ever. dont have much people to share things with. guess after i go for my sampling, i wont feel bored and lonely anymore. i will be too busy dealing with the samples. miss the time when we go for lectures, where we will meet people everyday, chat with the closer ones everyday, moving from one venue to the other, meeting more people. i have long lost my addiction on msn i guess...last time used to engage in daily chattings with people, but now..most of the people are very busy, and most of the time i am just too lazy to think of anything to say. dont feel like starting conversations. dont feel like choosing people to start chatting. i am tired to care too much anymore i guess, especially when the effort doesnt seem to pay off. tired to drive on a one-way street

i have a feeling that i am somehow stucked in a space, never really move on to the new phase. technically i didnt really have a very good rest since i finished my last semester 2 months ago. just kept worrying about getting a job, when i finally secure a part time job, it is time to start my honours too. feel like going home and rest for a while, and come back here start anew feeling fresh. when will i have the chance to go back? maybe i should think less and concentrate more

tanah merah trip. today

2007-08-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

the trip to Tanah Merah plantation on saturday was quite a nice one. quite an enjoyable day. there were 5 of us going there together: Mr John, the advisor from Wild Asia who brought his wife and his 5-year-old son along; James, the intern from UK and me. Mr John and James were involved in the eco-mating of a part of the eroded river bank in the plantation, while i was there to check out the potential sampling sites

in Mr John's car. around 7am plus. a lovely cloud which doesnt really look very lovely here

the road outside the staying place for Wild Asia people

loading the eco-mats and the blocks to the truck to be transported to the working site. the mats are made out of fibers of unwanted parts of a oil palm fruits, and they can attached to the eroded river bank better than the plastic covers that normally people use to cover the side of the high ways when landslides occur

from left: Mr John's son, Mr John, one of the people who are in charge of the eco-mating and Mr John's wife.

James, the intern from UK

a potential sampling site at Sungai Janging. the river looks yellowish but actually it is just the colour of the sediments which are sand in the river. the water is actually quite clear

at the middle of the river. this was where me and Mr John' s son, Bryn, spent some time 'sampling' while his dad was busy at work somewhere near the front part of the river. the little boy brought along his little net and a little box to catch the larvae, small fish, little shrimps in the river, just like what i am going to do during my own sampling. believe me, this 5-year-old boy's sampling skill is really very impressive. he managed to catch quite a number of things, just by using a little net. and he is just 5 years old!!!

little Bryn showing me some fruit that he found on a plant.

they have plenty of chicken shit flowers at the site

another potential sampling site somewhere in the middle of the plantation. the river still looks quite ok, flowing with clear water

downstream of the above site. the yellow car over there is Mr John's car

this is our so called Pig River. it got its name because of the dead pig found in the river some time ago when Mr JOhn checked out the plantation. yes. it is very yucky-looking and it is giving out a very 'nice' smell. i actually went down there, just by the river to collect some water samples. the soil which i stepped on was very soft, and i thought it was just normal mangrove soil. but to my surprise, the 'soil' which i stepped on was actually BLACK GREASE. eeewwwwwww...

then the last stop was the reservoir. it started to rain when we reached there. in fact at the very beginning at the first river site it had already started to rain..the water looked ok from far. but when you are by the reservoir, you will know that actually does not seem to be as clean as it appears to be..there are a layer of something at the surface of the reservoir. just doesnt look clean.

after the eco-mating was finally done, we went to Port Dickson town in search of lunch. in the end we found this chinese restaurant and had quite a nice meal there..thanks to Bryn, we had crab other than a fish, some pork and a vege. then me and Mr John's family headed back home, while Mr John and James stayed on for the eco-mating work. quite a fun trip...didnt feel like working, more like just a trip for enjoyment. nice

as for today...the most interesting thing is that, my lecturer actually brought in some water cockcroaches and currently rearing them in the lab!!! haahaha. water cockcroaches from the river in FRIM. she wants to know about their eating habits and whether they swim in water. one of them is seriously very big hahaa. hopefully wont see them anywhere outside the tank containing them :p

starting off

2007-08-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

have been really busy and tired these few days. getting my materials ready for my project, meeting my lecturers almost everyday to discuss and clarify things with them, learning the protocol for the microbiology part of the project which i will perform after i do my sampling, learning more about my part time work for the company that offers me this project...ya. walking around so much in uni until people start to wonder why i am so free since they can just bump into me here and there haha. the thing is i am walking around to settle things, not touring around just for fun. and this is the part which makes me really tired. by the end of the day, after i reach home around 8pm plus together with my cousin, all i want to do is to have my dinner and then sleep. very tired..no doubt after a few weeks of free life, this sudden start of busy life again is taxing. glad that most of the things are quite ready now, except some details here and there, and also have to keep learning. just hope things will go well

yesterday i went to the office of the company to discuss about the details of the trip to the plantation that we are going to make this weekend. guess how many buses i took yesterday?? 2 to get to the office which is in Sri Hartamas, 3 to get back to uni which is in Sunway, then another 2 to go home after uni. total: 7 buses, for one whole day. 7 !!! have never done this before, yesterday was the first time hahaa..so many. but thank god the waiting time spent for the buses was still quite acceptable. and also didnt spend much money on them, thanks to the bus fee system of one of the bus company, whereby you buy one ticket and it can be used for any other buses of the same type that you take on the same day. so, you can just pay once and take as many buses as you like, as long as they are the same type. but it was really tiring

really glad that i will be going for a field trip soon. need to rest and have some fun, eventhough i know going there means working. will be going to the oil palm plantation in Port Dickson tomorrow. initially i am supposed to leave this evening, and then will spend the next 4 days there. but because of some situations concerning myself, now the plan has to change and i will only be going there tomorrow and be back tomorrow. haihhh...but all these are done becos of a good intention. feel quite guilty but cant help. feel quite sorry for all the trouble that i have caused. well anyway just hope the trip will be fun, and when i am back i will be one happy girl again, like i always do after field trips :) hope everything will go well tomorrow

transition blues

2007-08-05T14:02:00.000+08:00

watched a new japanese drama on tv yesterday and they have this song that i am playing here as the ending theme song. sounds quite nice. you can check here for the translation of the lyrics, if you want to know what he is singing about..

kind of worried about my project..just in the transition period for the new studying phase i guess. need a bit more time before i can get out of the think-too-much state. should just concentrate on my readings

things are going to be fine. i will be fine

great news

2007-08-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

going to do my honours while doing the project as a job. the company is going to take me in as a part time research assistant and pay me a monthly salary..at the same time, i will be working for my honours year. the project will determine whether i will end up as a first class student or worse..

it is the best news so far for these few weeks :) eventhough they didnt really agree to sponsor me much..

but to think about it...is it really good to do honours? can i really write a thesis and present it nicely??....well i will have to, right? hahaha...if not i will waste all those money..

cant believe that things really turn out like the way i really hope it can. doing an honours plus doing a project that i am interested in..at first i thought i will have to deal with the rats, which i know i cant even inject them hahhaa. now things just seem ok :)

still a great thing for me anyway :) hopefully i will get the agreement soon and start my work soon. tomorrow will go do all those enrolment thingy. cant wait for tomorrow to come. i am just excited! :D

another round of waiting

2007-08-01T02:43:00.000+08:00

a little magic done by my dear friend Ding Ying that managed to bring a smile on me today...

before the magic:

after the magic:

thanks!! :D

while i was browsing through deviant art in the afternoon, came across this painting:

Funguys by Wolfess-fuzzpot

and it reminds me of my own fungi that i drew some time ago...

had the urge to post up the picture there too...hahaa. the painting by Wolfess-fuzzpot is done using water colour and HB pencil. mine is coloured pencils. different materials, different feel too. so cant really compare i guess. and i know it is not easy to use water colour and produce such tones on the pictures, eventhough the effect may make it look as if it is easy to produce. i think the actually piece of picture by Wolfess-fuzzpot should look more stunning..

the start of the week marked the start of another round of waiting for replies about the project. mood has not been very good these days, kind of down..plus the aimless waiting again..just makes things worse i guess hahaa. well cant do much about it right...so just try to keep myself busy loh. today i cleared up my laptop, i should have more space n thus faster speed once i get those files out of my com. going to burn them out. will go out n have some air tomorrow.

please give me some replies!!! god...i hate waiting :(

weekend

2007-07-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

met up with Tho Wei on saturday...one of my A level friends. Eugene came along too. i was the organiser of the outing, and i really did quite a bad job this time. i went ahead to plan the outing on friday night, totally forgetting that i was supposed to stay at home and wait for a courier on saturday. so, the plan changed, from a movie plus lunch, to lunch only, then finally ended up meeting at dinner time..and i didnt think about watching a movie at dinner time, so i didnt check the movie show times. but i couldnt resist the urge to watch a movie after i reached Mid Valley. so we went to the cinema to check out the movies before our dinner. these 2 guys were just so nice....we were already half way through the long long queue (the cinema queue is forever super duper long during weekends...), but i gave up on the horror movie that i suggested to watch..becos the movie already started during the time we were just half way in the queue. they didnt even utter a single bad word, after i suggested to give up on the movie, just followed what i said. i am so sorry...we went to Kim Gary for dinner (yes it was my idea again, becos i wanted to try the nice baked rice there again, and they just said yes too...see how nice they are..just so nice la..) the dinner was great, food was good, the chatting was the best, it is always nice to just catching up and talking about some good old experience and memories we shared in the past. best joke of the night, provided by Eugene: [question: what is the biggest city in malaysia?]....[answer: siti nurhaliza].... Good one! hahahaa..laughed so hard. the outing turned out good, despite the lousy planning done by me. wonder whether we can still meet again like this next year...

tho wei, me and eugene (at Kim Gary, Mid Valley. but to me it looks as if we took the picture in some night clubs hahaa..dont know whats wrong with my camera flash, or maybe we picked the wrong waitress who turned out to be a bad photographer :p )

always like the july-august period of the year..those in UK and in Singapore will be back to KL for holidays, since they are having the 3-month break, and we will always meet up. usually will have plenty of very nice and enjoyable outings this period. last year i did wonder whether i would be able to make it for these outings this year, and i did make it this year. how about next year? who knows right...life is so unpredictable

have been thinking a bit too much these few days...no good..well anyway, just hope that this week will be a good one with things going well. hope you will have a good one :)

love it too much

2007-07-28T13:34:00.000+08:00

came across this music video on tv lately...eventhough i have watched the movie for 3 times, i still find the robots SO COOL. not to mention, the hot girl in the movie, Megan Fox, who is just SO HOT, with her beautiful eyes and dark coloured hair. (erm ya...i do talk about hot girls more than hot guys hahaa..there are just no hot guys ma, not my fault right :p )

hope you like the video and the song :)

umbrella

2007-07-27T18:31:00.000+08:00

hmm....things have been going quite well this week. finally got the details for the project. should be working on it. as for the honours part, i am still not sure whether i can do the project as a job and also as my honours project..if the company is nice enough to help me with my fees, then it will be a definite yes for honours. if not..then dont know la. currently i am waiting for their reply. see how it goes. but i am really glad that finally i have some details for the project. at least now i can be quite sure that i have some thing to work on, not just living aimlessly in worry everyday hahahaa..hope things will go well and turn clearer next week :)

came across this when i was reading one of my friends' blog:

"what about you? have you had anyone who got half wet holding an umbrella for you? or you are the same as me and ah kor? which role are you playing and which role do you like to play?"

well..it makes me think for a while. hmmm ya. my mum is one of the people who used to get half wet holding an umbrella for me. those days when i was still in secondary school and my mum would always be waiting together with me for the school bus to come and pick me up. if it was raining, then she would cover me with the umbrella up to the bus...i had 2 friends who got wet becos holding umbrella for me. one was during my A level times, a group of us were going out for lunch or something..and i was sharing unbrella with this friend who was quite tall, so it was more convenient for him to cover me eventhough i owned the umbrella. the rain was quite heavy and he got half wet while i was still quite dry. i remember i only realised that he was getting wet when i saw our reflection when we walked pass a building with a glass door/wall. the other one was during an outing for A level friends when i am already in KL for uni. it was raining very heavily, and one of my friends covered me to get into the car when we were leaving. he got wet and i was dry...

sometimes i do hold umbrella for people too..becos usually i am the owner of the umbrella, and usually owner is the holder hahaa. another thing is i feel more comfortable walking when covering people instead of being covered. well...of course it feels nice when someone is covering you, but it always makes me feel bad when the person covering me get wet becos he/she is trying to keep me dry...it really makes me realise how kind they are, and makes me remember for long what they have done for me. i guess i would rather let myself get wet than to see them get wet becos of me. thanks for keeping me dry :)

thats all for now

better day

2007-07-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

life is just so funny...it will only have something nice to make me feel better, after i feel extremely terrible. today is supposed to be a stay-home-and-looking-for-jobs day, but in the morning got a message from Hui En, my ex-roommate in Singapore, asking me whether i want to join her and her sister to watch Transformers. apparently she and her younger sis were in Mid Valley at that moment. first happy thing of the day! :) havent met her for about 1 year or more. she did mention to me that she would be in KL this week..but the message was just so sudden and the movie was supposed to start after one hour's time! hahaha..well i have watched transformers twice, but it was her that i wanted to meet, so it didnt matter what movie we would be watching..friends is one of the reasons that can make me rewatch a movie that i have watched already. so i rushed to Mid Valley and did make it for the movie :D had quite a nice time chatting with her while i was having lunch. missing her now.. :( hope we can meet again soon..

hui en's younger sis, me and hui en :)

during the movie...got a call from my lecturer asking me to go for a meeting tomorrow. should be about the project. second happy thing of the day!! :D just too bad for the 2 guys who were sitting at the same row as me. my lecturer called me twice, and for both the calls i ran out of the movie theatre to answer them. and i had to get through the 2 guys, passing right in front of them since i was sitting at the middle of the row, while they were sitting near the aisle. how am i supposed to listen to the details that my lecturer was going to tell me when the Decepticons (the bad transformers, if you have never watched transformers) were attacking people with all the bombings and fightings going on? sorry la...you are just too lucky to join me for the movie today :p

third happy thing of the day, is to see all those lovely messages on my chatbox wishing me good luck and be happy :) thanks so much....really touched

hope tomorrow things will go well...cross my fingers

today

2007-07-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

there was no miracles...no scholarship for my honours.

there were also no news...for my interview and the project. and this...has further intensified the already intense job pressure on me. instead of comfort and support, all i received over the phone were questionings, blames. you know...i do feel bad enough and very worried too about my current status. can i have a little more time and some understandings?

i am very tired with this job pressure thing....seriously hope that things will get better soon.

please get better

my life now

2007-07-22T11:58:00.000+08:00

totally boring and aimless!!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!!!

all i can do is waiting for news...until now there is still no reply for the interview, no details for the project..

when i go out and spend money, i feel bad. because i am supposed to earn money, not to spend money. when i stay at home, i am either with my com, or in front of the tv...not in the mood to chat, not in the mood to go out. not in the mood to do ANYTHING. what kind of life is this????

well..at least tomorrow i will have some news for my honours thingy. got a call yesterday, asking me to collect my honours offer package. will there be any miracles?? we will see tomorrow...

wish me good luck for tomorrow

job

2007-07-19T03:01:00.000+08:00

the interview on monday wasnt too well...i felt. had a feeling that i didnt really give the interviewers a good impression. and i realise it is really true that every interview is a learning experience. for this interview i learnt how to answer certain standard questions...well, at least next time i will know what to say. they said they would give me a reply within this week...

after the interview, i went back to uni to certify more documents. met my friend Marcella who is still doing her double degree, one more year for her..so glad to see her. on my way home, i received a call from my lecturer....was quite surprised to see her name on my phone, who would expect a call from a lecturer? i bumped into her in uni, so i thought maybe i accidentally left some important documents with her. but actually she called me to ask whether i am interested to take up a project, which is a job!!! thats the happiest news that i have received so far for these few weeks! a job offer without me doing anything to get it you know! it drops from the sky just like that! i was so happy hahaaa..but for a while la. after some time later at night i started to think about it and was wondering whether i should take up the job or continue waiting for the reply from the interview, because i found out that the project actually lasts for about 1 year..not just a few weeks but one year...quite long and it is not a long term thing, what should i do after 1 year?? but still, i need a job urgently, because of the intense job pressure that really makes me worry..and i am lack of a project experience, i have not done any research based projects and have never written thesis before. so finally decided to go for it and thank god my mum wasnt really against it! it is a job anyway, and i feel like taking it up. these few days my lecturer has been trying her best to get the details of the project for me...and she is trying very hard to make it into an honours project for me....god, i really feel like emphazing to her that without the scholarship i wont be able to do my honours, i would feel so bad if after all her hard work i am still unable to get the scholarship and thus cant do honours. so far i feel bad enough already, she is doing all the hard work while me just waiting by the phone for news...how can i ever repay her kindness?...anyway will definitely get more details by friday...shall see how then

just now went for Transformers for the second time. STILL SO COOL!!! go watch it if you havent watched yet..amazing transformations and the fightings between the robots were fantastic! to me la hahaaaa..i am a transformer supporter since i was still a little girl. so feel like watching the cartoon i watched last time..

fate is such a funny thing...without much effort, i am back to kl again, and now it is leading me back to uni again because of the project. life is so unpredictable

back

2007-07-16T02:29:00.000+08:00

have a job interview tomorrow. and thats the reason why i am back to KL so soon..

my results are sufficient to qualify me for the honours course, but they are insufficient for me to get the scholarship, unless there is a miracle. no scholarship, no honours.

last week i was really overwhelmed by the job pressure at home. towards the end of the week, the external pressure together with my own worries for the last set of results drove me crazy. REALLY CRAZY. thank god for giving me this chance to be back to kl again. thank you so much...

today was quite a lovely day. me and my cousin managed to find the location of my interview tomorrow..he was really so nice, drove me all the way to Klang just to check out the place..eventhough it was raining. really glad to know that the building is within walking distance from the ktm station, so there will be no problem for me to get there by myself. please wish me good luck for the interview tomorrow..i really need to secure a job so as to free me from the intense job pressure. wish me good luck...and now only i realise that to read maps is actually not an easy thing. one whole book of maps for Klang, and i am just amazed by how people can actually organize it in such a neat way. i was supposed to read the map and be the navigator, while he was driving the car..but i did quite a bad job, didnt really make his life easier...he still had to stop sometimes to read the map, becos i was still kind of blur about it hahaha..so sorry about that. after today, i do know how to appreciate the book of maps better. new skills obtained

today bumped into a senior at the Mc Donalds near my housing area when me and my cousin went there for lunch before our search for the place. i knew him since the first day i stepped into monash, even before i started my course there..he was the one who brought me around for the campus tour during the open day. after about 3 years of knowing him, now only i know he lives really close to me hahaaa..quite a pleasant surprise of the day for bumping into him

i should really go to bed. do wish me good luck for tomorrow :)

malacca

2007-07-15T03:08:00.000+08:00

went to Malacca the next day after my last paper, which was on 27/6 . a trip organised by another group of uni friends. left for Malacca on wednesday evening, as some of us had their final paper on wednesday morning. spent a night there, back to KL on thursday night

view from the suite we stayed in..it was around 3pm plus 4pm when we reached Malacca

view from my room. i shared a room with another 3 girls. there were 3 rooms in the suite for 14 of us

twilight at the place where we stayed

our first meal. all the people in the trip. i am holding the camera

all the 7 guys

all the 7 girls

before we settled down for our first meal, actually we had spent quite a lot of time searching for this shop famous for its satay celup. went round and round the malacca city for at least half an hour and when we finally found it, it was actually closed that day....... at the end we decided to stay in Malacca for dinner on thursday just becos we wanted to try the satay celup in this shop

a few of us started to take the picture of this shop becos of the wonderful effort we put it to locate it but ended up looking at a sign saying 'closed today'. and nicole always knows i am taking photo from the back...she will always turn back and give me a perfect smile whenever i try to take a pic from behind quietly hahhaaa. just like this one. i wonder how she knows i am taking photo hehe

our third meal of the night. the second one was a noodle shop, this one is a cha siew fan shop. a moment when everyone was chatting happily..

"how much how much??"

after the third meal we went back to the hotel for a while before we came out again. one of us, Jun Jie, decided to treat everyone of us McD ice cream. he was just so nice..trying to get all of us going out together again :)

the lounge in the hotel which we stopped by for just a few minutes before McD. it was closing and nothing much also..

midnight ice cream treat at McD

slurrrppss...

walking back (very bad lighting...too bad)

the mosque somewhere far which could be seen from the suite we stayed in

midnight empty street

Thursday early morning. i woke up around 7.15am plus..usually no matter where i go, i wont be able to sleep too good during the first night at the place where i stay. so the next morning i will always wake up quite early, no matter how late i sleep the night before

i like the reflection on the water. oh thats the mosque which i mentioned previously

yueh wen and nicole. 3 of us had a morning walk around the malacca town area while others still in their dreamland

i like the flowery pattern. this is the entrance for a shopping centre at Dataran Pahlawan

one corner of Dataran Pahlawan

interesting stairs. the picture on every step is a part of a big drawing. if you combine all the steps together, you will see a very nice drawing.

lovely ladies. lovely stairs.

chien wen. yueh wen. (this reminded me of a funy incident nicole told me. my name and yueh wen's name both have a 'wen' and usually people call her wen. during the trip, there was once nicole wanted to call me, but she just pressed 'call' when she saw the name 'wen' in her phone number list, which actually stands for yueh wen, not chien wen..hahaha)

Geronimo!

just at the doorstep. didnt climb up to the famosa though

on our way back to the hotel

the cloud arrangement on the sky looks kind of fake...but it is real

somewhere in the hotel

some time before we checked out of the room

the famous chicken rice balls. they are really VERY DELICIOUS..

after the nice lunch we went to Jonker Street before watching Transformers later in the afternoon. this shop is the Orang Utan House, a shop selling the art work by Charles Cham. quite like some of his T shirt designs, but couldnt make myself to pay for them..the price is just a little too high

the entrance

the T shirt designs. actually i was told that i wasnt supposed to take any photos in the shop. but the shopkeeper still didnt really stop me though after he told me not to take photos. so ya loh..dont care. just take :p

'i love chicken rice!'

'to lah or not to lah'....lah lah lah

another corner of the shop. hmm to think about it now, i am quite glad that the shopkeeper didnt chase me out of the shop becos of illegal photo taking hehe

nice building

after spending some time at the Jonker Street, we finally made our way to our ultimate goal before the movie: the nice chendol shop. a very special shop with very unique tradisional decorations. felt as if i went back in time to another era

a staircase showcasing antique fans, antique phones, antique irons..

lost in time

old posters

overview of the shop

a memory captured in time

another lovely building

the ship which houses a museum. it looked really beautiful at night..but still we didnt have a chance to stop by to take a nice photo of it. took this while we were on our way for the movie.

TRANSFORMERS! many of us wanted to watch it so badly and we tried to buy the tickets for the preview when we arrived on wednesday. but there was no previews and would only be released on thursday. so on thursday, few of us went to grab the tickets. the line was quite long, eventhough it was only 11.30am...but being a movie bug, i didnt want to give up just becos of the long queue. so i insisted to queue. and in the end we did manage to get the tickets hehehe..THANK GOD. the movie was REALLY GREAT!! it just brought back all the wonderful childhood memories..i loved transformers SO MUCH when i was still a little girl. and now i am watching them yet again, with all the amazing transformations. last time they just transform in simple 2 or 3 steps, but in the movie, every single detail transforms and it is just so fasinating!!!! i love that movie..

after the movie, we went for the satay celup that we missed out the night before. and that brings us to the end of the trip..

time to say goodbye

life in Malacca carries on. and each of our lives carry on too..lovely trip. lovely memory.

back to KL

just-got-back home syndrome

2007-07-06T13:24:00.000+08:00

symptoms include:
- missing the internet
- missing my wonderful bed in KL
- missing the movies..MOVIES!! ARGHHH... :(
- missing my cousin. of course la we have been staying under one roof for 3 years
- missing people
- MISSING MY FUN LIFE IN KL!!! when will i be back again??

kind of feeling better today..maybe is the internet dose. guess i just need somemore time

how are you? everything fine?

take care

home

2007-07-03T07:48:00.000+08:00

leaving KL in a while..time to go back to JB. feel quite sad...had been feeling quite depressed yesterday. once i get back, there will be no internet, no movies..outings will be really hard, i cant go anywhere without a car. it is a new housing area and the public transport has not developed much yet. places are not within walking distance. but all these are just minor problems i guess. there are other things, such as job pressure...is there anything to be happy about? i dont know..

i had been going out for the past few days. last tues after my paper i spent the whole day in Pyramid with some of my friends. then on wednesday and thursday i was in Malacca. friday i was supposed to go back to uni but i was quite tired..so decided to stay at home. saturday morning i went to see the eye on Malaysia, while at night i met up with some A Levels friends (Eugene How, Lee Huang, and also Chee Hou who brought his girl along). eugene had been quite nice, yesterday i was depressed about going home, and he knew that i felt like watching Transformers again, so he tried to organise for a movie outing last night but some couldnt make it..how heart warming..anyway on sunday i went out too, went to KLCC to meet up one of my seniors, Ying Xin. and yesterday i went back to uni to settle some document stuff. thats why i have not been blogging, i dont really have the time and energy to blog. i doubt i can finish posting about the Malacca trip. guess another time then..

i am not sure when i will be back again. is either very soon, or sometime in late august or early september, since the graduation ceremony is in september. well, i really hope that my results will be fine...i cant imagine what will happen if i need to repeat anything. please wish me good luck

haihhh...can i dont go back? can i go back only after i check my results next week?? :'(

take care..and keep in touch. i can always be reached by my hp, and my email add is the msn one. bye..

hanging out

2007-06-30T03:44:00.000+08:00

a graduate now, unofficially and also...hopefully. nothing can be 100% sure, not until 13/7, when i will be getting my final set of results. just hope that nothing will go wrong

had been hanging out with my uni friends since i finished my last paper. no one can be sure when we will be meeting each other again, so everyone tried his/her best to grab hold of the final chance to spend some time together. initially, me and my dearie planned to spend time together on the day we finished our paper..just the two of us, before we went separate ways. but then another friend of mine asked me to join them for a last outing, so i joined them, only met up with my dearie after i was done with the first outing. spent the whole afternoon in Sunway Pyramid. went for lunch in Mahattan Fish Market after the paper, together with Marcella, Elmy, Audrey, Vivi and the 2 sisters. Audrey was really happy that day, smiling broadly since we finished the paper and during the lunch. i guess the fun part for me only came after the lunch, when i spent time walking around in Pyramid together with Marcella and Elmy after the rest left. had a great time chatting and laughing while we walked around...was really happy. it was really fun to be with people that i am very comfortable with. glad that we did manage to spent some time together before we part

Elmy, Marcella and me, taken while waiting for the buggy car to bring us to the entrance of Pyramid

after that, my dearie came to Pyramid to meet me up. had a great great time together with her too. met up with some other friends who were also in Pyramid, Su Yi, Fang Theng and Jian Jun. i wanted to watch movie but there wasnt any nice ones and the timing was wrong too. so we went shopping, the thing that my dearie enjoys most during outing. i was carrying some notes that a friend returned to me after the paper..and my dearie started to worry that it would be too heavy for me to carry around to shop..so she came out with ideas as to where to leave the notes while we went shopping. we wanted to leave it in the locker in Giant but the person-in-charge didnt allow us to do so, it was too obvious that we were leaving the notes there but wasnt going to shop in Giant. that was the only logical idea. after that we had funny but unworkable ideas, eg leave it at the space behind the ATM machine, leave the notes with a little girl we saw in one of the shops we went (she was standing at the corner of the shop playing by herself while her mother/someone she knows was shopping, just nice to take care of my notes hahaha)..but actually it was fine for me to carry them around la..i dont mind. was glad to see her having fun shopping around, like to see her excited look when she saw something nice that she liked. it was really sad when the time to say goodbye came..felt so reluctant to part with her. gave her a hug before i went off, but i just felt like hugging her tight and never let go....really going to miss her

anatomy field trip 2005

monash ball 2006

while we were shopping on the day we finished our finals last sem

Kuala Gandah elephant sanctuary trip

during her birthday celebration

some wonderful times that we spent together all these while..when will we meet again? graduation maybe...haih

cant upload the pics taken during the Malacca trip, thanks to the darn connection. will only talk about it next time then

shall sleep...zzZZ

coming close

2007-06-24T02:48:00.000+08:00

everything is going to end very soon..tuesday i will have my last paper. whats next? beats me..

dont know what to say these days. have been asking myself to study hard. but a leopard never changes its spots, does it? when i press myself too hard, i get too stressed up and cant read at all. when i dont pressure myself, i read really slow and cant concentrate..haih

had a chat with my dearie just now. she really knows me so well..asks me to study hard, do work early, dont drink too much coffee...i m really going to miss her. one of my closest friends in uni (and by the way, i address her as 'dearie' becos she is my close female friend. we are perfectly straight)

i like it when people accept me just the way i am. i hope after many more years down the road, i can still keep that simplicity and that little bit of innocence in me

i should get back to my notes